恶作剧

一个可笑的恶作剧，让我发现自己心里真正的想法。
应该认真去面对？ 应该给自己多一次机会吗？
我害怕再次伤心难过， 我害怕重蹈覆辙。
我只是想找个答案。。。

yuan xiao jie!

Happy yuan xiao jie!!!

wahahahahaha... haven blogged for a long time... to say the truth there's no real feeling of "yuan xiao" at all... none of the loud celebrations and good food etc... but it's a nice day to be at home chiong-ing show! wahahaha... *winks*

C.O.'s concert was wonderful! was so sad all my frenx cant cum, but luckily there's darling peishi n yuxia! *muacks* love u all! it would be great to have all my friends and family come support me... I love performing, and I love it more when my loved ones are there to watch me... so I've decided! you are all to come for my last concert with ntuco next year! I'm gonna force my whole family to come too! hee hee...

It was really tiring but it's all worth it! With every concert, I have come to realise new things every year. maybe it's jus that i am getting too old.. *haiz* but this is all so true...

was watching the korean show "bad family"... it's amazing how the characters found sincere love for the other family members even when theirs was in actual fact a "fake family". Even true families do not have the capabilities to forget their individual differences and shortcomings. Even true families do not forgive mistakes. Even true families may not be "complete". I hope for a true family, a "complete" family...

CNY

Happy CNY!

dada! happie CNY! have bin telling myself i ought to blog since quite some time ago... but somehow... hee... so well... i'm going to tell story~ hahaz....

CNY was fun with nellers and assocs! =) went to wenyi's, haoyi's and ning's hse and ate the whole day! and surprisingly i was game enough to go watch midnight show (norbit) and den go to hall with yiing n angeline n haoyi! poor haoyi gotta go to lab in the morning while the three ladies (the three little piggies) slept till lunchtime and stayed in bed awhile longer playing blackjack and angeline was dancing cha cha with the green snake! lolz... C.O. ended pretty late and heng got mao to drive us back but in the end i still end up sleeping till 9am today... (oops i start work at 830am fyi)

oh yesh! happie Vday (abit belated le...) but i was too lazie to blog then so i m blogging now. haha.. i donated blood for the first time in my life on vday! *so noble* hahaz... donating blood is meaningful, but yah... bit pain (for maybe abt 5min) but worth it... though it felt funny having all the nurses telling me to lie down longer (they wont let me go) cos they say i was very pale... so i had another 15min zzz-ing! hee hee... =) wellz... hope everyone had a great Vday! (the rest of my vday was.... sianz...)

okok... happie CNY again for all! hope u have a great year ahead and lotsa hong baoz!

sianz

SUNDAY~

it's SUNDAY afternoon! and guess what i am doing? mapling... hahaz... bit sianz hor? but ok lahz... maple is cute n ok to play to spend time...

hmmz yest went qi's bday party! he's finally 21!! hahaz.. act like an adult ok!? i owis feel he's very "xiao di di"... haha... hmmx stupid yuhui greeted me with "stupid sheya" the first thing i see him! *idiots* and the most stupid thing is i proved myself to be so dumb... was trying to scare angeline from behind when i bu xiao xin slipped and fell... (cos the slope was sandy and my shoes can slip very well.. haiz) and now my ankle hurts... hahaz... can walk.. but dun think can run n jump yet... hahaz... *ouch* dumb sheya... 恶人有恶报！haha...

we spent the nite having supper at chomp chomp! nan de my roomie was onz! hahaz.... long time since we had a neller's supper! chomps best! =) den got home pretty late n tired... i miss the days we can go out for supper or go out chiong or ktv until late hours den jus go back to hall... hee... staying at home makes me wan to act guai in front of my parents... they dun like the idea of mi drinking or staying out late at nite... guess all parents are like that... hahaz...

