21st bday!

Thank you! *muacks*

Thank you for all who came!!! Thanks for coming, Thanks for the gifts, Thanks for bringing all the smiles to me! =) Thanks to those who couldnt come but i received your well wishes n hugs n kisses! =) I was really super busy that day, but I felt really happy that everyone spared the time to come!

I enjoyed all the "happy birthdays"! Thanks once again for making me feel like I'm a star! =) *muacks* I wished I had more time to sing with everyone and say goodbye and thank you to everyone... *thanks again!*

yummie! this is GOOD... (thanks mummy!)

mei nus! pammie joyce jane sylvia!

my fav niece n nephew!! =) aint they cute?!

peiling is so sweet!

brainies!!! *muacks* *muacks* *muacks*

pris n peiling r gd frenz after jus one song! =)

i lurve my cake! looks gd, and tastes better! yummie! i lurve hazelnuts!

i have cake AND flowers! =) great combi!

mum n dad n sis n mi! =)

pri sch frenz! oops... there's onlie sylvia darling! hee hee *muacks*

st nix galz!

vjc ppl! =)

ntuco! plus our two future members! =)

ntu engine ppl... vs

... ntu non-engine ppl

ntu eee gang!

ntuco tanpo!

hey tt's my new nametag!

jing n yuqin! late!

elaine says this can be my matchmaking photo! *haha*

osim!

my roomie! *muacks*

aint it romantic? city space is cool! =)

pretty ladies (and pretty toilet rite?!)

guess who were the photographers? =)

Thank you List:
Mummy + Daddy >> thanks for preparing the food! *muacks* and thanks for supporting me all this while...
Sis Hui>> thanks for the company n help in the process of planning =)
Elaine >> thanks for being my beauty consultant! you are the one who made me a princess! =)
Xuan >> gosh! the equinox was the best part of the night! thanks xuan mummy!
Roomie Wenyi >> thanks for the wonderful idea of the photo album n thanks for printing all those pix to brighten up the album!

thanks for all the presents! i really lurve them! special thanks to brainies for the super chio swatch watch! n thanks to nellers n gang for the hp voucher! thanks to osim ppl for the precious moments figurine! it's so pretty! =) i feel like i'm a greedy pig... these pressies are so exp! thanks thanks thanks!
*muacks* lurve ya all!

freezing

freezing...

awwwww... actually I think i m more like frozen, nt freezing... bin staying in hall the whole day (oops... wad abt lessons?) and guess how productive my day is?

bin mapling whole day, read abt 3 pages of notes, listening to songs, read the same 3 pages of notes, more mapling, and read the 3 pages of notes again... (dotz...)

abit sad some ppl cant make it for my bday... but really touched by darlings for putting in so much effort into my bday... thanks to elaine! she's my honoured beauty consultant! thanks to xuan mummy... i cant wait for sat nite outing to equinox (iz tt how u spell it?) thanks to darling brainies n gang... but pls dun get me a hp... it's too expensive... as i said, my bday list is purely write "shuang"!!!! it's more like my wishlist for this yr... hahaz... jus get mi sth within ur budgets and sth u like n i'll like too! =) *muackz* lurve ya lots!!!

i want to mug! but somehow i cant.... argh... i'll start tmr (oops did i hear tt b4? haha)

kss

去爱吧 如同从来没有受过伤害一样
Love like you’ve never been hurt before

跳舞吧 如同没有任何人注视你一样
Dance like there’s no one watching you

唱歌吧 如同没有任何人聆听一样
Sing like no one’s listening

工作吧 如同不需要金钱一样
Work like you don’t need money

活着吧 如同今日是末日一样
Live like today’s your last day

Bday Bday!

less than 2 weeks more...

to MY BDAY!! hee hee... lots to bz... (still...) haiz... hopefully everyone will cum!!! =) oh yeah.. m now erm... in psycho lecture... listening (?!) and lappie-ing (yeah...) will have a psycho quiz later n i m far far away from even half prepared... zzzz.... i can see my mugger mission going down the drain... argh...

ok... hmmm... lots of ppl have bin asking wad i want for my bday... hee hee... time to start putting up my bday wish list! wahahahahah... but i so shy... nt so thick-skin as to say wad i really wan... eg. handphone, mp3 player, precious moments figuring, new lappie, new desktop plus broadband for my home, blah blah blah... oops... wahahaha... hey dun close the window leh... i m nt tt unfrenly lah... wahhahahaha...

okok... how abt this list? =)
1. handphone - i want a SLIDE PHONE! (i lurve LG chocolate - but i dun like its functions...) so samsung ones r nt bad! (hee hee... okok... this IS expensive... jus write for shuang! haha)
2. MP3 Player! - i lurve sony's!!! the flash 1G MP3 is 179 (wooo...) and the hard disk 6G one is 299 (wooooooo......) hahaz... (okok... another one write for shuang de...)
3. Precious Moments figurine! wahahaha... i lurve this one with a pretty gal holding a bouquet of flowers... it's called "may love blossom whereever you go" but it's expensive (quite) and pretty useless... (impractical in my sis' view)
4. watch!! - how abt a swatch watch?! (woo... ok! dun kill mi! jus kidding... they r too darn expensive lah i know!)
5. accessories! - wld love necklaces or earrings or bracelets! =) i trust everyone will get mi nice pretty stuff! wahahahahaha...
6. new bag! - would love a tote bag! or handbag (always wanted a white one)
7. can gimme huge stuffed toys! (ok.. this is impractical too...) but sometimes they r really cute! wahahahaha... hmmm i dun mind doraemon (even though i have 2 oreadie!) or the black/white pigs (oops i dunno their names!) or the green tortoise! (no pink or brown ones pls... i like the greenies most.. oh n as usual i dunno their names...)
8. ok... jus a last item.. in case there ARE really super rich frenz out there... u know, i lurve gold bars?! (nt those chocolate gold bars pls...) wahahahahahaha...

wooo... i m so thick-skin! oops i mean i m so shy n humble! =) wahahahahha... *blushes* hope this helps somehow... so u all can avoid banging ur heads against the walls looking for something for She Ya the Great... *smilez* ok even though the list was no much help.. heehee...

23rd Sept 2006, saturday, 2-7pm, Hougang CC ktv... be there! =)

mugger mission 1

Mugger Mission 1

yo hi!!! i am finally blogging!!!! =) wahahahaha... how's my mugging? hee hee... bad.... mugger misson 1 has sorta failed... not totally though, but at least i m attending all my lectures and tutorials, including the make-ups!!! see! great improvement from last sem already!!!! yay! i m such a wonderful gal!!!! (guai bah!)

the bad thing abt mission 1 that i have yet to trully accomplish - to do my tutorials faithfully... its already SO tiring to attend 24AUz worth of lessons every wk! i'm already dying... so tired!!! ok... i'm trying so hard to read my notes and reading le...but of cos i cant kip up... oops my roomie jus commented that although i go for all my lectures, i m always late(ok... i cant get outta bed in time)... but at least i think i dun sleep in lectures as much as she do... surprisingly i m awake for most lectures!!! =)

and to make mugger mission 1 even more challenging... my addiction to drama has been acting up again!!!!!!! I jus cant stop watching "My lovely samsoon"!!!!! thanks to the wonderful tv reception at hall 11... now i come back every night and spend my time:
1. you-tube: watch kim sam soon
2. maple: kill kill kill
3. 10pm - 11pm: Kim Sam Soon on chn U!
4. you-tube: more kim sam soon!!!
i m jus so addicted already... anyone has the show?!?!?!?!?!?!?! help mi!!! let mi watch!!!!

birthday party will become a reality! ( i hope!) have yet to book the place... but i think i will do it sometime this wkend... then i will officially announce and sms everyone! =) do come!!! 23rd sept, sat (start of mid term break for NTU!), 2-7pm, Hougang CC ktv... i decided shall get 4 rooms instead of jus 3... so come early! dun let my rooms be too empty leh! haha...

birthday party... so much to plan, so much to spend, so much to do, so much to worry... hahaz... but i think the memories are worth alot more... =)

我想我可以就像你一样，当作什么都没发生。。。但现在的我，还做不到。我最近才发现，原来我比想象中脆弱。

mugger mi!!!!

i m RESOLVED to become a MUGGER this sem!!!!

yesh i m! do not doubt it... this is SHE YA the great and yesh i have decided to be a MUGGER!!! (hurrays!!!) too bad this din cum 4 sems ago, but don't worry i will be so hardworking that i can makeup for all the past sems!!!

too lazie to blog n post pix... sry i noe i promised... next wk maybe... when i take time off my mugging... hahaz...

i am going to attend all my lectures n tutorials. i am going to do my tutorials. i am going to read my notes. (oh gosh can i really do all this?! i'll try!!! ^^ )

i'm doing this because i don't want to think about stuff i don't want to think about... i might as well channel all these energy to fulfill more worth-while tasks... =)

down...

down...

ok... yesh i've been feeling really down this past week... i feel like all the confidence i've ever had is slipping away... i feel as though i'm all broken up inside... but i know i can survive. i know my wounds will heal... it jus takes time... i nid more happiness... (oh n more $ too, pls! hee...)

明知道会后悔的事，就不应该去做。
我想，我不只伤害了自己，也伤害了他。

i'm back!!!

i'm back!!!

woo.. m finally back in sinapore! =) great to be home! did ya all miss mi?! hee hee... beijing is wonderful if u take away the hot weather, horribly salty food, bad air, lousy traffic, and enormous amounts of walking... loved the shopping! ^^

watch out for fotoz when i m free enough to upload n post! =)

没有时间了

我想我真得很失败。
两年前，我以为我还有很多时间。

直到最近我才发现，
时间已经过了那么多。
直到最近我才发现，
情况似乎和当时一样。
直到最近我才发现，
原来已经没有那么多时间了。。。

我要怎么做，才能让时间停止？

h11 comp room

met a nice gentleman in the hall 11 computer room... (was too bored in the room watching CNA... but the aircon here is down...) we chatted abit, and erm... he sorta tried to know me... but i have a hard time catching what he was trying to say.. i think it's cos of the accent... he gave me his email address but of cos i don't intend to email him or anything... think i wont use the comp room tt often to see him anyway... (i hope!) it sure is wierd being in a dark comp room with someone i jus met barely an hour ago and asking about what i feel as a singaporean and how would i feel to actually go out on the road with a negro like him... i m not being racist (i am not!) but it jus feels wierd... maybe cos i m too shy.. he's over 10 yrs older than me! and i dun exactly feel charmed by someone who's "determined, courageous, and humble" (that's what he says...)

ok.. not a very good way to speak of someone i jus met... he's a nice guy lah... with much wisdom... (k lah.. i m stupid...) glad to have met such an interesting person here in hall 11... =)


I don't know what I should do... would it be better to be kept as a secret? Is it really just admiration and not fondness? I just learnt something today... "first admiration, then like, and finally love"

Brainies outing!!!!

