feeling super down...

i dunno y i'm feeling so sad... i jus feel like crying my heart out...

so many things have happened recently. both happy and sad things... suddenly i feel that i dun exactly know the people around me... i guess i'm not as close as i think i m to my frenz... it hurts to c a really close fren being so sad, but i cant bring myself to ask... dun think i'm meant to know... but it hurts my heart... it hurts jus as bad to realise certain events only after it had happened... when noone ever said anything how m i supposed to know? *haiz* maybe it's all my fault...

i tell myself there's nth to worry abt, and there's nth i can do... but it doesnt stop the unease in my heart... sometimes i jus feel like giving up the exams... how can i try to study while i know she's in pain? how can i fuss abt idiot stuff like transformers when all i want is to be with her, make sure she is nt lost in the hosp, understands what the docs r talking abt, is taking her medicine on time, eating her meals on time, getting enuff sleep... i jus hate myself!

i dun like being hall alone either... it makes me feel so lonely i feel like crying all i can... i feel like using up all the tears i have so tat i will nv have to cry again... sometimes i wish i can find someone to cry to... i guess i'm tried trying to kip the "happy sheya" in front of everyone... but i dun like the idea of spoiling everyone's mood...

- jus let me cry... it'll be over soon -

exam alert!

Examz in LESS than TWO weeks!!! jiayou everyone!!
jiayou to those having their examz earlier den mi too! esp to claris n joyce darling... JIAYOU!

ok... bin missing in action for very long again... sorry sorry... bin lazie n my lappie went for a holiday at eight flags again... haha... den after it came back it lost all its memory so i have bin busy looking for ways to help it regain its past memories... ok... i m jus crapping... it got a new harddisk liaoz... dunno to be happy or sad, but at least i have got back most of my stuff so it's ok... =)

cant wait for examz to be over! (it has nt even started!) i am gonna start camping in hall from tonite onwards.... oh tt means ANOTHER FOUR WEEKS before i go home! i duno if i can tahan tt long... i cant imagine mi eating FOUR whole WEEKS of canteen food... ARGHhhhhhh... ahhhhhhh.... help mi! (pss.. i jus spent quite some $$ stocking up food... choc, sweets, biscuits, cup mee... i dun think i will die out tt fast! hee hee)

okok... i shldnt be wasting time here act... but feel so sianz hall alone so i decided to come complain... gotta go off to MUG for tmr's quiz (quiz again!) so tada! buaiz n wish mi luck! =)