Friday went out for team lunch with my colleagues and fellow IA students... n guess what? we ended up at the same table as the big bosses and my sup... (cos no one wants to sit with us.... haha... haiz... poor us... we dun really fit in anywhere...) and well... i think i was going crazy repeating my answers to the same few questions... so how's work? where do you stay? do you stay in hostel? y did u choose enginneering? blah blah blah... was very tempted to sing there... (got ktv!) but i aint very keen to sing for entertainment while everyone i dunno eats... and very paiseh oso cos noone except my sup sang... hahaz... well... all i can say is... that lunch was so *stressful* haha... but the food is REALLY good... i heard each person abt 50+... freaky~ we had about 40 ppl there... so well.. do your maths! =P

shall go for CO tomorrow... die i think i nid alot of practice! it's less than a month to the concert! *faintz* and i haven start selling tix! work work work~ busy busy busy~

<<花样少年少女>>:
"Travel helps people relax and open up 這就是最好表白的時候... "
...................................骗人的.................................................

knock off!

as i predicted, i m REALLY very zuo bo today~ i m now... em... preparing (?) to go home... jus too paiseh to leave when everyone around me is still so busy~ hahaz...

i guess i shall fill my day up tml by reading up other ppl's blogs! (hmm... discretely of cos...) wahahahahahaha....

The meaning of life is to give life meaning.

work!

wohoo! hie! the lazie pig is finally blogging again... haha...

pretty zuo bo at work (even more zuo bo den usual), cos most of the engineers are really busy these few days... i expect to be more zuo bo tomorrow and maybe beginning of next week.. *haiz*

went for C.O. (finally!) but that was last week... this week? hmm... rao le wo ba! the travelling is really tiring... will go again next week for sectionals instead... hee... my roomie has a new roomie! so that means i have no where to stay when i go C.O. *haiz* more travelling...

anw, gotta do "paper work"... *sigh* ciaoz!

I.A.-ing

woo hoo! it's been A YEAR since i blogged! (wahahaha)

ok... merely 2 weeks into I.A. and I am slacking really big time.. it explains why i am here blogging... stupid yiing kip niaoing mi to go CO and to update my blog... lalalalalala... ok i decided to go C.O. finally (zzzzz) perhaps nex wk... awww... i hate the travelling.. still debating to stay in hall or go home late at nite after C.O.

C.O. - been mia for so long i almost forgot i ever existed in it... oops.. jus kidding lahz... i miss CO alrite.. miss yiing too, n miss peishi oso... miss haoyi SL, miss nellers and associates... okok.. tt's y i m cuming... zzzzz (i hate to travel!)

I.A. - hmm... i m learning alot, but i m really tired also... everyday oso wanna zzzz when i reach home... weirds.. i m becoming like a pig... jus longing for more sleep everyday... hahaz... i jus wan my school fees back... (i pay the school, the school pays the company, the company pays me...)(still my money in the end...)

ok... I.A. time dun slack so obvious... (oh i finished reading harry potter and the half-blood prince ebk while at work! hee...)

ciaoz!

happy new year!

happie new year!

SUDDENLY, it's the last day of 2006! in less than 24 hrs we will say goodbye to 2006 and start the new year!

so many things have happened in 2006...

NTUCO concert
it was a FULL HOUSE! (i lurve reminding everyone!) What a PROUD ticketing officer i am, togather with yiing yng! The preparation was TEDIOUS and i remembered how i freaked and really wanted to give up cos of all the performaances (yes there was SO much esp that year and that period of time!) plus the at-first-really-pathetic ticket sales (less than 50% when it was less than 2 wks to the concert...) and the euphoria that took over me when i realised we dont have enough tickets to sell on the day before the concert!!!! lol... a great accomplishment! =)
(too bad haoyi SL wasnt with us then, but it's good to know he enjoyed himself in shanghai! =) i remember how sad we all were when we went to send him off~~~)


NTUCO Beijing Trip
beijing was WONDERFUL! the company was great (of cos! u'll always be crazy with the nellers!) it's the FIRST time in my life i took an airplane! (the pressure in my ears really made me felt horrible~ it is HARD to yawn sometimes... haha) the trip really made me feel a greater sense of belonging and "togetherness" (is it the word?) with the orchestra... =) I also did the most courageous thing i ever did... It took so much of my courage and drained so much of my energy and happiness... but well! i did not and will never regret it... this is all part of life...