Brainies Outing!!!

Finally! the long awaited brainies trip!!! =) joyce looks so skinny after she came back from her london trip (jealous!) AND before tt, her korea trip (MORE jealous)... Clare went london too, and Janey maybe going HK (jealous!!!!!) while poor me will melt in Beijing soon... haha... okok... Beijing is good enuff... seems like there's so much stuff for mi to prepare for my first ever china trip, and my first ever airplane ride! feeling bit lazie... haha... first i nid to move hall first! hee hee...

The pretty brainies!!!! *muacks* i lurve ya all darlings!!!

Janey is SOOOO cute!!!! her HUGE eyes with our yuen yang bing! ^^

Hey joyce u r supposed to make a funny face!!! =P

mi n joyce's shoes... wad can i say? great minds think alike! =D

Janey's lok kok shoe with a HOLE!!! (and her ankle socks... she insists on getting them into the photo! haha)

The ghostly brainies..... gonna miss ya all!!!

Till we meet again!!! muacks!!!!

lala!!!

hihi... k i realised i m so lazie when it comes to blogging... hahaz... paiseh lah... i AM lazie i admit it...

wooow so fast n i'm left with abt a mth of school hols... minus CO trip, minus moving hall, minus CO practs (if i turn up)... oh... like nt much time left... sianz... i haven really got to enjoy n hols is almost over?! sigh...

thanks darling brainies... miss ya all so much... joyce u back in sgp le? m so jealous!!! i oso wish to go London n Korea! sniff sniff... n janey oso nv chio mi go out... must be too bz rite!? haha... watashiwa oso really rotting at home... hee... the only person i really go out with is Elaine lor... she's the one who's dragging mi out of the comfort of my rotting in my cosy little hdb flat... haha... but den.. without her i guess i would spend even more time rotting and will be even more "no life"... haha... okok thanks darling elaine... =) *muacks*

C.O. has bin... haiz... i dunno how to say it... i guess i m dreading the travelling... i m so darn lazie lah... i hate leaving home to go for CO... (no like anyone there misses my company...) but i guess it's ok during practice... hmmmph... but liddat i will miss my superband!!! argh... i lurve soul n j3... hopefully juzB or milupin cums back this wk... =)

ai qing mo fa shi is nice! but too similar to wang zi bian qing wa... n my mom loves goong... she can watch n rewatch n not get bored... hahaz...

ok... say i m bored, cos i m, blogging twice in a nite... i cant find better things to do... and being online is... well, shld i say rare for mi... n i still dunno wad to do! haha... talking on msn... a fav pasttime of so many ppl i noe... is becoming v depressing for mi...

k lah... sorry for darlings angeline, yiing and elaine... well, who else talks on msn with mi lor? sometimes i dun c the point of going online to "talk" when we c each other so often (?)
haiz... say i m wierd... i come on msn... maybe i m looking for someone to chit chat, but well... it makes me feel all the more sianz.... sry darlings again... hahaz...

hmmm... sometimes i wonder why m i who i m? why m i not like the people i noe? why do i feel like i have frenz, but i still feel lonely all the same? i dunno who i can find when i nid a talk... i dunno who i can find to accompany me through the lonely nights in hall... i dunno who i can find if i jus wish to chill out... i dunno who to call when i feel like talking... perhaps i feel that i m worthy of noone's attention... i dunno.... why shld anyone bother abt mi?

M.i.A.-ing

yoho... bin mia for v long... since end of DIP... have bin rotting at home... very sianz very bored... but interestingly, i am enjoying it quite abit... hee hee... ok so i AM a pig...

well... sometimes i think i am tt type of person who can jus stay cut off from the world... i jus nid to stay at home... hee... no job no money but it's ok... i dun really wan to go out too... no money to spend, no where to go and nobody to go with... haha... i jus get this feeling that noone misses mi jus as i miss noone... (isolating myself) (hee)

ok... but think cos home has so many people... mommy is at home everyday now... so yesh, home's very noisy everyday... *she can scream at so many things i m so amazed by her... oh i used the wrong word... it's *annoyed... haha...

k... i wan to get a job, but i m like onlie free for... hmmm... i cant even say a mth... with the CO china trip rite in the mid of my remaining hols... haiz... i'll try looking for temp or one-off job k? any lobang?

what do you do when you feel lonely? what is it like to fall in love? what is it like to get used to life with a special someone?

maybe i dun look like that kind... but i do get lonely.... sometimes...

morning!!!

yoho! DIP is ending soon!!! after this presentation... hee...

dunno how cum become the presenter for the other grp... haiz... tot can slack but seems no.. haha... after this can go out play (finally)... hee

yesterday went out with elaine... went bugis walk walk... super alot of pple!!! argh... tried to find the mei tt peishi darling bought... but there r so many shops there i really dunno which one got... in the end oso cannot find the special "korean mei"... n the weather so super hot i cant stand it... wahahahahaha... so in the end anyhow buy mei... hee... okok... i m lousy...

den i went home with elaine... she wanna watch goong... den suddenly got fever... n feel v hot n sick for the rest of the nite... haiz... but now ok liaoz lah... hopefully... hee... today came to lab early to perpare for the presentation but seems like i'm too early haha... k lah... they nid time to warm up i guess... wateva...

shall go back to emm... preparing... hahaz... wish mi luck!

DIP...

boo! DIP has been, literally - horrible! argh... first was being "thrown" into the project with no guidance what-so-ever from the prof, next came our hopes of several highly ambitious ideas which the lab techs confirmed we will NEVER get it done by the short span of 5 weeks.... when we finally decided on what to do, (thanks to the lab techs for helping us find ideas) we face the huge hurdle of ASSEMBLY language... argh... the only parts i guess i enjoyed was the shopping at Sim Lim for components and motor (oh i think we got cheated... the motor cost us $15!!)

we finally got our hardware done (almost) - hopefully by tomorrow.. haha.. now the big problem is... our propeller clock can't exactly do a clock display right now (problems with programming a clock...) haiz... i can imagine how our project will turn out... haiz... (not to mention the other 2 groups in the lab seems to be so pro...)

okok... too late le.. lab tech chasing us out liao.. ciaoz~~~

holidays??

yoho! hey ppl! ok so was missing in action for quite a while... last entry was hmm... sad... but hey ppl i'm hmmm better (?) already... minus the fact that i screwed up my last 2 papers *esp the last one* haiz...

okok... long story (not really) but my mommy got into hospital on last tues nite den i only got to know it at like 7am wed morning... so i onlie effectively slept for 4 hrs for tt paper (yawnz)... den i went to the hospital to pei my mommy after my wed paper and also spent the day there on thurs... den my fri paper was... haiz... now REALLY must pray very hard for tt... okok... my own fault actually.. not exactly no time or hospital is a bad place to study but more like i got no mood to study at all... argh... i ended up "blanking out" haiz... wad a failure i m...

anw, mommy bin out of hospital since sat... so not to worry darlings... but i bin accompanying her everyday everywhere, so i dun really have a life rite now so sorry ppl... hospital, clinic, hougang mall... my latest hangouts... n the wonderful thing is mommy only goes to super exciting places like her favourite NTUC n market... while everytime i spot any thing i wan to c she'll drag mi away with "dun waste time". haiz... so u can guess how entertained i m everyday, everywhere with mommy... k lah tt's such a boring story... maybe after she feels better n not giddy anymore den i can jio u all go out! =) remember me hor! hee...

holiday ending liaoz... argh n i haven even went out to play at all!!!! argh... but these days i bin at home n guess wad i bin doing??? wahahahahaha... PS games n PC games! cool xia... but STILL... i cant stand the connection... kips dcing how i play my maple? (haha.. i think i have no rite to complain... but well...) hee =P next i wanna watch GONG (palace) the korean show adapted fr this korean comic which i like quite a bit... =) anyone got?? *hint hint*

DIP starting next monday... left 3 more days to play (or slave)...

miss ya all darlings... *muacks*

feeling super down...

i dunno y i'm feeling so sad... i jus feel like crying my heart out...

so many things have happened recently. both happy and sad things... suddenly i feel that i dun exactly know the people around me... i guess i'm not as close as i think i m to my frenz... it hurts to c a really close fren being so sad, but i cant bring myself to ask... dun think i'm meant to know... but it hurts my heart... it hurts jus as bad to realise certain events only after it had happened... when noone ever said anything how m i supposed to know? *haiz* maybe it's all my fault...

i tell myself there's nth to worry abt, and there's nth i can do... but it doesnt stop the unease in my heart... sometimes i jus feel like giving up the exams... how can i try to study while i know she's in pain? how can i fuss abt idiot stuff like transformers when all i want is to be with her, make sure she is nt lost in the hosp, understands what the docs r talking abt, is taking her medicine on time, eating her meals on time, getting enuff sleep... i jus hate myself!

i dun like being hall alone either... it makes me feel so lonely i feel like crying all i can... i feel like using up all the tears i have so tat i will nv have to cry again... sometimes i wish i can find someone to cry to... i guess i'm tried trying to kip the "happy sheya" in front of everyone... but i dun like the idea of spoiling everyone's mood...

- jus let me cry... it'll be over soon -

exam alert!

