wishing...

~wishes~

sometimes i hate wishing...

wishes that won't come true...

i wish i wish i wish...

~~

我不想哭。。。我要更坚强。。。

examz time!

Examz Time!!!

... and i still feel like slacking everyday! haha... i still want audition, i still dun feel like getting out of bed every morning... i still hate lessons.. wahahha... my mugger mission is still in the fridge... i better try to drag it out soon.. wahahaha...

ureca is pretty chim... but still managable right now... even though i still dunno how to do alot of things... but hopefully will learn abit more... haha... i still have yet to buy a phone... the more i wait, the more pretty phones appear in the market! haha... and i still want an mp3 player... so i shld do "diverse investment"... (i nid more $$!)

miss all my darlings! missing darling brainies, missing elaine n xuan darlings, missing joanne laopo, missing all the neller outings... after exams we must all go out n play! =)

...3 months, and i think i am recovering... or so i hope...

21st bday!

Thank you! *muacks*

Thank you for all who came!!! Thanks for coming, Thanks for the gifts, Thanks for bringing all the smiles to me! =) Thanks to those who couldnt come but i received your well wishes n hugs n kisses! =) I was really super busy that day, but I felt really happy that everyone spared the time to come!

I enjoyed all the "happy birthdays"! Thanks once again for making me feel like I'm a star! =) *muacks* I wished I had more time to sing with everyone and say goodbye and thank you to everyone... *thanks again!*

yummie! this is GOOD... (thanks mummy!)

mei nus! pammie joyce jane sylvia!

my fav niece n nephew!! =) aint they cute?!

peiling is so sweet!

brainies!!! *muacks* *muacks* *muacks*

pris n peiling r gd frenz after jus one song! =)

i lurve my cake! looks gd, and tastes better! yummie! i lurve hazelnuts!

i have cake AND flowers! =) great combi!

mum n dad n sis n mi! =)

pri sch frenz! oops... there's onlie sylvia darling! hee hee *muacks*

st nix galz!

vjc ppl! =)

ntuco! plus our two future members! =)

ntu engine ppl... vs

... ntu non-engine ppl

ntu eee gang!

ntuco tanpo!

hey tt's my new nametag!

jing n yuqin! late!

elaine says this can be my matchmaking photo! *haha*

osim!

my roomie! *muacks*

aint it romantic? city space is cool! =)

pretty ladies (and pretty toilet rite?!)

guess who were the photographers? =)

Thank you List:
Mummy + Daddy >> thanks for preparing the food! *muacks* and thanks for supporting me all this while...
Sis Hui>> thanks for the company n help in the process of planning =)
Elaine >> thanks for being my beauty consultant! you are the one who made me a princess! =)
Xuan >> gosh! the equinox was the best part of the night! thanks xuan mummy!
Roomie Wenyi >> thanks for the wonderful idea of the photo album n thanks for printing all those pix to brighten up the album!

thanks for all the presents! i really lurve them! special thanks to brainies for the super chio swatch watch! n thanks to nellers n gang for the hp voucher! thanks to osim ppl for the precious moments figurine! it's so pretty! =) i feel like i'm a greedy pig... these pressies are so exp! thanks thanks thanks!
*muacks* lurve ya all!

freezing

freezing...

awwwww... actually I think i m more like frozen, nt freezing... bin staying in hall the whole day (oops... wad abt lessons?) and guess how productive my day is?

bin mapling whole day, read abt 3 pages of notes, listening to songs, read the same 3 pages of notes, more mapling, and read the 3 pages of notes again... (dotz...)

abit sad some ppl cant make it for my bday... but really touched by darlings for putting in so much effort into my bday... thanks to elaine! she's my honoured beauty consultant! thanks to xuan mummy... i cant wait for sat nite outing to equinox (iz tt how u spell it?) thanks to darling brainies n gang... but pls dun get me a hp... it's too expensive... as i said, my bday list is purely write "shuang"!!!! it's more like my wishlist for this yr... hahaz... jus get mi sth within ur budgets and sth u like n i'll like too! =) *muackz* lurve ya lots!!!