Hall + school
hall 11 and hall 15... surprisingly, i prefer hall 11... minus the distance, and the canteen, hall 11 actually makes me feel more comfortable than hall 15!! i like the wind, the serenity and the tv reception! school? jus as boring... luckily i have ning n peishi n yuxia with me everyday. i've learnt to go for lectures and tutorials alone (i STILL prefer someone to pei wo really...) i've learnt to gossip and spectaculate relationships between people jus by observing where and how they seat themselves in the LT... (lol... tt has become me n peishi's fav pasttime in 12/17 lectures) Results?! of cos i'm happie =) the latest sem's results made me MORE happie! well... since i've bin so hardworking this sem, i deserve my great results! =) i will miss my roomie when i go for IA starting jan~ roomie~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Celebrating 21 years!
21.. the magical number... the year you become an adult, you become responsible for your own life. the year you spend all your money on everyone else's presents! haha.... but it's the SPECIAL year! i lurve all the parties~ janey's, pammie's, jane ong's, Elaine's, yingyan's, Sam's, and MY party! hee hee... of cos plus yiing's! =) we're all adults now!!! and there are so many more 21 years ahead of us! all the best for all of us!! ^^

Darlings
wooo~~~ i miss my darlings! i haven seen brainies for SOoooo long~~~~ miss ya all badly!!! janey must be sneezing in Australia now.... haha... let's meet up when janey is back!!! *muacks* *muacks* *muacks* i really miss ya all!!! it seems like yesterday we were giving ourselves furnie names... [wonkey, donkey, monkey, zonkey] [lost brainie, no screw brainie, empty brainie, no brainie] i miss our vj days... not the sch, but the days i get to see you gals everyday...
darlings of the year::: xuan and elaine!!!!! thanks to you gals i manage to cum out of my own misery~ thanks to you gals i always have someone to call or jus to bother when i feel like it and thanks to you gals i now have GREAT expectations for the year ahead... =) in a good way lah... *muackx* *muackx*
and also another darling all time (i noe she dun read my blog... she never reads anyone's.. but well...) thanks to sylvia... a fren of 12 years... you know me inside out! and i know we'll be frenz forever...


wooo wad a Long~~~~ post... it took me very long to write it ok... dun complaint lah.. hee... anyway... 2006 has been good~ now let's all look forward and move on! time waits for no one...

best wishes for 2007! ^^

merry xmas!

merry xmas!

may all ur christmas wishes come true and may u have a wonderful year ahead!

i finally let myself go beyond where i usually allow myself. but even so, i did not push all the way to 100%... i guess i stopped when i still have 5% soberness ~ in order to save all the trouble and uncomfort... hahaz... ok... yy went further, tt's y i guess she must be having a worse hangover den me~ hee hee... she's probably zzz-ing le...

it was interesting for me... i was totally conscious of wad i was doing, totally "high", talking even louder than usual (oops..haha), not walking very straight (but at least i could still walk... still get wad i wan, still make it back safely...) and i remember it! hahaz... and i had a very comfortable pillow! thanks to syh~ hahaz... (but not without uncountable disturbances...)

no more malaysia trip for me liaoz, but at least now i am looking for another night out this new year! =) go plan it, SL! ^^ (i better start to train up! hee hee...)

山谷中

有人告诉我，
我就像在一个山谷中，
虽然很深，但我很幸运我的山谷有个梯级。
只要我愿意爬， 总有一天我会爬出这个山谷。
这个人是我的曙光，让我看到了梯级。

也许，
其实我不想爬出山谷。。。
我害怕山谷外的世界，
我害怕别人讨厌我，
我害怕得不到别人的爱，
我害怕得不敢去碰那梯级。

有时我真得很想就这样，
永远呆在深深的山谷中。。。

hols

Holidays!

yoho!!! it's 10days after examz, and life's good with hols! =)

bin spending quality time with frenz and family.. bin going out every other day and bin slacking at home every non-other day... haha... jus spent the weekend partying at my roomie's place! it's so fun! steamboat, mahjong, xbox, audition, ron.. and the most surprising thing is we actually played monopoly until 5am and we were still super high! haha... i conclude haoyi's luck is super good.. he won every game! argh.. even if we ALL gang up against him... hahaz... everyone was super tired yesterday but well.. it was fun! roomie's house is so nice... feels like a high class chalet.. cos of the aircon =P and i guess we really created alot of noise esp during monopoly! haha...