Examz in LESS than TWO weeks!!! jiayou everyone!!
jiayou to those having their examz earlier den mi too! esp to claris n joyce darling... JIAYOU!

ok... bin missing in action for very long again... sorry sorry... bin lazie n my lappie went for a holiday at eight flags again... haha... den after it came back it lost all its memory so i have bin busy looking for ways to help it regain its past memories... ok... i m jus crapping... it got a new harddisk liaoz... dunno to be happy or sad, but at least i have got back most of my stuff so it's ok... =)

cant wait for examz to be over! (it has nt even started!) i am gonna start camping in hall from tonite onwards.... oh tt means ANOTHER FOUR WEEKS before i go home! i duno if i can tahan tt long... i cant imagine mi eating FOUR whole WEEKS of canteen food... ARGHhhhhhh... ahhhhhhh.... help mi! (pss.. i jus spent quite some $$ stocking up food... choc, sweets, biscuits, cup mee... i dun think i will die out tt fast! hee hee)

okok... i shldnt be wasting time here act... but feel so sianz hall alone so i decided to come complain... gotta go off to MUG for tmr's quiz (quiz again!) so tada! buaiz n wish mi luck! =)

Woo Hoo! back in Action!

yo ho! yiing complains i m still stuck at CNY! hahaz.. okok.. so here i m.. FINALLY updating my dearie blog.. haven bin blogging... almost forgot how to log in! haha..

NTUCO concert was a WOO HOO! FULL HOUSE! *phew* lucky me.. thanks to everyone who made the MirAcLe Happen! thanks to my darling eLaIne and my dear sis for cuming to support! =) next up: NTUCO Beijing trip in July! =) cant wait cant wait!!! *SL! miss ya alot woo...* hee hee...

my darling Xuan oso leaving for switzerland soon... sob sob... *jealous* can u pack mi into your luggage so tt i can go too?! =) hee hee... okok... i'll miss u! *muacks* *muacks*

CO has bin taking so much of my time tt i almost got no life... FINALLY concert is over (FULL HOUSE!) and guess wad? it's time for quizes quizes plus... the huge EXAMx! haiz... sigh...time to start mugging le lor.. jus realised exams iz.. 4 weeks away... haiz... everyone, JIAYOU! =)

i cant wait to go out with everyone again after this irritating busy period! darlings! must jio mi go out after exams k?! *muacks*! =)

HAPPY CNY!

yo! yeah~ very very long never blog le... almost forgot how to do it! wahahahaha... i know u all miss mi so much!!! *muacks*

HAPPY CNY!

i lurve cny hols really.. the only days i m "CO free" and can sleep sleep sleep and eat eat eat... haha... hope u all enjoyed your cny too! =)

my days r still like usual... packed with CO CO and more CO... so everyone! March 4th (sat), 730pm, Singapore Conference Hall... $10 per tix! buy more buy more! (ps: watashiwa is ticketing officer ok... hint hint)

will still be really busy for all the weeks until after the CO concert i guess.. haiz... jiayou jiayou! i'll be drowned with quizes, lab report, ticketing booth, school visits, CO, more ticketing work etc... so pls pardon mi... will try to go out after the concert ok!? =) hee... in the meantime... buy tickets from mi!!! wahahahaha...

yah... i'm really missing the usual ktv sessions and yummy food we all go out to eat together... (jus ate like siao last nite at chomp chomp followed by late nite mahjong... *yawnz*) meet out soon, darlings! *muacks*

sick.. again...

*sneeze* *sneeze* *cough* *cough* *sniff* *sniff*

haven blogged for like forever... have been too busy (or lazy) to read others too.. sorry sorry... m so utterly sick... =( and have been sick all the while... esp since mid dec... food poisoning followed by sore throat and now cough cough --> cough + flu ---> cough + flu + fever... okok... paiseh nth but complaints... but life has bin bad...

too much CO and too little rest. too much sickness and too little play. haiz... m now waiting for 2pm to come so i can go visit the school doctor... haven bin sleeping well for the past two nites... tues nite was spent coughing away violently and last nite i was so cold i think i almost froze to death... =( fever last nite + long long comm meeting + heavy rain... (almost killed mi..) haiz all the bad things all happen at the same time. sob... sorry darlings this whole post is nth but complaints... but perhaps this will continue till after the NTUCO concert... the ticketing comm is taking up way too much of my time too haiz...

oh yes darlings.. can PLEASE buy tickets from mi??? PLEASE~~~ will be held at Singapore Conference Hall on 4th March, 730pm. tix at $10. desperately nid to sell tickets... try ya best k??? muacks!

BINTAN paradise!!!

YO!!!!! I M BACK!!!!

yah yah... I noe u all miss me LOTS while i spend my last weekend in BINTAN!!! whaahahahahaz... I LOVE BINTAN! nice sea, nice beach, nice hotels + service, nice LOBSTER, nice mangroves(?), nice SUITE room and most importantly nice darlings xuan and elaine!!!

even though it's a rather short(very) trip, i really enjoyed myself there!!! spent abt S$300 (wow!!) so now i m in the "recuperation period" - no more shop shop eat eat... hahaz... let's c how i spent such a wonderful time in BINTAN!!!

sat 3rd dec

woke up at 630am (yawnz)... ferry left sgp at 915am, reached bintan abt 55min ltr... but cos of the time diff, it's STILL 9plus... hahaz... so this 3 young sgp gals arrived at NIRWANA RESORTS HOTEL and were really sad tt we can check in only fr 3pm... haiz... so we checked out the tours we had in mind... Tanjong Uban and Mangrove tour... n realised (to our horror!) that... 1. mangrove tour all fully booked for the day! so we booked the tour for the nex day... 2. Tanjong Uban tour fully booked for the day... n if we go for the tour the nex day we dunno wad to do for the rest of the day! hahaz... so we hired a taxi tour ($55 - Tanjong Uban, 4 hrs)... Taxi driver made us feel like real taitai'z!!! he chauffeured us ard,waited for us while we had lunch or went shopping and always opened the door for us to get in or out!!! and he brought us to a nice kelong seafood restaurant where we had BUTTERFRIED LOBSTER!!! yum yum.. i LOVE lobsters!

wow tt's alot of words... take ur time to digest... anw, we went back to the hotel at 3+ and then guess wad?! we got a free upgrade to SUITE room (cos the housekeeping staff were too slow... our rm was nt ready yet) and the 3 of us jus went GAGA... and started messing ard in the rm! hahaz... the rm was jus WONDERFUL! HUGE HUGE HUGE!!!! 4 poster BED! revolving TV! balcony with great seaview and huge cushion! nice huge sofa and armchair, dining table!!!! I LOVE MY ROOM!!!

then there's the jacuzzi pool (woooooooooo....) and believe it or not, there's a BAR in the swimming pool!!! so relaxing to sip some shirley temple or fruit cocktail while taking a break fr the swimming...

dinner was really romantic... but the funny thing is the 3 of us romancing tog... hahaz... but the food was really good anw.... cakes cakes cakes!

sun 4th dec

nice but HOT weather... after breakfast, we bathed (each taking turns in the wonderful bathtub) and checked out, den we headed for the mangrove tour!!! i really love the mangrove tour act... first time ever! the motor boat ride was exciting! the scenary was really beautiful and even though it was such a hot day, the sea breeze really cools u down and as we enter the mangrove swamps it gets more shady... elaine was jus so happy (and snappy... her camera nv had a chance to rest) to c all those mangrove trees and their roots... (oh wad can i say abt our ace geog undergrad...) while xuan likes the wind but finds the trees boring (she admits she's nt a nature person)... but I love the wind AND the wonderful scenery and the feeling of nature... (i tot i wld be freaked out.. u noe i'm darn scared of any creature tt can move..) well... i really loved the tour! first time ever i felt like i might like nature~ hahaz... but den again... most prob nope... hee...

the evening was spent relaxing (?!) with a wonderful body massage (ouch...) followed by a romantic (again?) steamboat dinner at the poolside restaurant... THAT was really yummy! =) i lurve steamboat!!

then we sorta took a nap at the hotel lobby while waiting for the bus to the ferry terminal... (yawnz... the massage was too wonderful.. and sleep inducing) we gt to the bintan ferry terminal at 730pm (bintan time) and then there was alot of delay before the ferry finally left... bad news was... the waves were really strong tt nite... *giddy* but elaine was worst hit... she was really sick by the violent "turbulence" (shld i call them tt?) but luckily we came back safe and sound (but pretty tired, sleepy and giddy...)

paiseh... i dun hav pictures to put up yet... and i can imagine i will be pretty Lazy to do so! hahaz... so there... i guessed i gave a pretty good breakdown of the wonderful BINTAN trip~~ for pictures, pls refer to darling elaine's blog.... =) when's the next bintan trip???