i want to mug! but somehow i cant.... argh... i'll start tmr (oops did i hear tt b4? haha)

kss

去爱吧 如同从来没有受过伤害一样
Love like you’ve never been hurt before

跳舞吧 如同没有任何人注视你一样
Dance like there’s no one watching you

唱歌吧 如同没有任何人聆听一样
Sing like no one’s listening

工作吧 如同不需要金钱一样
Work like you don’t need money

活着吧 如同今日是末日一样
Live like today’s your last day

Bday Bday!

less than 2 weeks more...

to MY BDAY!! hee hee... lots to bz... (still...) haiz... hopefully everyone will cum!!! =) oh yeah.. m now erm... in psycho lecture... listening (?!) and lappie-ing (yeah...) will have a psycho quiz later n i m far far away from even half prepared... zzzz.... i can see my mugger mission going down the drain... argh...

ok... hmmm... lots of ppl have bin asking wad i want for my bday... hee hee... time to start putting up my bday wish list! wahahahahah... but i so shy... nt so thick-skin as to say wad i really wan... eg. handphone, mp3 player, precious moments figuring, new lappie, new desktop plus broadband for my home, blah blah blah... oops... wahahaha... hey dun close the window leh... i m nt tt unfrenly lah... wahhahahaha...

okok... how abt this list? =)
1. handphone - i want a SLIDE PHONE! (i lurve LG chocolate - but i dun like its functions...) so samsung ones r nt bad! (hee hee... okok... this IS expensive... jus write for shuang! haha)
2. MP3 Player! - i lurve sony's!!! the flash 1G MP3 is 179 (wooo...) and the hard disk 6G one is 299 (wooooooo......) hahaz... (okok... another one write for shuang de...)
3. Precious Moments figurine! wahahaha... i lurve this one with a pretty gal holding a bouquet of flowers... it's called "may love blossom whereever you go" but it's expensive (quite) and pretty useless... (impractical in my sis' view)
4. watch!! - how abt a swatch watch?! (woo... ok! dun kill mi! jus kidding... they r too darn expensive lah i know!)
5. accessories! - wld love necklaces or earrings or bracelets! =) i trust everyone will get mi nice pretty stuff! wahahahahaha...
6. new bag! - would love a tote bag! or handbag (always wanted a white one)
7. can gimme huge stuffed toys! (ok.. this is impractical too...) but sometimes they r really cute! wahahahaha... hmmm i dun mind doraemon (even though i have 2 oreadie!) or the black/white pigs (oops i dunno their names!) or the green tortoise! (no pink or brown ones pls... i like the greenies most.. oh n as usual i dunno their names...)
8. ok... jus a last item.. in case there ARE really super rich frenz out there... u know, i lurve gold bars?! (nt those chocolate gold bars pls...) wahahahahahaha...

wooo... i m so thick-skin! oops i mean i m so shy n humble! =) wahahahahha... *blushes* hope this helps somehow... so u all can avoid banging ur heads against the walls looking for something for She Ya the Great... *smilez* ok even though the list was no much help.. heehee...

23rd Sept 2006, saturday, 2-7pm, Hougang CC ktv... be there! =)

mugger mission 1

Mugger Mission 1

yo hi!!! i am finally blogging!!!! =) wahahahaha... how's my mugging? hee hee... bad.... mugger misson 1 has sorta failed... not totally though, but at least i m attending all my lectures and tutorials, including the make-ups!!! see! great improvement from last sem already!!!! yay! i m such a wonderful gal!!!! (guai bah!)