jus signed maxonline on sat! (yay!) -- no more dialup, finally! now i can play audition at home! cool!!!! (but somehow today it either hangs or kicks mi out... hmm... i'll try again another time...) it costs quite a bit.. i better start saving up to pay bills... and guess wad!? i STILL haven got a handphone! (oh.. wads new?!) so well... i nid $$!!!!

k lahz.. shall continue to enjoy my maxonline! =) enjoy hols everyone! psss.... brainies! when r we going out?! miss ya... xiao lao po! miss ya too!!!! enjoy yourself there ok?! =)

examz

5 down, 2 more to go

yay! 5 papers down, 2 more to go... after exams i'm gonna do so many things i cant count anymore... hahaz... i'm looking forward to next fri le!!! but the problem is how to survive Monday's paper... so far my 5 papers are, as usual, unsatisfactory... i really pray my results are ok... it doesnt help when u start to watch a drama (wei xiao pasta) and finish it within two days... when u start on the day b4 ur first paper... haha... i knew this was going to happen... but i still let it happen... now i have rewatched and m still rewatching... cos i dun have anything better to watch liaoz... hahaz.. i m so dead...

i miss my roomie... whenever i m alone in hall... i hate to go makan alone esp in the hall canteen... and all the nellers are so far away... so i owis camp in the room and become my hermit.. i munch on bread n biscuits n vitasoy for all my meals, with chocs as snacks... lol.. bad lifestyle.. lonely and unhealthy...

jus back fr suntec after a long awaited nellers outing... in the midst of examz though... hahaz.. but i figured i wont want to mug anymore after my paper today... according to past experience i end up doing everything but mugging... haha... nex paper is super er xin so i really better be serious abt it fr tmr onwards..


不知不觉， 就已经过了四个月了。。。
生日前两个月， 我经历了一生中最难过最痛苦的回忆。
生日后的两个月，我似乎已经痊愈了。
也许这只是自我安慰， 但我真的很想把它从心里去除。
谢谢这几个月开那么支持我的朋友们。。。
或许是因为大家都在同一个时间感受到相同的痛处，
所以我们才能从彼此找到力量。
能有你们我想上天已经对我太好了。
真心的希望我们都会找到属于自己的幸福，
真心的希望我们会一辈子做最好的朋友。

wishing...

~wishes~

sometimes i hate wishing...

wishes that won't come true...

i wish i wish i wish...

~~

我不想哭。。。我要更坚强。。。

examz time!

Examz Time!!!

... and i still feel like slacking everyday! haha... i still want audition, i still dun feel like getting out of bed every morning... i still hate lessons.. wahahha... my mugger mission is still in the fridge... i better try to drag it out soon.. wahahaha...

ureca is pretty chim... but still managable right now... even though i still dunno how to do alot of things... but hopefully will learn abit more... haha... i still have yet to buy a phone... the more i wait, the more pretty phones appear in the market! haha... and i still want an mp3 player... so i shld do "diverse investment"... (i nid more $$!)

miss all my darlings! missing darling brainies, missing elaine n xuan darlings, missing joanne laopo, missing all the neller outings... after exams we must all go out n play! =)

...3 months, and i think i am recovering... or so i hope...

21st bday!

Thank you! *muacks*

Thank you for all who came!!! Thanks for coming, Thanks for the gifts, Thanks for bringing all the smiles to me! =) Thanks to those who couldnt come but i received your well wishes n hugs n kisses! =) I was really super busy that day, but I felt really happy that everyone spared the time to come!

