SmiLe!! 

haiz

ConVince mi.... Examz r cuming! n i STILL haven got the mood to start the mugging! argh... haiz... the stupid feeling of loneliness kips bugging mi... BraInies!! i REALLY missed u all.. muacks n thanks to darling yiing... the only one who can really keep mi happy n not feeling lonely in the nites in NTU... there r some things that i dun think my roomie will understand... n the others may not be ard for mi when i nid them... thanks darling!

NTUCO's qing gong yan was happi n fun! not bad food, n lotsa fun~ aloha loyang bungalows r real nice... nt a lot of ppl stay for the nite... jus mi, roomi, nua, siyun, haoyi, kelvin, kunhwee... nice rooms! attached bathroom, aircon, fan... nt bad bed... but nt nice pillows... but its a nice place realli... i like the projector too! hahaz... watched seoul raiders in nice aircon room on projector.. but din slp much... woke up @ 630am lor! haiz... reached sch at almost 8am... bathed, slept like a pig till 12pm... skipped all lectures until the chin cinemas at 130.. yawnz... wad a pig~ haiz

Feeling bit lonely... more like very~~

haiz

i feel so sianz... so sick with myself... i jus have no mood to get things done... i m FAR FAR AWAY lagging in all my tutorials... n guess wad? i jus poned physics tut today.. haiz. sobz... y m i like tt? i kip staring at maths notez n jus cant make any sense outta it.. n i returned to my teachers almost everything i had bin studying for the past 12 yrs of my life!! i jus cant get back the momentum anymore... wad's this? UNI-DEPRESSION? Argh.... i think rite now i have nth i really feel like doing except to slp... this is BAD... but i m still doing it.. haiz... ok.. nitez... erm... soon, i hope

utterly B.R.O.K.E.

yo ho!! bought myself a digicam!!! n i m utterly broke now... haiz...
$449, Cannon A510, 3.2MP, 4.0x optical zoom, 13.0x digital + optical zoom
okok... nt the best, i know.. nt my dream too.. my dream iz the SONY 5.1MP ($599)... but well... it's way too ex... so i decided to buy the Cannon ones... act wanted the A520 ($549, 4.0MP) but Elaine darling convinced mi that another 0.8MP isnt worth $100 more... well... haha...
okok... so i m B.R.O.K.E. now... haiz... i calculated... if i have 2 meals a day, that'll b 8 meals this wk... (minus mon lunch n fri dinner) and i FORCE myself to use only $3 per meal.. that'll be $24... convert some meals to waffles / sandwiches... maybe can kip it less than $20. that's abt HALF or more of wad i spend each wk!!! shall NOT buy drinks at all... no more coke, green tea, teh-bin... YeSh! save save save!!!
will only have money to "pay back" myself after i get a job for the hols... JiaYou, yaya!!!

being happy doesnt mean everything is perfect; it means you have decided to look beyond the imperfections

a senior gave mi this quote... :)
maybe i m really jus thinking too much... too obsessed over what i dont have... guess i ought to look at it another way.. how to get wat i wan but dun hav now... life is abt imperfections rite?! abt striving to fulfil wat u wan... abt satisfying your needs and desires... i really hope i can do it... but y do i still feel a deep sense of emptiness? wad do i want in life? y does this sense of loneliness always creep into my thoughts when my frenz r nt ard mi? maybe it is normal... but is it realli normal if it jus keeps coming?
if only money drop fr the sky.. if only there r free lunches in this world... if only my frenz are always by my side... if only tt smile stays on even when i m alone by myself...

Cat InVasIon!

ewwwwwwww! a cat invaded my room while i was busi on msn n makaning!!! argh!! it jus came in WITHOUT EVEN KNOCKING... den it start meow-ing... at first i tot it was fr downstairs, den i realised it KEPT meowing! den i realised it is in MY ROOM! omigawa!lucki i dint scream... i managed to stop a stranger outside my door n she helped mi chase it out wif a mop.... ahhhh so freaki! Sobz... it's the same cat that harrassed mi yiing n wenyi in the tv room last wk! meano angelini let it into the room lor! hmmph... haiz lucki it's gone.. i better LOCK my door.... freaky~~~

ThE TaNpO-ers~~~

CoNcErT - A hUge sUCceSs!