the bad thing abt mission 1 that i have yet to trully accomplish - to do my tutorials faithfully... its already SO tiring to attend 24AUz worth of lessons every wk! i'm already dying... so tired!!! ok... i'm trying so hard to read my notes and reading le...but of cos i cant kip up... oops my roomie jus commented that although i go for all my lectures, i m always late(ok... i cant get outta bed in time)... but at least i think i dun sleep in lectures as much as she do... surprisingly i m awake for most lectures!!! =)

and to make mugger mission 1 even more challenging... my addiction to drama has been acting up again!!!!!!! I jus cant stop watching "My lovely samsoon"!!!!! thanks to the wonderful tv reception at hall 11... now i come back every night and spend my time:
1. you-tube: watch kim sam soon
2. maple: kill kill kill
3. 10pm - 11pm: Kim Sam Soon on chn U!
4. you-tube: more kim sam soon!!!
i m jus so addicted already... anyone has the show?!?!?!?!?!?!?! help mi!!! let mi watch!!!!

birthday party will become a reality! ( i hope!) have yet to book the place... but i think i will do it sometime this wkend... then i will officially announce and sms everyone! =) do come!!! 23rd sept, sat (start of mid term break for NTU!), 2-7pm, Hougang CC ktv... i decided shall get 4 rooms instead of jus 3... so come early! dun let my rooms be too empty leh! haha...

birthday party... so much to plan, so much to spend, so much to do, so much to worry... hahaz... but i think the memories are worth alot more... =)

我想我可以就像你一样，当作什么都没发生。。。但现在的我，还做不到。我最近才发现，原来我比想象中脆弱。

mugger mi!!!!

i m RESOLVED to become a MUGGER this sem!!!!

yesh i m! do not doubt it... this is SHE YA the great and yesh i have decided to be a MUGGER!!! (hurrays!!!) too bad this din cum 4 sems ago, but don't worry i will be so hardworking that i can makeup for all the past sems!!!

too lazie to blog n post pix... sry i noe i promised... next wk maybe... when i take time off my mugging... hahaz...

i am going to attend all my lectures n tutorials. i am going to do my tutorials. i am going to read my notes. (oh gosh can i really do all this?! i'll try!!! ^^ )

i'm doing this because i don't want to think about stuff i don't want to think about... i might as well channel all these energy to fulfill more worth-while tasks... =)

down...

down...

ok... yesh i've been feeling really down this past week... i feel like all the confidence i've ever had is slipping away... i feel as though i'm all broken up inside... but i know i can survive. i know my wounds will heal... it jus takes time... i nid more happiness... (oh n more $ too, pls! hee...)

明知道会后悔的事，就不应该去做。
我想，我不只伤害了自己，也伤害了他。

i'm back!!!

i'm back!!!

woo.. m finally back in sinapore! =) great to be home! did ya all miss mi?! hee hee... beijing is wonderful if u take away the hot weather, horribly salty food, bad air, lousy traffic, and enormous amounts of walking... loved the shopping! ^^

watch out for fotoz when i m free enough to upload n post! =)

没有时间了

我想我真得很失败。
两年前，我以为我还有很多时间。

直到最近我才发现，
时间已经过了那么多。
直到最近我才发现，
情况似乎和当时一样。
直到最近我才发现，
原来已经没有那么多时间了。。。

我要怎么做，才能让时间停止？

h11 comp room

met a nice gentleman in the hall 11 computer room... (was too bored in the room watching CNA... but the aircon here is down...) we chatted abit, and erm... he sorta tried to know me... but i have a hard time catching what he was trying to say.. i think it's cos of the accent... he gave me his email address but of cos i don't intend to email him or anything... think i wont use the comp room tt often to see him anyway... (i hope!) it sure is wierd being in a dark comp room with someone i jus met barely an hour ago and asking about what i feel as a singaporean and how would i feel to actually go out on the road with a negro like him... i m not being racist (i am not!) but it jus feels wierd... maybe cos i m too shy.. he's over 10 yrs older than me! and i dun exactly feel charmed by someone who's "determined, courageous, and humble" (that's what he says...)

ok.. not a very good way to speak of someone i jus met... he's a nice guy lah... with much wisdom... (k lah.. i m stupid...) glad to have met such an interesting person here in hall 11... =)


I don't know what I should do... would it be better to be kept as a secret? Is it really just admiration and not fondness? I just learnt something today... "first admiration, then like, and finally love"

Brainies outing!!!!