Bintan Bintan here i cum!!!

yay! tmr is THE DAY!!!

finally!!! bin waiting and waiting so long for this day... BUT... somehow i m feeling bit empty... nao dai kong kong de... how? i dunno wad to pack, i dunno wads the plan tmr... haiz... i dun feel like packing anything, i dun feel like doing anything tmr... i cant imagine myself catching the ferry early in the morning at 8plus!!!! have been waking up "early in the morning" at 12plus everyday.. and on LUCKY days, 11 plus... hahaz... wadeva... haiz... okok... i shld try to get my brain working and figure out wad's going to happen tmr... hahaz... =)

jiayou! 3 more to kill!

yes! left with 3 more papers to kill nex wk.. jiayou! cant wait for hols! =)

have been watching more than mugging (as usual...) there's so much to watch after hols!! er zuo ju zhi wen + hana yori dango (meteor garden - the new jap version!) + lv guang sen lin + yummy yummy + chiong shang yun xiao + xin niang 18 sui... plus plus plus... tt's y haven been blogging... haha... watch watch watch...

going bintan on 3th and 4th! (yay!) but will be missing out on yan yan's b-day party! =( haiz... nelles - enjoy urselves without mi den! (*pouts*)... i cant wait to go ktv after exams! hee hee... but seems like everyone finish earlier than mi! (sobz..) okok... go ahead without me.. but make sure u all "pu chang" and go again with mi! hee hee...

cant wait to watch harry potter too! hee hee... maybe after elaine end her exams. =) xuan's starting work! jiayou gal! bintan bintan bintan! =) okok.. i ought to get back to maths - prob and stats (sianz...) until fri i'll be FREE! jiayou jiayou jiayou!

miss ya, xiao laopo!! *muacks* miss the brainies too!! *muacks* *muacks* *muacks*

mugging season!

yo!!! bin so long since i blogged! hahaz... my lappie is back! SAY HI TO LAPPIE~~~~

hahaz... 8 flags suck lah, everyone! they only bothered to call ONCE... and if u happen to miss the call, GOOD LUCK! up to u to guess when ur lappie is fixed and go bother them! argh! *bish bish!*

haiz... the mugging season has begun, AGAIN... somehow this time round it seems more difficult to concentrate! and somehow i feel like i don't have the time at all! It's less than a week to my first papers (2 on the 9th) and out of the 7 papers i have, i have like 2 more files of psycho stuff to read (tt's my first paper) and not yet done any tutorials or looked at past yr papers for ALL the rest of the subjects, in fact i haven't even touched my data structure at all! *faintz* so much to do and so little time!

tried many venues to mug mug... went NUS to mug last tues! NTU muggers! try out the NUS central library! and their Munchie Monkey cafe is cool too! =) my gosh... NUS has SO MUCH SPACE lor! unfair! NTU shld have more tables in LWN library or library 2! wat we have is pathetic compared to theirs! and even their cafe is huge! *envies* oh, also went MP Library on sat... and i dun really like it~ spent my time staring at my notes blankly and yawning all the way... was really sleepy~ cos went for breakfast with Sylvia! hahaz... but breakfast was emmm.. at 1030~ hahaz... wadeva~ i cant exactly mug at home leh... haiz... somehow i cant concentrate with the lappie! hahaz... but den... m in hall rite now and m using lappie~~~ hahaz... anw... tt's y i decided to come back hall~ n attempt mugging... BUT~~~~

my idiot sis (shhh... she bz tokking on the fone rite now! can tok bad abt her! hahaz) decided to come to my hall... cos she wants to use internet! argh~ so someone come to fight with me for my lappie... and then keep distracting me~~~ haiz... i came back on tues nite, started the first set of notes and wed whole day STILL at that set of notez... and today... i haven finished it yet! argh! with my sis ard i cant mug! cham lah~ *bang head* i realise i cant concentrate with anyone talking ard me~ i will jus tend to listen to the conversation... tt's why i m taking so long to blog... cos i keep listening on my sis's fone tok~ haha.. i guess i better shoo her out asap! hee hee...

haiz... attempts at mugging are really almost fruitless! *bang head* argh~ HELP!!!

Also realised i really read very LITTLE... or shld i say minimal?! haha... cant wait for after exams... gonna read read read! Elaine made me so interested to read Memoirs of a Geisha! the movie is coming out soon! (Jan 19th i guess) somehow seems like everyone has read it before~ except me tt is... okok~ m jus a mountain tortoise~ only read comics... (read 3 books yesterday! cos my sis brought 3... u see! DISTRACTIONS!!)

okok~ bored u all with all my mugging talk~ i oso think it's sianz! hahaz... okok~ back to erm... games first, den books! hahaz... Jiayou to all the muggers!!! =)

Lappie! where r u????

YAY! finally gotta Blog!!! Lappie now at 8 flags!!! hospitalised for fan faulty.. since MONDAY! i wonder how long i need to wait!!! argh~~ met Sylvia darling on the way to hall... so changed plan n go JP instead! =) miss ya!!! must come out again after exams! =) had a fun nite wif roomie n angeliney~ yum yum... mos is gd~~ hee..

met brainies for dinner on tues! FINALLY! hahaz... i miss u gals!!!! *muacks mUACKS* i lurve being wif ya all!!! =) somehow i jus cant stop luffing with you gals! u all nv fail to make mi feel SOOO happie~ hee hee... vj days are the best days of my life actually... =) really!! because of u 3! *muacks!* i miss the days we will all catch the same bus early every morning (oops... maybe i was late too often..). i miss the days we all wait for each other after school jus to go home together. i miss the days we all go for harmoc together. i miss the days we hang out at ECP cycling and blading. i miss the days we eat and eat and eat at parkway. I MISS YOU GALS!!!

Somehow being with u all make me really happie! i am so grateful that i have u 3 in my life.. =) LOVE YA!!! pss clare... maybe the 4 of us shld really jus get married to each other!!! wahahahahahahaha.. but den.. my renfu~~ hmmmx.. haha... n joyce's bae yong joon *pss.. i cant rmb how to spell his name correctly*.. hahaz... i can imagine the 4 of us living together... SO COOL! =)

planning a BINTAN trip in dec wif xuan and elaine! =) darlings we shall enjoy ourselves! i better start saving $$ now... broke!!! sobz... lots and lots of money required!!! esp if i wanna go China wif CO nex june/jul... haiz.. jiayou bah! save save save! i hope i wont have to eat too much oreos this time! haha...

k lah.. so late le... feel bad using roomie's deskie (aka desktop) for so long... cos was talking to xuan and elaine abt the bintan thingy... this time we are REALLY gg! nt jus all tok n no action! =) hee hee... okok... time to zzzzz... nitez!!

被需要的感觉。。。

wooo~ v long nv cum blog le!! (can c can c~~ hahaz)... bin watching so much ou xiang juz... wang zi bian qing wa, er mo zai shen bian, er zuo ju zhi wen, er nan zai ji dian... plus all those 56 shows... wa lau~ even my lappie is complaining! it gives out loud n wierd noises now!! ahhhhhh!!! how??! sobz...

somehow haven been feeling decent lately... jus not happy... birthday was cool... thanks to nellers for cuming over! =) thanks to esther and sylvia... i lurve ktv with u gals... but din have chance to meet up with elaine n xuan and the brainies... m really missing u all!!! muackz!!! lurve ya lotz, darlingz!!! haiz... to make matters worse, it seems like exams are approaching!!! n there's ntuco concert stuff to busy soon... dec hols seem so near yet so far... dec has in stall 2 trips to malaysia... maybe i'll jus pick one~~ nt tt rich... hee...

haiz... guess i know why i m feeling down... maybe i've watched too much shows... sorta feel detached from the real world le... sort of wish i m in the show... tt world seems more fun and less troubles... haiz... told ya i watched too much le... somehow in this real world i feel like i m... not exactly needed... haiz... i guess i dun make a difference...

darling joyce: HaPpIe BiRtHdAy!!! *muackz!!*

happie birthday to me~

hmmmx... suddenly feel like blogging... even though mi act no much time to blog! hahaz... this week is so busy... CO, CO, quiz quiz quiz, CO again... tmr mi got one quiz plus one performance... sianz... n i pon my lessons (oops) so tt i can cum back hall now to slp... last nite piah wang zi bian qing wa till 430am orh... yawnz... tmr quiz quiz so i better get some slp first... so blog fast fast!!!
hee hee...

m really missing the brainies.. when are we going to meet???? ~sigh~
haiz... how cum i have no feeling of happiness as i usually do on the 23rd of Sept every year? i was really looking forward to becoming 20... n it is jus going to happen tmr... but... y do i feel so... like it's no big deal??? jus another yr... haiz... wad is happening to mi???? i m wierd.... will have CO for b-day though... dunno happy gt ppl to pei or sad... i m missing home... even though in the past yrs i never really spend bdays at home.. hahaz.. i told ya i m becoming wierd... i dun even know myself now... sometimes i jus cannot really smile from my heart... haiz...

ok... everyone gonna think i m getting really depressed le... hahaz.. no lah.. m ok... i m now siaoz over wang zi bina qing wa! hee hee... i lurve mingdao and shaowei! =) esp mingdao's character is so sweet.. like a real prince.. so sweet and cute! if only someone liddat appears in my life... i'll jus GRAB! hee hee... everyone! must watch must watch! he's really cute esp when he was "done-oh"... *meltz*

joyce asked mi wad i want for bday today... hee hee... i noe everyone buy bday presents till siaoz le... hahaz... okok... act i dun really mind wad u all get for mi... =) i like the company more... hee.. but i dun mind new bag / wallet / earrings, accessories / jacket / GOLD BAR!!! (ooi stop offering me choc gold bars... i prefer dark choc thank u very much...) hahaz...

ok... i better go slp... but i really feel like watching some more wang zi... *meltz* mingdao so cute~~~ wan an~ tonite nid ta mug mug mug le!!!

when a prince turns into a frog...

I CANT C MY BLOG!!! sob sob... i dunno if it is ntu intranet prob (again) or my own ie prob~~ argh... anyhow i cant load my blog now... even though i can c other pages perfectly fine... haiz

hope it is ok soon... i cant really stand this.. hahaz... anw... mi m addicted to wang zi bian qing wa!!! omigawa~ ming dao is jus so cute!!!! =) n got shao wei too!!! so nice so nice!!! the show is super funny too! hee hee... k lah... back to watching my ming dao~~~

Blame me for all you want.. I dun think anyone will bother to listen to me anyway…

I dun think it is my fault… it is jus a small favor, and I dun think it is unreasonable. I guess you ppl wont understand… U dun understand how it is to feel disrespected and insignificant… I am nt meaning tt i am so super impt tt u all cant have fun without me, but I am really upset by the way u ppl take mi for granted… wad do u think i am???

it is nt abt the ride… it is abt how we were rejected and rejected and rejected until i m really sianz to go… n only AFTER we said nt gg THEN u all finally say ok… n now i say no nid, i m nt going, the whole world seems to think it is my fault, i m such a petty, lazy, inconsiderate sucker.. fine! Go ahead… turn ur backs on me… I am really upset too, nt jus u!