Yesh! concert is finally over! yay! it was wonderful n smooth... maybe not considered great, but a huge success! yay! feel like throwing a BIG HUG at all the wonderful comm ppl! i really v xin teng they all... esp kaiyu he was so busy the whole day... taking care of the stage arrangements n stuff... towards the end of the rehearsal he's like so cui-ed he was worrying mi... n i guessed haoyi had little or maybe no slp... he was doing the ticketing stuff whole nite.. n peishi was utterly staring into space while makaning.. i think all their brains r really empty... poor thing... without them this concert wont have made it... GREAT JOB, GUYS!

so high! so happie that it's over... but i m rather sad to realise that nex yr nt all of the ZR ppl will be in NTUCO le.. hmmx... i think i will really miss them.. cos the ZR ppl r the BEST! yay! maybe there's no pt to stay on without them... haiz

LoNeLy!

Ah! m so lonely! sobz! roomy is back at home... haiz.. angeliney got sectionals and yy ning all back. junlin oso nt ard.. haiz i m SO LONELY! argh... no one on msn even. sobz! why like tt?! haiz... hopefully i will mug... psycho test on mon, and i have 10 chapters out of 10 chapters to go! argh! it's already FRI! sob!

mon - CO spent the nite at yy's hall, waiting for angelini to finish her meeting... until we knock out. (diaoz)
tues - bit of lab report
wed - CO morning, CO nite (pon) n went clubbing w yy xuan elaine. back in hall at em 245am
thurs - wake up at 1pm... CO at 3pm.. until nite 11pm, went out for supper wif yy, angelini + yuhui, roomy... back in hall abt 1am, bathed then walked wif roomy to hall 15 n be megawati with wenyi... until yy came (quite late) with cards...
fri - almost 6am: last GAME! then left angelini's room n walked back with roomy. 615 reach hall, 625 sleeping like a pig... until almost 12pm... had lunch wif roomy n played w lappie.. now is 645pm... roomy is not in hall tonite.. haiz i m LONELY!

tmr - happy concert at SCH! jiayou!

haiz... my holiday!!!!!! like tt gone liao... sobz! hate school... reallie...

where's my holiday?

sunday! gotta b back in sch tmr.. CO @ 6..
yesterday: went back to st nicks! (to sell tix w the comm ppl) omigawa! change principal (i knew), change CO conductor (i knew), change CO tcha-in-charge (i knew), change sch colours... which i dinno... n the moment i saw the colours fr outside i was like oh no! wad did they do?! y such a gross colour?! :( i missed the old days of light blue, light pink, n white.. i missed the sound of the windchimes... i missed my classmates... hey brainies! wanna go back for food one day?! u all r gonna scream at all the disgusting colours! hahaz... me n wenyi were utterly grossed out n exasperated... hahaz... but the soya bean outside the sch is still SUPERB! yum yum.. i missed the food too..
went shopping w roomy n yiing after tat.. :) da feng shou! hahaz... (nt really la... bout a top!)
haiz... i got NTUCO practs mon, wed, thurs, n sat is the concert. gotta catchup w sch work, gotta mug for psychology test, gotta do psycho proj, gotta do lab report... argh! u call this a HOLIDAY?!

Your Dominant Intelligence is Musical Intelligence

Every part of your life has a beat, and you're often tapping your fingers or toes. You enjoy sounds of all types, but you also find sound can distract you at the wrong time. You are probably a gifted musician of some sort - even if you haven't realized it. Also a music lover, you tend to appreciate artists of all kinds. You would make a great musician, disc jockey, singer, or composer.

What Kind of Intelligence Do You Have?

going siaoz

haiz... i really think i need to occupy myself... desperately... everytime noone is with mi i go gaga... i think too much liao... so suffocating sometimes... there r jus so many things i wanna change in my life but i jus CANT change it... i wonder if there's really a god... maybe he can make my life the way i wan it to be... BUT who m i to ask for such a favour?! i m going crazy... i hate it more when the ppl ard me seem so... busy... occupied with everything... but i m so free! too free... such that when i m alone i start thinking... too deeply. n who's free to keep talking to mi?! i nid to talk... all the time... else i go siao... argh m i suffering fr some furnie disease!?

xiang tai dou le...