Brainies Outing!!!

Finally! the long awaited brainies trip!!! =) joyce looks so skinny after she came back from her london trip (jealous!) AND before tt, her korea trip (MORE jealous)... Clare went london too, and Janey maybe going HK (jealous!!!!!) while poor me will melt in Beijing soon... haha... okok... Beijing is good enuff... seems like there's so much stuff for mi to prepare for my first ever china trip, and my first ever airplane ride! feeling bit lazie... haha... first i nid to move hall first! hee hee...

The pretty brainies!!!! *muacks* i lurve ya all darlings!!!

Janey is SOOOO cute!!!! her HUGE eyes with our yuen yang bing! ^^

Hey joyce u r supposed to make a funny face!!! =P

mi n joyce's shoes... wad can i say? great minds think alike! =D

Janey's lok kok shoe with a HOLE!!! (and her ankle socks... she insists on getting them into the photo! haha)

The ghostly brainies..... gonna miss ya all!!!

Till we meet again!!! muacks!!!!

lala!!!

hihi... k i realised i m so lazie when it comes to blogging... hahaz... paiseh lah... i AM lazie i admit it...

wooow so fast n i'm left with abt a mth of school hols... minus CO trip, minus moving hall, minus CO practs (if i turn up)... oh... like nt much time left... sianz... i haven really got to enjoy n hols is almost over?! sigh...

thanks darling brainies... miss ya all so much... joyce u back in sgp le? m so jealous!!! i oso wish to go London n Korea! sniff sniff... n janey oso nv chio mi go out... must be too bz rite!? haha... watashiwa oso really rotting at home... hee... the only person i really go out with is Elaine lor... she's the one who's dragging mi out of the comfort of my rotting in my cosy little hdb flat... haha... but den.. without her i guess i would spend even more time rotting and will be even more "no life"... haha... okok thanks darling elaine... =) *muacks*

C.O. has bin... haiz... i dunno how to say it... i guess i m dreading the travelling... i m so darn lazie lah... i hate leaving home to go for CO... (no like anyone there misses my company...) but i guess it's ok during practice... hmmmph... but liddat i will miss my superband!!! argh... i lurve soul n j3... hopefully juzB or milupin cums back this wk... =)

ai qing mo fa shi is nice! but too similar to wang zi bian qing wa... n my mom loves goong... she can watch n rewatch n not get bored... hahaz...

ok... say i m bored, cos i m, blogging twice in a nite... i cant find better things to do... and being online is... well, shld i say rare for mi... n i still dunno wad to do! haha... talking on msn... a fav pasttime of so many ppl i noe... is becoming v depressing for mi...

k lah... sorry for darlings angeline, yiing and elaine... well, who else talks on msn with mi lor? sometimes i dun c the point of going online to "talk" when we c each other so often (?)
haiz... say i m wierd... i come on msn... maybe i m looking for someone to chit chat, but well... it makes me feel all the more sianz.... sry darlings again... hahaz...

hmmm... sometimes i wonder why m i who i m? why m i not like the people i noe? why do i feel like i have frenz, but i still feel lonely all the same? i dunno who i can find when i nid a talk... i dunno who i can find to accompany me through the lonely nights in hall... i dunno who i can find if i jus wish to chill out... i dunno who to call when i feel like talking... perhaps i feel that i m worthy of noone's attention... i dunno.... why shld anyone bother abt mi?

M.i.A.-ing

yoho... bin mia for v long... since end of DIP... have bin rotting at home... very sianz very bored... but interestingly, i am enjoying it quite abit... hee hee... ok so i AM a pig...

well... sometimes i think i am tt type of person who can jus stay cut off from the world... i jus nid to stay at home... hee... no job no money but it's ok... i dun really wan to go out too... no money to spend, no where to go and nobody to go with... haha... i jus get this feeling that noone misses mi jus as i miss noone... (isolating myself) (hee)

ok... but think cos home has so many people... mommy is at home everyday now... so yesh, home's very noisy everyday... *she can scream at so many things i m so amazed by her... oh i used the wrong word... it's *annoyed... haha...