有些事是一定要说出来的。。。 撇在心里很难受。。。

我真的很寂寞。。。brainies I miss ya lotz n lotz… thnx to xuan n elaine… thnx for all ya company… thnx to sylvia n esther, thnx for being there all these years… lurve all ya lotz…

busy busy

just back from JP abt 1hour plus ago... tired! but had fun! this is a busy week... quiz quiz, CO, CO, performance... everyone's so busy! n the ironical thing is i think i will b MORE busy in the one week holiday den i am now~~ haha... one week got 4 days of seeing the CO ppl... after the break got double quiz, performance, n double b-day (believe it or not... there's someone born on the SAME DAY SAME MONTH AND SAME YEAR as mi in CO now! *faintz* liddat i nid to share my birthday! *sniff sniff*)

i miss ya all, brainies!!! n i miss sylvia and esther already, after jus meeting last sunday to celebrate esta's bday! hahaz... i miss ktv too (after jus singing on sunday! hahaz)!!! Nellers & Associates KTV??? =) hmm.. maybe nex monday b4 CO?

~~la la la la la~~

sighz

haiz... finally find time to blog~ hahaz... NTU 50th Anniversary concert over~ tired~~ was a great performance! thanx all who came! =)

hmmm... sorry brainies.. i think my last post got u all too worried~ hahaz... dun worry... was emm... jus feeling bit left out n lonely sometimes... miss ya all lots... when's our brainies outing gonna b? =) sorry gals... this week seems like lots of us are busy... haiz... must meet up another day! miss ya~ muacks

~sigh~ thought over quite a bit recently.. i have come to realise many things... sometimes i really wish i have to courage to accept the facts.. sometimes i really wish i can jus let go and stop torturing myself... i'm learning... and i think i can do it... no matter how painful it is... i wont continue to hope~

i wish and i want to be... who i want to be.

wad if...

what if u think they are the most important ppl in your world,
but they dun even think u r important?

i dun care if the world hartes me...
i hate the world.

sick sick ~ cough cough ~

ahhhhhh! Junyang is out! and xinhui is out! wad the****~~~ so sad!!!! tot Junyang v gdlooking orh! yue kan yue shuai xing... =) n xinhui's performance was really impressive (minus the dress sense)... cant believe tong qing piao is so li hai! argh!!!!

haiz... anw, m back at home, cos was darn sick... so went to c the sch doc... hmmm... BUT the sch doc gave mi some lousy flu tablets (tt i take alot of times b4, and often dun work), some dunno wad tablets for throat (i think), vitamin C(oh pls...) and cough syrup(but he say dun take unless got flam)... n to top it off, doc said if u happen to cough out thick green flam, pls cum back and c him again and he will gimme antibiotics then... oh gosh... dun tell mi i must go see him again before i get well!!! *faintz*

was really darn sick since monday... it progresses steadily worse daily... sore throat > sore throat + flu > flu + fever > flu + cough... so i was really dying during comm meeting on wed nite.. hahaz.anw... m pretty much ok now, after quite a bit of resting... (yesh! i noe i m supposed to be off the comp n sleeping n resting more) hee hee... still quite angry(?) abt the tong qing piao thingy... m REALLY thinking junyang looks gd! hahaz... too bad... the world is never fair...

wishing for a miracle

i wish i can tell someone...
i wish my miracle will happen...
i wish i had more confidence...
i wish i had more luck...
i wish... i wish for jus the slightest hint...

s e l f i s h. m e.

I cant seem to put that thought outta my mind... I am so guilt-stricken...

I wish I have more courage.. I wish for some special powers... I dunno why but I have this FEAR for any creatures esp those that can fly... moths, kakars, flying ants, beetles, dragonflies... wadeva u name.. I freak at the sight of them... I hate myself for acting like a baby... but I can't control myself.. I am disgustingly timid... yucks... i guess the ppl ard mi are jus utterly sick of mi and my stupid screams and cries... I hate it too... They dun kill, i noe. I am so much bigger, I noe. but... I dunno y i react tt way...

Being in the C.O. comm seems not as exciting as I had thought it would be... I feel so guilty for rejecting their offer for the post of FC and creating so much trouble for them, creating so much unhappiness for the ppl I am really grateful to know... jus because I am afraid of facing the SAO ppl... jus because I tot being the SL will be more slack... jus because I am so selfish... now I dont even have any confidence that I can be a decent SL... for those who dun already noe, I SUCK at playing my own instru.. how to even lead the others? I dont even deserve to be one of them...

miss mi????

yo!!!!! miss mi????? hahahahahahaz ~~~

bin busy since the last time i blogged... (wa! so long ago!) hahaz.. yy lah... bugged mi to blog (she's in my room now! she forced mi stay wif her tonite!!! fri nite leh! hmmph... haha)... else i think i'll probably blog nex hols or sth.. wahahahahahaha... sch start le leh... sianz.. EEE subjects are so eeeeeeeeee...... haiz... nw i think wenyi's bioE more interesting by thousand times leh... luckie gt darling ning and peishi to go lects n tuts wif mi.. else u can expect mi to pon pon pon! wahahahaha...

m addicted to SPADES!!! jus learnt the game last wk! hahaz... while playing tong xiao at my hall (hall 15!!! new new! but alot of kakars and moths!! =( scared scared...) cum celebrating yuhui's bday... hahaz... now i play spades, internet spades, and yahoo spades... everytime i on my comp will definitely play one! wahahahaha... this is bad... nt healthy... hahaz...

oh! mi n wenyi got a fridge!!! lotsa drinks, choc!!!! yay!!! first hostel goal accomplished... nex one... TV??? hahaz... but nid $ and scared reception nt gd.. sianz... oh, nellers & associates having a steamboat session this sunday!!! yay yay!!! this time we have more ppl (the last time was CNY, before nellers was formed)... will be more more fun!!!! =)

this is getting long... but i guess it wld be good to tell everyone this... KICKBOXING is fun fun!!! hee hee... tiring yes, but really fun! punch punch kick kick! hahaz... n i went nite jogging wif yy and wenyi last nite! i decided i m really getting old n lacking exercise... couldn't survive the whole route... kickboxing plus jogging = aches aches aches... hahaz...

ok i m supposed to kick myself away fr the comp n stop playing spades! i really SHOULD be working hard this sem... nt easy to SUDDENLY take 23 AUz... (i prefer yr one 15 or 17 AUz slack slack) k lah... end here... =)

LaSt DaY oF wOrK!!

yum yum... jus back fr a super long lunchbreak... my superviors & colleagues took me to Bedok for lunch @ pizza hut cos it's my last day today... hee... (finally) ironically, this is the first and last time I have lunch with them.. haha.. for the past two months, I have been spending lunch either munching tidbits / biscuits, or eating sandwiches / ta-bao rice fr the canteen downstairs, while chitchatting on the phone with darling yiing yng... not exactly very pathetic, cos I have this feeling that going lunch with them eeveryday will be pretty sianz cos well... different frequency.. I don't exactly fancy hearing about "my-kid-your-kid" talks, or juicy gossips abt other colleagues / bosses... hee...

met elaine and xuan for dinner yesterday night... elaine FINALLY passed us our presents fr her KL trip... (excuse me, auntie elaine... how many times have we went out already since u came back?!) haha... okok... i admit tt tee is a nice pink, good taste k? hahaz.. and the earrings for xuan are nicey too... =)

hmmx... i realise that I have been spending like siaoz this past 2 weeks... i guess i restrained myself for too long before this... the GSS been on for so long and I only started spending 2wks ago... hahaz... cos of work lah.. so i started really shopping fr tt sat with xuan... where i spent 120 in OG and urban warehse, then last sat shopped at PS, then sun bought another skirt, and then was JB where i got 2 bags, and another pair of shoes, and then yest nite i bought a pair of sandals... oh gosh this totals a disgusting $300 NOT counting food and ktv sessions etc! my gosh... i hate myself sometimes.. i lurve shopping AND buying! hahaz... retail therapy lah.. works wonders.. hahaz...

last 3hr+ of work, i guess i am gonna miss the ppl here, and all the slacking... but i am really glad that school's starting... more CO, more hall fun, more late night supper and mahjong sessions (i hope! =P ) and of cos more mugging.. haha...

I tried, but I don't know how to say it...
I tried, but I can't forget it...
I tried, but I can't change the fact...
I tried, but I couldn't control myself...
I tried, but I don't feel better...

I tried, but no one sees it...

I tried, but I can't help feeling lonely...

a need to be needed

yay! finally my office lan is working again... haha... but as usual... m so bored... did i mention i finished deception point in 2 days jus reading in the office during my free time? yesh... so i finished it off yest n now i m back to doing nth.. n tt novel is jus so... kua zhang... too absurd but yesh, the thrill is there... or so i think... it's relatively fast moving... =) nex book i waiting to read... HARRY POTTER 6! hee hee... who got order pls put me on ur waiting list! haha

oh n i nid to talk abt the lan prob.. (lots of complaints here... brace up!) after the java prob i created cos i downloaded the java prog to play blokus online, here comes another disaster... being utterly bored in the office, i had no choice but to find myself some entertainment... n so i managed to dig out the messenger folder in the comp, and went online wif windows messenger... n guess wad? i could use it! so happie n started to chit chat wif ppl online (yah... elaine and xuan mainly) while working... at least not so lonely anymore.. who knows... 2 days after i used messenger... the lan connection went dead... at first thought was cable prob.. den after the technicians came to check (cos my boss's boss dun like mi gaming so my boss suggest i go the intranet n read materials... i think tt advice came fr one of my other supervisors as well.. ha), they found out tt it is BECAUSE of my chatting tt the connection went dead... apparently the system kills ur connection the moment it realises u r chatting... wad type of lousy system is tt?! or should i say it's jus damn TOO efficient?! wa lau! kaoz! ok.. so they wanted mi to uninstall my messenger... n i was like huh?! HOW do u uninstall windows messenger?! it is a windows component k! so well... no more chatting now... until the last day of work! hahaz... shhhhh....