I enjoyed all the "happy birthdays"! Thanks once again for making me feel like I'm a star! =) *muacks* I wished I had more time to sing with everyone and say goodbye and thank you to everyone... *thanks again!*

yummie! this is GOOD... (thanks mummy!)

mei nus! pammie joyce jane sylvia!

my fav niece n nephew!! =) aint they cute?!

peiling is so sweet!

brainies!!! *muacks* *muacks* *muacks*

pris n peiling r gd frenz after jus one song! =)

i lurve my cake! looks gd, and tastes better! yummie! i lurve hazelnuts!

i have cake AND flowers! =) great combi!

mum n dad n sis n mi! =)

pri sch frenz! oops... there's onlie sylvia darling! hee hee *muacks*

st nix galz!

vjc ppl! =)

ntuco! plus our two future members! =)

ntu engine ppl... vs

... ntu non-engine ppl

ntu eee gang!

ntuco tanpo!

hey tt's my new nametag!

jing n yuqin! late!

elaine says this can be my matchmaking photo! *haha*

osim!

my roomie! *muacks*

aint it romantic? city space is cool! =)

pretty ladies (and pretty toilet rite?!)

guess who were the photographers? =)

Thank you List:
Mummy + Daddy >> thanks for preparing the food! *muacks* and thanks for supporting me all this while...
Sis Hui>> thanks for the company n help in the process of planning =)
Elaine >> thanks for being my beauty consultant! you are the one who made me a princess! =)
Xuan >> gosh! the equinox was the best part of the night! thanks xuan mummy!
Roomie Wenyi >> thanks for the wonderful idea of the photo album n thanks for printing all those pix to brighten up the album!

thanks for all the presents! i really lurve them! special thanks to brainies for the super chio swatch watch! n thanks to nellers n gang for the hp voucher! thanks to osim ppl for the precious moments figurine! it's so pretty! =) i feel like i'm a greedy pig... these pressies are so exp! thanks thanks thanks!
*muacks* lurve ya all!

freezing

freezing...

awwwww... actually I think i m more like frozen, nt freezing... bin staying in hall the whole day (oops... wad abt lessons?) and guess how productive my day is?

bin mapling whole day, read abt 3 pages of notes, listening to songs, read the same 3 pages of notes, more mapling, and read the 3 pages of notes again... (dotz...)

abit sad some ppl cant make it for my bday... but really touched by darlings for putting in so much effort into my bday... thanks to elaine! she's my honoured beauty consultant! thanks to xuan mummy... i cant wait for sat nite outing to equinox (iz tt how u spell it?) thanks to darling brainies n gang... but pls dun get me a hp... it's too expensive... as i said, my bday list is purely write "shuang"!!!! it's more like my wishlist for this yr... hahaz... jus get mi sth within ur budgets and sth u like n i'll like too! =) *muackz* lurve ya lots!!!

i want to mug! but somehow i cant.... argh... i'll start tmr (oops did i hear tt b4? haha)

kss

去爱吧 如同从来没有受过伤害一样
Love like you’ve never been hurt before

跳舞吧 如同没有任何人注视你一样
Dance like there’s no one watching you

唱歌吧 如同没有任何人聆听一样
Sing like no one’s listening

工作吧 如同不需要金钱一样
Work like you don’t need money

活着吧 如同今日是末日一样
Live like today’s your last day

Bday Bday!

less than 2 weeks more...

to MY BDAY!! hee hee... lots to bz... (still...) haiz... hopefully everyone will cum!!! =) oh yeah.. m now erm... in psycho lecture... listening (?!) and lappie-ing (yeah...) will have a psycho quiz later n i m far far away from even half prepared... zzzz.... i can see my mugger mission going down the drain... argh...

ok... hmmm... lots of ppl have bin asking wad i want for my bday... hee hee... time to start putting up my bday wish list! wahahahahah... but i so shy... nt so thick-skin as to say wad i really wan... eg. handphone, mp3 player, precious moments figuring, new lappie, new desktop plus broadband for my home, blah blah blah... oops... wahahaha... hey dun close the window leh... i m nt tt unfrenly lah... wahhahahaha...