MahJoNG!!

Yay! it's CNY! same boring days every yr... cos my family dun go visiting... since sec1 when daddy n mommy quit the nasi lemak business...
(CNY eve) WHOLE family at home at nite! which is reallie nan de... cos dad n er qiu BOTH on morning shifts this yr! yay! n Then, dinner was rather lite compared to previous yrs, n mahjong!
(Chu yI) more MahJoNg! Daddy off day!! dinner: soup + grill... MahJonG agAin! till late at nite... yawnz.. n i WON! abt 10bucks...
(Chu Er) er qiu off day! so nan de!! hahaz... my cousins cum visiting w their daughters n son... whole morning playing wif the kids... hee... PeiLing zhang da le! she's getting prettier n cuter... n her little sis Peishi... oh no! spoilt kid.. hahaz... then afternoon Mahjong! n some i-dunno-hu-relatives cum again... then we went to Hougang Mall.. the adults (erm...) went for some Jackpot games... n lost... while mi n sis went arcade! (n spent off the $10 i won yest... plus plus plus) then now m at hm but NO1 wanna play mahjong anymore... everyone got work tmr... haiz...

I wan MaHjOnG!!!

HaPpIe CNY eVe

hey! HaPpIe CNY eVe!!!! yay!!! hols hols hols hols hols!!! yay!!! hahahahahahahaz.. my day jus started.. yawnz... hahaz.. was pretty happie sleeping.. heh heh.. gg hm again!
HaPpIe ReUniOn DinNeR! HaPPiE HoLs!

erm... none of the grp fotoz could be taken properly... too much fooling ard.. hahaz.. this is the best le... hahaz

the 3 brown heads! =P finally taking our fotoz!

du shen!

StEaMbOaT!

Yo! jus back fr sTeAmBoAt @ Hall 13 TV room! yay! bloated!!! contented n happie... hahaz.. c PiCz!
anyway... went out w braInIes on sat! muacks! luv them lotz... but they wont go to concert!!! argh... like tt how to sell 5 tix?! even moi stupid sis dun wanna go! argh... i wanna slap her.. =p haiz n someone can sell 8 tix!! wa lau! haiz.... guess i m not worth tt 10bucks n 2 hrs of boredom for all my frenz n family... sobz...

tired!

YawNz...
wa so late liao! ahhhhhhh.... m gonna pon lect again.. i pon last week's oso.. hahaz... fri morning 830 leh... too cruel... n i hav break fr 1030 to 230 lo... go so early jus for 2 lect?! not worth it.. hahaz... i prefer my bed... yay! i m gonna c my darling brAiNiEs on Sat FinAlLy!!! hahaz... so happie! last wkend met up w pri sch frenz sylvia n esther and then this wkend the BraInIes... i missed u all so much! Next up, XiAoLaoPo!! i missed u so much! n Xuan N ElAinE!! muackz! i luv ya all!! when can we meet!?

i hate sch... argh... no good close new frenz... everyone of my classmates like so... stranger... so cold towards everyone, afterall the ppl in diff tut classes r diff n u only c them for one hr per wk... like tt how to make frenz?! then last sem classmates.. even though was pretty close.. now diff class again oso cold all over again.. hahaz... ok la i sound so LONELY... (i M!) hahaz... ok... i m sleepy... yawnz... HaPpIe ChInEsE NeW YeAr in advance! yay! hols hols hols!!!

(26th Feb 8pm S'pore Conference HaLL... NTUCO concert ... $10) anyone PLEASE CUM!!! buy tix fr mi!

BlOggInG roX!

yo! i hav fallen in luv w blogging... can c fr how frequent i m doing this... hahaz.. hey all... like my new skin?! i prefer this layout to the previous one! changed the cursor too... some ppl dun like the clock, i rmb... hahaz.. i like this one too.. v colorful n not so obstructive... then u can read better! yay! changed the song, changed the tagboard theme... n tt cost me the whole of yesterday n nite... slept at 230 lo~ dunno how i can wake up so early today to blog somemore.. hahaz i better go do my tutorials.. m so SO lagging!!! argh