caught the webby http://www.colorgenics.com/sps/ fr elaine's bloggie... (haven bin reading ppl's blogs cos of the lan prob) and it's pretty accurate! esp the beginning... (c the bold part) it completely describes who i have been feeling this few weeks... many times i feel really upset not being involved... many times i felt hurt when frenz plan their activities without me, when they call me last min and ask if i wanna go, when in their planning they did not consider me at all... maybe i'm jus too sensitive (everyone's telling me tt) but i really feel not respected and not needed... to the extend tt i reallly feel like isolating myself and shutting the door to them... too extreme? maybe.. but tt statement "If you do not get what you seek you are apt to become reclusive and you will close the doors on all those within your sphere of influence." -- i m REALLY feeling tt now... maybe i'm jus too lonely...

ok... LONG post i can c... too much to say.. since i m so bored maybe i can spend my time looking for a new blogskin... =) anticipate!!

darn true... at least for the first part..

http://www.colorgenics.com/sps/

You are in a state of constant expectation and want interesting and exciting things to happen to you. But in fact, you are a 'Walter Mitty' at times - a dreamer - over-imaginative and often given to fantasy or day-dreaming. There is nothing wrong in 'dreaming' - how boring life would be if one just followed the doctrines of everyday life - but one must not continue leading a life of continuous fantasy. You need to face reality in spite of all its possible shortcomings.
You 'need to be needed'. As an idealist you are intolerant of anything short of special consideration from those close to you. If you do not get what you seek you are apt to become reclusive and you will close the doors on all those within your sphere of influence.
You are confined and trapped in a distressing or uncomfortable situation and seeking some way out. Whatever you seem to do to resolve the problem hasn't worked out. Fortunately you are able to gain some aspect of relief from someone close to you.
Your ability to withstand the pressures of everyday life have been overtaxed and this is leading to stress and frustrations. It would seem that for the time being you have lost the resilience and strength of will necessary to contend with existing difficulties. You feel that it is all 'too much' and, try as you may, you are getting nowhere. But to give you credit, you continue to stand your ground and pursue your objectives with a fierce intensity. Naturally this situation is subjecting you to intolerable stress and pressure from which you would dearly like to escape, but you can not bring yourself to make the necessary decision. As a result you remain firmly involved in the problem and you can neither view it objectively nor get rid of it - you cannot leave it alone and you feel that you will only be at peace when you have reached your objective.
You are putting on a show - a facade. You are a master of demonstrating considerable charm in the hope that this can or will lead to better things. Deep down you are fearful that this may not work and that you may have to employ other strategies in order to realize all your ambitions.

retail therapy!

yo ho!

jus back fr shopping nt long ago! =) muackz! xuan! u r a great shopping khaki! lurve ya company! hahaz.. i spent quite a bit today n i m so satisfied! even though in the end i spent almost all my time in OG and urban warehse (which is basically, ex-OG)... we spent 2hrs in EACH store lor! had almost no time to go elsewhere.. hee hee.. but i really bought quite a bit! =) finally i getta go on my shopping spree... since i started work i seldom go shopping.. everyone asks to meet for dinner! see lah! i've put on so much weight! thnx to u all!!! haha... but i lurve food!!! haha... ate shilin today oso... the mee-suah is GOOD! yum yum...

CO chalet was fun too!!! LOTSA mahjong! first nite was mahjong... literally played fr 9pm - 9am (some TV in between, though), jumping fr table to table... haha... cos there was 2 sets of mahjong! hee hee... so shuang! 2nd nite was mahjong too! haha.. n also tried some heart attack will abt 9 ppl on the bed... (it was a real heart attack when the bed collapsed!) i guess in the end i only slept abt 5hours in the whole 2 days there... when i went to work on fri i was so tired i jus fell aslp in the office in the afternoon, when i had basically nth to work... at least gt sth to do i wont b so bored n doze... somemore the lan prob nt settled yet.. no internet entertainment oso.. haiz...

and the most memorable incident of the chalet was the hugest kaka i have ever seen in my whole life!! at least 3 times the size of the usual ka-chuaz u ever see!!! sob sob... still gives mi the creeps whenever i think of it.. i hate kakaz! n there was this huge moth there too... so freaky place... i m so scared of kakaz n family.. arghhhh... gross... but luckie there was kaiyu... he was the kaka killer tt nite... (the huge one n another normal one...) sob sob.. i still hate kakaz...

OopS!

oh no! wad did i do wrong again?! my comp in the office cant go online anymore! sob sob... they claim the network cable is unplugged... but... it IS there! haiz... hopefully tmr go back office it "recovered" already.. pray pray

anw... today is pretty suay... i realised tt i cant play blokus online in the office anymore cos u nid ta d/l this java web start thingy to play n tt makes my own java in my comp cannot work! so when the supervisor wana sign into the system for mi to work she cant do it! the prog wont start! haiz... so i had to resort to system restore... (secret tool to go back to the past only in win xp!) and managed to save the day! but tt oso means... tt my supervisor now knows i game so much tt i m threatening the working of the poor comp.. who knows if the lan cable prob had sth to do wif mi?! (oh no! pls dun!!!)

trying to pack my stuff for chalet.. i feel like i m packing too much for 2 nites stay... but it is already the minimal i can do... haiz... this is bad... i realise i hav little presentable clothes n i keep rewearing the same clothes! time for a revamp! yiing! pei wo shopping! n i nid new bags... mine sucks... ahhhhhh!!!! shopping shopping! if onli i can go KL... sob sob... well... in the meantime... tong xiao mahjong! here i cum! =)

got the PASSION?!

yo! actually i think i should be blogging tmr in the office, but den... might as well go it now since i m free now anyway... haha

i FINALLY treated my sis to jack's place... after so long... hahaz... now v broke... but jack's place is good! yum yum... i lurve steaks.. hahaz.. but not gd for the wallet if u keep going.. hahaz

oh, and yesterday i ended up at the urban infest thingy afterall with yiing yng, ning, haoyi, yuhui and roomy (though she was running ard the whole day...) n guess wad? there were no participants to play their games... so in the end we spent the whole morning and afternoon and evening playing among ourselves... blokus, monopoly... under the hot sun... *almost fainted* and i drank at least 4 bottles of water... *melts* thnx to angeline and weicong for coming down to pei us for quite some time and playing monopoly wif us all! =)

when it almost rained (drizzle only la) the minds cafe ppl actually gave us a whole stack of flyers and ask us to distribute! wa lau! wad the ****!!! we are NOT cheap labour k?! so me and haoyi happily took the entire stack and hid it nicely into their blokus box! *evil grinz* we r there to help man the games, and even if we indeed have nothing to do, it is not our business to help distribute THEIR flyers and provide free labour for THEM!!! hmmph!

the day ended wif a satisfying meal at the Thai Express in PS (green curry! yum yum), and of cos the all time fave pasttime of the nellers... arcade outing! wahahahahaha...

yay! decided to go for the CO chalet wed - fri... taking leave for thurs.. and i m sorry gals, my parents wont let mi go KL trip... i think they bu fang xin and they r angry cos i keep coming back home late esp these few wks... lotsa outings wif the nel gang and brainies (another dinner one day?) and of cos wif my darlings elaine n xuan... but the trip nex hols will still b onz! =) cya tmr for dinner!

potential "torture" coming soon

Boo... the last hours before freedom is really passing real SLOWLY... esp when i hav nothing to do.. everyone is so busy cos today's month end... everyone except mi lor.. haha... who gets paid for punching 2 holes in a few stacks of papers and filing them according to date? haha... and the MOST of the time... i spend it surfing.. haha... nt bad hor? i can play popcap (even though i m bit sianz of it), blog, read ppl's blog if i feel like it, check mail if i have any, n read the new paper online.. haha... slack... i noe =D

oh.. my supervisor gave mi a "briefing" this morning abt the task i m abt to do starting tmr n lasting till 7th July.. she warns of potential tireness and offers me "breaks" in the form of my usual work of punching and filing by dates... i dun even noe what i m gonna do, n it doesnt sound very interesting... haiz... guess must be comparing / matching numbers and the likes of it... but doing tt for 7 dayz? (ok, 5, minus wkends) maybe i/ll breakdown fr boredom... i joked tt i m gonna get an MC tmr... haha... n apparently she dun find it funny... she shot mi a "dun u dare" look and said she pretend she nv hear... *shrugs*
different frequency, tt's all i can say...

but i guess i dun mind having work to do... having internet access but nt knowing where to surf can b pretty sianz too... haha... esp when the web filtering system is so damn good at blocking my fav sites.. haiz... ok... i shall go back to playing popcap until time's up! ktv ltr wif elaine n xuan!! yay!

bored @ work

boring... another one hr... this job sucks i must say, but i lurve the pay... (duh) n it wld b great if i dun hav to work but still get tt pay (duh duh? STOP DREAMING LA) sounds like i like money to drop fr the sky... (duh duh duh??? hu dun?)

huge plans cuming up in nex 3-and-a-half wks b4 sch starts wif a bang! haha.. tmr gg K wif elaine n xuan (i hope this time the plan materialise... unlike previous failed attempts...) and the nellers and associates are on for a volunteer work for urban infest this sat.. sorry ppl, in the end i still cant go cos i cant make it for tmr nite's meeting. so dun worry! i will be visiting u all if i happen to pass by orchard! hee hee... ok next up, KL trip wif elaine n xuan, still in the process of planning... n another JB trip with the nellers.. if the KL trip fails.. hee hee... nex big thing: collecting hostel keys n moving in! i wonder how many trips i nid this time to move in everything...

congrats to elaine! cant believe u find a job in such a short time n willing to hire u for such a short time, and cant believe it's such a good deal (maybe nt now, but i guess it will look better in the near future...) =) jiayou le! rmb to intro mi nex time!! hahaz...

anw... was jus counting.. i m only left with 4 more weekends b4 sch starts! minus the moving in...
i wonder how many wkends i m left to play... how? =( haiz.. time is short... n money is little... poor mi... will someone rob the bank for mi? try DBS... wahahahaahaha... shhhhhh... dun let anione in office c this... else i can start packing n stop work a whole month earlier than intended... wahahahahaha...nt like i really mind though.. but i still nid the money for my tw trip (erm... which may be changed to HK or aussie trip) in dec! =P

i guess i will find another way to rot off my remaining hour... hmmm.. but nt popcap... too much of it makes mi even more sianz...

broke n tired

i guess it's really too much play... yawnz... tired..

thurs spent the nite having dinner with xuan and then met the nellers n associates at east coast... played arcade till way to late... den by the time i went home... haiz... (oh had ta remove the pics cos yiing insisted...) n fri nite was spent wif the darling brainies! =) missing u gals already! haha...

sat was JB wif the CO comm & the nellers... really fun but wld hav bin greater if i had more time for shopping! another trip, nellers? n guess wad? AFTER the JB trip, i reached hm at 1155pm, did bit of negoiating wif mum n dad (my mum was so angry she din wanna tok to mi... she jus snapped back her replies), n left my hse at 1225am to go haoyi's place for mahjong!!! haha... so the nellers had tong-xiao mahjong... fr 1plus to 5plus, den we were so tired we all go slp n wake up 10plus (original intention was to wake up 7am for breakfast...) so TT is called tong-xiao mahjong!!! wahahahahaha....

den i jus went to replace my ezlink card (yesh... after losing it since last yr 23 sept) n tt costs me $6 for phototaking, $21 for replacement, $10 for top up, $52 for bus concession... i m BROKE!!! n still lacking slp... seriously... i nid slp! yawnz...