k... i wan to get a job, but i m like onlie free for... hmmm... i cant even say a mth... with the CO china trip rite in the mid of my remaining hols... haiz... i'll try looking for temp or one-off job k? any lobang?

what do you do when you feel lonely? what is it like to fall in love? what is it like to get used to life with a special someone?

maybe i dun look like that kind... but i do get lonely.... sometimes...

morning!!!

yoho! DIP is ending soon!!! after this presentation... hee...

dunno how cum become the presenter for the other grp... haiz... tot can slack but seems no.. haha... after this can go out play (finally)... hee

yesterday went out with elaine... went bugis walk walk... super alot of pple!!! argh... tried to find the mei tt peishi darling bought... but there r so many shops there i really dunno which one got... in the end oso cannot find the special "korean mei"... n the weather so super hot i cant stand it... wahahahahaha... so in the end anyhow buy mei... hee... okok... i m lousy...

den i went home with elaine... she wanna watch goong... den suddenly got fever... n feel v hot n sick for the rest of the nite... haiz... but now ok liaoz lah... hopefully... hee... today came to lab early to perpare for the presentation but seems like i'm too early haha... k lah... they nid time to warm up i guess... wateva...

shall go back to emm... preparing... hahaz... wish mi luck!

DIP...

boo! DIP has been, literally - horrible! argh... first was being "thrown" into the project with no guidance what-so-ever from the prof, next came our hopes of several highly ambitious ideas which the lab techs confirmed we will NEVER get it done by the short span of 5 weeks.... when we finally decided on what to do, (thanks to the lab techs for helping us find ideas) we face the huge hurdle of ASSEMBLY language... argh... the only parts i guess i enjoyed was the shopping at Sim Lim for components and motor (oh i think we got cheated... the motor cost us $15!!)

we finally got our hardware done (almost) - hopefully by tomorrow.. haha.. now the big problem is... our propeller clock can't exactly do a clock display right now (problems with programming a clock...) haiz... i can imagine how our project will turn out... haiz... (not to mention the other 2 groups in the lab seems to be so pro...)

okok... too late le.. lab tech chasing us out liao.. ciaoz~~~

holidays??

yoho! hey ppl! ok so was missing in action for quite a while... last entry was hmm... sad... but hey ppl i'm hmmm better (?) already... minus the fact that i screwed up my last 2 papers *esp the last one* haiz...

okok... long story (not really) but my mommy got into hospital on last tues nite den i only got to know it at like 7am wed morning... so i onlie effectively slept for 4 hrs for tt paper (yawnz)... den i went to the hospital to pei my mommy after my wed paper and also spent the day there on thurs... den my fri paper was... haiz... now REALLY must pray very hard for tt... okok... my own fault actually.. not exactly no time or hospital is a bad place to study but more like i got no mood to study at all... argh... i ended up "blanking out" haiz... wad a failure i m...

anw, mommy bin out of hospital since sat... so not to worry darlings... but i bin accompanying her everyday everywhere, so i dun really have a life rite now so sorry ppl... hospital, clinic, hougang mall... my latest hangouts... n the wonderful thing is mommy only goes to super exciting places like her favourite NTUC n market... while everytime i spot any thing i wan to c she'll drag mi away with "dun waste time". haiz... so u can guess how entertained i m everyday, everywhere with mommy... k lah tt's such a boring story... maybe after she feels better n not giddy anymore den i can jio u all go out! =) remember me hor! hee...

holiday ending liaoz... argh n i haven even went out to play at all!!!! argh... but these days i bin at home n guess wad i bin doing??? wahahahahaha... PS games n PC games! cool xia... but STILL... i cant stand the connection... kips dcing how i play my maple? (haha.. i think i have no rite to complain... but well...) hee =P next i wanna watch GONG (palace) the korean show adapted fr this korean comic which i like quite a bit... =) anyone got?? *hint hint*

DIP starting next monday... left 3 more days to play (or slave)...

miss ya all darlings... *muacks*