okok... how abt this list? =)
1. handphone - i want a SLIDE PHONE! (i lurve LG chocolate - but i dun like its functions...) so samsung ones r nt bad! (hee hee... okok... this IS expensive... jus write for shuang! haha)
2. MP3 Player! - i lurve sony's!!! the flash 1G MP3 is 179 (wooo...) and the hard disk 6G one is 299 (wooooooo......) hahaz... (okok... another one write for shuang de...)
3. Precious Moments figurine! wahahaha... i lurve this one with a pretty gal holding a bouquet of flowers... it's called "may love blossom whereever you go" but it's expensive (quite) and pretty useless... (impractical in my sis' view)
4. watch!! - how abt a swatch watch?! (woo... ok! dun kill mi! jus kidding... they r too darn expensive lah i know!)
5. accessories! - wld love necklaces or earrings or bracelets! =) i trust everyone will get mi nice pretty stuff! wahahahahaha...
6. new bag! - would love a tote bag! or handbag (always wanted a white one)
7. can gimme huge stuffed toys! (ok.. this is impractical too...) but sometimes they r really cute! wahahahaha... hmmm i dun mind doraemon (even though i have 2 oreadie!) or the black/white pigs (oops i dunno their names!) or the green tortoise! (no pink or brown ones pls... i like the greenies most.. oh n as usual i dunno their names...)
8. ok... jus a last item.. in case there ARE really super rich frenz out there... u know, i lurve gold bars?! (nt those chocolate gold bars pls...) wahahahahahaha...

wooo... i m so thick-skin! oops i mean i m so shy n humble! =) wahahahahha... *blushes* hope this helps somehow... so u all can avoid banging ur heads against the walls looking for something for She Ya the Great... *smilez* ok even though the list was no much help.. heehee...

23rd Sept 2006, saturday, 2-7pm, Hougang CC ktv... be there! =)

mugger mission 1

Mugger Mission 1

yo hi!!! i am finally blogging!!!! =) wahahahaha... how's my mugging? hee hee... bad.... mugger misson 1 has sorta failed... not totally though, but at least i m attending all my lectures and tutorials, including the make-ups!!! see! great improvement from last sem already!!!! yay! i m such a wonderful gal!!!! (guai bah!)

the bad thing abt mission 1 that i have yet to trully accomplish - to do my tutorials faithfully... its already SO tiring to attend 24AUz worth of lessons every wk! i'm already dying... so tired!!! ok... i'm trying so hard to read my notes and reading le...but of cos i cant kip up... oops my roomie jus commented that although i go for all my lectures, i m always late(ok... i cant get outta bed in time)... but at least i think i dun sleep in lectures as much as she do... surprisingly i m awake for most lectures!!! =)

and to make mugger mission 1 even more challenging... my addiction to drama has been acting up again!!!!!!! I jus cant stop watching "My lovely samsoon"!!!!! thanks to the wonderful tv reception at hall 11... now i come back every night and spend my time:
1. you-tube: watch kim sam soon
2. maple: kill kill kill
3. 10pm - 11pm: Kim Sam Soon on chn U!
4. you-tube: more kim sam soon!!!
i m jus so addicted already... anyone has the show?!?!?!?!?!?!?! help mi!!! let mi watch!!!!

birthday party will become a reality! ( i hope!) have yet to book the place... but i think i will do it sometime this wkend... then i will officially announce and sms everyone! =) do come!!! 23rd sept, sat (start of mid term break for NTU!), 2-7pm, Hougang CC ktv... i decided shall get 4 rooms instead of jus 3... so come early! dun let my rooms be too empty leh! haha...

birthday party... so much to plan, so much to spend, so much to do, so much to worry... hahaz... but i think the memories are worth alot more... =)

我想我可以就像你一样，当作什么都没发生。。。但现在的我，还做不到。我最近才发现，原来我比想象中脆弱。

mugger mi!!!!

i m RESOLVED to become a MUGGER this sem!!!!

yesh i m! do not doubt it... this is SHE YA the great and yesh i have decided to be a MUGGER!!! (hurrays!!!) too bad this din cum 4 sems ago, but don't worry i will be so hardworking that i can makeup for all the past sems!!!

too lazie to blog n post pix... sry i noe i promised... next wk maybe... when i take time off my mugging... hahaz...

i am going to attend all my lectures n tutorials. i am going to do my tutorials. i am going to read my notes. (oh gosh can i really do all this?! i'll try!!! ^^ )

i'm doing this because i don't want to think about stuff i don't want to think about... i might as well channel all these energy to fulfill more worth-while tasks... =)