DiNnEr @ SuNtEc!

the lovely brainies!!!!

clare looks dead!!!!! n janey is cui-ed... haha 

act cute!!!! 

look how violent janey has become! 

satanic?!

sob sob! i m satanic?! omigawa! sob sob... y? i m so nice n sweet leh! *sniff* *sniff* haoyi's lousy quiz label mi satanic!!!! sob!!!

satanic?!

You scored as Satanism. Your beliefs most closely resemble those of Satanism! Before you scream, do a bit of research on it. To be a Satanist, you don't actually have to believe in Satan. Satanism generally focuses upon the spiritual advancement of the self, rather than upon submission to a deity or a set of moral codes. Do some research if you immediately think of the satanic cult stereotype. Your beliefs may also resemble those of earth-based religions such as paganism. Satanism 92% agnosticism 88% Islam 88% atheism 79% Buddhism 71% Judaism 54% Christianity 46% Hinduism 46% Paganism 42% Which religion is the right one for you? (new version) created with QuizFarm.com

*yawnz*

2 consecutive late nites and a morning full of yawns... *yawnz*...

sat the nel gang was formed! chairman: roomie! members: mi haoyi ning (shld i add chuan jie & xinhui?) haha.. n we went for the first lunch outing tog... after one whole yr in co finally we decided it is time to actually meet out for lunch together! wahahahaha... yiing! when r u joining us? haha.. oh.. went for CO perforamance! (n i m glad i did...) guess it was better than the creative one (jus cos i din go for tt.. y u all so jing zhang! haha...) and tt place is posh! really posh! (no wonder i nv heard of it yeah?!) and guess wad were we in? CO polo tee n jeans, plus a wide selection of various shoes.. *sweatdrop*... but the dinner they provide us sucks!! fried rice, veggie, chicken, orange juice, plain water... gosh... but cos we earn a bit for tt perf, we went for supper @ 179! yum yum... lots n lots of food! satay, bbq chicken wings (muacks! lurve it!), fried chicken wings, seafood hor fun, fried beehoon, etc... yummy! (it wld b better nex time if u all sponsor cab fare for the nel gang too, boss! wahahahaha) so, 1 late nite...

sun went out wif sylvia n we walked PS whole day! i really think there nt bad.. luckie yiing! one place tt has almost everything... n the best is: Long John Silver's! wahahahaha.. fav fastfood... we walked the whole afternoon there lor! then believe it or not.. i met my stupid sister there, jus as i was telling sylvia, "maybe we'll meet my sis here lor, cos she go out with arcade pal always like to come PS arcade de..." and then bingo! i c a familiar figure beside me in comics connection.. n zoom! sylvia and my sis start talking comic talk... *sweatdrop* and then the gang of 4 (me, sylvia, hui, n her arcade pal... paiseh i dunno ur name.. haha) went to the PS foodcourt for dinner! tsk... yiing! go try the yao cai ji (herbal chicken soup) there.. good!! after dinner went to the arcade to play... bishibashi and daytona and photohunt! psss... sylvia is queen racer! still say wad v long nv play le.. blah blah.. so humble! wahahahahaha... mi and sylvia din stay to play on.. we decided to go back to kovan n hav gelato!! wahaha.. yummie! and then we went to the hougang comic shop n c c look look.. then we go TS to c c look look... den we go cold storage to c c look look.. haha.. then finally go home.. n i got back into msn world.. wahaha... till pretty late.. yawnz.. if i continue to slp at 1 plus everynite n wake up at 730, i m gonna become a huge panda soon! sob sob... 2 late nites...

so tt explains it.. tt's y i m yawning the whole of the morning.. *yawnz*... brainies dinner on fri! =) and ktv wif elaine, xuan, sam on thurs! yay! (bit broke... when's the nex payday!?!!!)

yo! working n slacking n bored again.. not tt i m complaining.. i rather b bored den do anymore stupid filing (but i do filing everyday...) haha... a colleague jus said i look like a contestant in the chn U's superstar contest! omigawa! but i haven bin watching tt.. nt v interested... hee...

yay! ktv nex wk! yesh, xuan! u go organise! hee hee.. think elaine back this sat (or izit sun?) so yay! the ktv khakis all here! haha.. (oh did i conplain ning n gang go k-lunch w/o mi n darling yiing? how could they!) and yay! meeting the brainies for dinner on monday! but clare like nt back fr korea yet (oh yesh yesh, dun b jealous joyce, she wont get to meet uncle bae yong joon...) haha.. get together again after clare return! yuppie! i lurve gg out! even though i hav no much money left... hahaz..

hav bin entertaining yiing yng every lunch.. while i munch biscuits n she go LJS! unfair! i wan long john's too... sob sob.. n she's trying to convince mi go watch initial d.. but but.. only got one decent shuai ge.. edison! shawn yue looks so ugly wif mostache! ewwwwww... n u consider jay chou shuai?! forget it... haha.. ok.. will consider... actualli, i think i oso miss mahjong! esp after playing last sat wif roomie n gang... hee.. the shi san yao craze! hee hee.. we shld play again another day! this wkend???? i wonder if i m going for the sat performance.. like no news fr the CO ppl... else we go shopping, yiing?! hee hee...

counting down!

30 more minutes! time for blogging! wahahahaha... bin slacking quite alot today! oops.. act spent alot of time playing game (popcap.com is gd! n the only place i can go play thnx to the ultra powerful web filtering system here)... played bejeweled2, insaniquarium, n heavy weapon a stupid shoot n shoot non stop game (i kip dying! argh).. spider solitaire is fun too.. but boring once u realise u cant win the 2 suits game.. hahaz kip trying, ya?!

jus done shredding a whole pile of papers... guess i look too kong xian.. cos they owis let me shred whenever i m wasting time here. wahahahahaha.. ppl busy lah.. no time to shred.. so they dun realise shredding is actualli oso a huge waste of time (i could hav played 2 more games! wahahahahaha)

managed to evade fr all the calls today! jus pretend i m busy n then walk off to some far off corner n pretend to flip thru files.. wahahahaha.. i m the queen slacker! haha..
ok shall continue to slack until time's up! hee hee... stupid yiing yng tempted mi wif choc raisins! i think i shld go buy some choc for tonite... yummy yummy...

brainies! we ought to meet for dinner one day! i noe u all miss mi! hahahahahaha...

. . .

file file file.. file until no more files left, but alot of papers flying ard.. resorted to using rubber bands for the time being.. no choice.. filing sucks.. they shld pay mi more than the meagre 6bucks per hr.. haiz... i hate feeling broke.. sobz

elaine! u haven bin blogging! miss ya.. cum back quick! i wana go ktv! hee hee.. sam they all like trying to organise but i hav yet to hear ani confirmation.. hmm... but i m still broke.. sianz.. down to my last 60 bucks of my salary... else i wont hav money to pay the hostel deposit! cant wait for nex pay day...

supervisor tot mi to ans calls! faint! i dun wan! cant i jus continue to slack like i do now? but luckily, the fone hasn't bin ringing.. (i rang once act.. i refused to pick it up n pretended to b busy.. erm.. filing..) working life sucks! sining they all some more go ktv w/o mi n yiing! (wad can b worse, the moment u r craving for ktv u noe ur frenz r there at the same time... haiz)
today no lunchtime chit chat! =( yiing lucki pig got frenz to pei her for lunch! noone cum chai chee pei wo! sob sob.. unfair.. y she got PS i only have bedok (n it is 2 bus stops away... sigh)

i like blogging in office! i got alot of slack time to think wad shld i write.. n i can give LONG posts! wahahahaha... blogging is good.. pour out all ur worries n frustrations! who cares if anyone reads it! who cares if my taggie is siaoz.. (act i care..) who cares abt mi! since noone cares.. i might as well as blog it... haha.. (i dunno wad i typing oreadie.. blame it on all the filing...) sometimes (or all the time) i wish i were a rich gal fr a rich family, with a huge house, a nice bedroom, a car wif a chauffeur to take mi anywhere i wana go, enuff money n time to go travelling all around the world, buy nice IT gadgets jus for the fun of it, instead of jus sitting in a boring office counting n counting how much more i can spend this month... instead of feeling suspicious whenever mommy treats mi nice, instead of window shopping (i realise i dun like windows, by the way, thanx to countless window shopping expeditions)... instead of staring at travel brochures... how i wish...

nobody is perfect. i m nobody. thus, i m perfect...

kan xin qing...

hee... haven bin blogging.. lazi mi... looks like sth is wrong wif my taggie.. ppl say cant tag! haiz n the wonderful thing is i dunno wad's wrong! so if u r reading this n free enuff, pls tag a tag... 10u vm...

another 10 min n i can officially go off! nt gg for CO today.. (probably nt in the nex few wks...) so can go hm n slp! so sleepie.. haha.. all msn's fault.. n i m longing for cheesecake! all sining's fault for baking but nt letting mi eat and yiing yng for keep reminding me sining baked cheesecake!

i realise i hav a bad temper... hmmx.. nt good.. esp when i m in a bad mood... i guess i m too much of a "kan xin qing" person.. jus so happens yesterday was xin qing bu hao.. maybe i de zui le heng duo ren... haiz i dun care le... that's jus me i guess... if u understand u wont b angry darling... (even though i noe u wont read this..) ok! time to wrap up wadever work n prepare to go!

yawnz

it's great to have internet at work! u can blog, read blogs, send internet sms, check ur mail, etc.. but to make it greater, PLEASE abolish those stupid web filtering services tt only makes ur life with internet miserably b o r i n g... no d/l, no msn, no games, no tagboards even.. yawnz.. no wonder freecelling is driving mi to sleep.. yawnz..
as usual, i sit in front of a comp n slack, after accomplishing quite a lot of small tasks... sometimes i wonder if it's an insult to my intelligence (nt a lot though could do wif more! hee any donors?) to be filing the whole day off.. oh! today i learnt sth new~ someone asked to change some entries in the stupid mx prog n so i spent the time doing...
1. enter the transaction #
2. click the browse button or press cntrl-enter
3. right-click, select edit settlement details
4. select this box, then press spacebar, den select this box then click submit
5. click save or press cntrl-enter
yawnz... if computers r tt wonderful cant they make the prog change it automatically, instead of making a poor temp gal do all this manually? i feel like a machine.. haha.. click click press press... so fun.. electricity bill: $6/hr... haha
ok.. gonna go shopping (a v short shopping trip, i guess) wif yiing n ning ltr.. i wonder how late i'll b.. haiz wad u expect when i finish work at 645? mm... good.. the time is approaching! yay!
tmr supervisor on leave! (more slacking? or more freecell?) *grinz*

d r e a m s

i m so envious of yiing! she finally can go fulfil her dream and go diving! jiayou gal! i wonder if i ever will find myself something i really wanna do in life. haiz.. the only thing i really wish now is for mi to get lots n lots of money.. den i can buy wadever i wan, go whereever i like... i really wish to sit in an aeroplane one day! sob.. wad a shame.. so lao le still so sua ku.. haha

hmm... now i suddenly find my life so boring.. n empty... no goal in life, no ambition.. haiz n it doesnt help when i m lunching alone everyday.. feel so antisocial... but everyone has own khakis.. n nt like there is anyother temp staff here. haiz. yy! i miss ya.. y dun u transfer to chaichee? but here no PS to shop.. haiz... reminds mi of tt lonely song.. lonely~ i m so lonely~ i m nobody~~

so now every lunch i jus entertain myself wif internet (i can play popcap!) n send internet sms... sit in front of comp with a cup of milo fr the vending machine n 2 cookies n cream snack bars... maybe i shld bring in cup mee too...

okok.. after all the depressing stuff lets return to sth more interesting! filing! filing! n more filing!

F.I.L.E.

haha hoho.. guess wad? i finalli manage to actualli USE the comp in front of mi.. after many ordeals.. haha.. so now i can go online in the office, play freecell while noone sees, surf the settv sites for more 56 stuff, send sms thru internet, read blogs n update blog! Bad news is: this darn intranet sys has so mani restricted sites! i cant go on web messenger, i cant go play yahoo games, i cant even c the tagboard in ppl's blogs! argh... well.. better than nth.. at least i can still play freecell.. hee hee.

well, as usual i m filing filing filing away in the office... now tt i can log onto the comp i can rot some time away b4 i continue the super sianz filing routine.. i m REALLY doing things slowly.. i have come to realise... the faster i finish means the more funnie stuff they'll think up for mi to do.. like more filing or some new stuff tt they decide to take statistics fr.. nvm, i heck care, as long as i get my 6bucks an hr. hee.. well, now i no nid to worry abt lunchtime entertainment! hee hee.

watched ge dou 18 19!! ahhhhhh... renfu is just so cute! n his acting is getting really better. i LURVE the story btw wei ying qi n xiao kui.. v touching n exciting, nt like the boring relationship btw duan yu qiao n ye you li. oh... i think the show is finishing at ep 20.. sob sob.. at least now the show has ended renfu can rest well! i really miss him...

hate hate hate filing!

filing filing n more filing... bin doing this n nth much else... cos they decided it's too risky to log into the comp for mi... can access this la dat la.. blah blah blah... so now.. i do filing filing n more filing... all the stupid papers all ard the table! argh.. all the files in all the drawers! all the papers in stacks n fastened tog... argh...

did i tell my story abt how those ppl bin filing the IRS (interest rate swaps... i onli noe the name, paiseh.. hardly noe wads it abt..) naccording to trade dates... n now they finally realised their mistake n tt they shld b filing by maturity date instead! so one day they c this temp gal so free... (cf the previous entries) they decided tt it's time to correct their mistake! so poor temp gal (tt's me, yesh!) started to drag out these doc n resort by maturity date (can go all the way to 2019!) ... starting with the darn old 2003 stuff... my goodness! i HATE filing!!!!

n i still haven found a lunch mate! sobz! hu stay near chai chee?! wanna cum pei wo for lunch? or feel free to gimme a call! (haha... time to use the free incoming call advantage!) hee hee...

no pass = no entry

yo! third day of work le! m still without a pass! haiz... imagine me loitering outside the toilet, waiting for someone with a pass to go in so i can follow... imagine me loitering outside the door waiting for someone to come out or go in so tt i can get into the office... yeah.. have bin doing that... thank you v much... my supervisor had asked for a pass for mi (after i requested) n it's coming on thurs! (finally!)

i have bin doing nth much these days.. bin either arranging papers in ascending #, or in ascending dates, n the likes of it... when there's really nth for mi to do, my supervisors ask mi to do stupid stuff like transfering the papers in the files (overflowing) cos they have no more ring files... (ps: severe shortage of hard cover ring files n if u have any empty ones pls kip well... beware of disappearance of files.. haha) (o.. n i cleared 8 files yest n another 12 files today! *proud*) or tying papers in stacks n squeezing as much as possible into the limited space... that place is jus FULL of papers!or shredding! I LUV shredding! reminds mi of my dream to shred all my old notes into pieces tt can never be pieced back together (unless u r crazy n li hai enuff... haha) yesh! =)

bin so relaxed esp these 2 days... my 1st half day like pretty miserable compared to this.. haha... my supervisor even joked tt she's gonna gimme a never-before-temp-job-task... bring a teapot n sit in the pantry to pao cha! (yeah.. i m so relaxed there! haha) the only sad thing is lunch alone.. tsk.. guess i m getting independent! haha...

work work work = tired tired tired

i m so tired!!!!!!

here goes my story:
Friday the 13th (may)
-1030 yay! i got a job! but... start work TODAY at 130!
- 200 - 630 ----- work! n blur... wad the heck is NDF?! (chiminology involved)
- 730 --- met junlin for dinner, walk walk
- 1030 - 1250 --- nbs bash @ chinablack (only go to pei junlin... n guess wad? she got frenz everywhere! ... ... ... in the end i go there b be hua ping while she entertain her frenz... really alot.. her whole nite spent talkking... haha)
- reached hm at 1plus, bathe, online... n still awake now... (2++am!)

gotta go down to the job agency at paradiz centre at ard 11am, n i m still awake! (argh wont wake up in time de! ) den meeting junlin to go SHOPPING! hahaz! yay! (spending or rather already spent more than i earn... tsk tsk)

money money money... taiwan, hk, bintan... mp3 player, tv for hall... wow! so much money...

the PiG

oink oink
the pig says hi....
i become part of the pirates gang yest... haha (ask yy n ning)... hahahahahahahahahahhahahaz
n spent my whole nite yest watching ge dou tian wang 13 14 15 16... by the time i finish 16 my parents were yelling at mi to go slp... haiz... so i slept... fr 3plus am till guess? -- 230PM
oh no! wad a pig! n i wake up first thing is to watch 17... hahaz yay! renfu is SO cute! i LurVe wei ying qi n xiao kui! now i m in the "i lurve renfu" mood again.... *melts* renfu is so cute!
Elaine... dun b jealous! hahaz... u'll get to watch soon! maybe b4 ur KL trip... hee hee...

haiz... i miss renfu again! renfu~~~~~~~~~

yay! sweet blog skin!

iznt this nice n sweet?! yay!

okok... looked long time b4 i found the ideal one... hahaz... will add song to it soon, i guess... n plus maybe my clock cursor (again?!) yup... waiting for ur suggestions n preference, ppl!

haiz... bin slacking n rotting at hm everyday... unable to find a ncie temp admin job... well, nt my fault tt the recruit section has only robinson's temp cashiers / gv service crew / parttime telemarketers required rite? y dun have some decent "temp admin asst needed urgently. students welcome" yah... looks like mani advertisers put "students on vacation need not apply" instead.. haiz... i m nt welcomed (sob)... it doesnt help when the job agencies seem to have no replies... ok... student only lah... temp job... wont earn much fr the pitance i get paid (if i even get a job!) argh!

yah... so either bin going out or rotting at hm... plus the super hot weather wa lau i think i cant even survive rotting at hm... so darn hot! i can melt at hm i think... esp when i stay in the room whole day with the fan on full blast aimed straight at mi... *breeze*

ok... any job lobangs everyone PLEASE rmb mi!
hope u all like the new blog skin! =)
janey: nt so dark liao hor?! this one looks lighter?! hee

the Quest For the New BloG skIn

okok... bin searching hi n low for blogskins this few days... finalli found this one... bit plain, but well... i love this layout! so neat! hee hee... but PLAIN! i better do sth abt it... or scout for another one (hmmph.... can i? it's so TiRing!)

sorry bin lazi nt updating.. but at the rate i m gg out... i m gonna become REAL broke!!!! argh sob sob... ok, so no nid to update bloggie oso lah since those few ppl who reads have met mi or will b meetin mi soon.. hahaz

i wish i can post some pic but bin tired... looking for blog skin... haiz... n ntu dialup cannot survive more than an hr... NOT EVEN A MIN MORE! argh!

:) ok.. i nid job... everione... ani lobang?!