dec

Exams are over and the hols are here... (for pretty long le for me actually....) I know I have been lazy to blog, lazy to come online, lazy to keep in touch with all the people I care about.... Just 3 months of school, and I feel like I've lost contact with the real world so much that I don't know how to start to get back my life.
I wish for the good old days... I wish I have all my friends with me all the time. I don't like the internet... I don't like talking to the computer... I don't like how msn makes people all seem so far away...
I love to watch dramas, but I don't like the empty feeling I get each time I finish watching a drama...
I have so many tasks on hand, but I just find no drive to start any of them. I don't like to see career talks announcements or invitations because they remind me that I don't have a dream for the future. I hate to admit it, but I miss the old days so much... that I don't want to move on...

exams!

Aww... This place is more or less dead le i think... hahaz... i almost forgot how to log into blogger! lolx!

examz in a week's time!!! *ahhhhhhhh!!!* and i'm FAR from prepared~ *sianz*
ok... less than 9 days left to start of exams... but at least my exams will be over really fast... for those interested, here are the 6 golden numbers... 14, 15, 16, 20, 20, 21 (dun ask me why I'm so suay... i din have a choice!)... well... what else can i say? 早死早超生!

Joyce must jiayou too! ya exams also ard the same time rite? Gambatte! I miss ya so much! i miss the brainies! We haven met for real long... but i guess the next meeting wont be anytime soon oso... at least till after my exams n janey's exams and clare's forever-ongoing school term end... I miss ya darlings!!

Haven been meeting up with esther n sylvia since after my bday oso... sorry darlings school's killing me and wait till i re-incarnate after my exams den we'll meet up k?

and xuan and elaine too! even my mummy is asking how come i haven been meeting you gals! lolx.... ok... i admit i m too lazie... and i guess u all r real bz too lah... we'll all jiayou n i promise i will go haunt u all after my exams k?! Wahahahahaha...

please don't remind me how i should be mugging rite now... cos i've been watching a WHOLE long list of shows le... ( i think this happens every exam period... i'm REALLY trying to cut down le... i wish~) well... i wish i've got more time... and more episodes to watch~

To all muggers out there (including myself)~ jiayou orh!

The meaning of life is to give life meaning

那时候的我，太天真了。
我以为，喜欢就好，
却没有去想，我要得到底是什么。
也许到了今天，我还是不知道。
将来，对我来所就好像一个迷。
现在，我却已经在这个迷里迷路了。
找不到存在的理由，但却庆幸我存在着。
也许我还不够成熟吧，
挥霍生命，是我太浪费了。

The meaning of life is to give life meaning.

sch's starting!

Wah! Long time no blog! I hope someone’s missing me! Hee hee… I’m typing this on the bus home actually… I hope I dun miss my stop! =P haha…

School’s starting! Finally! I’m really missing school! I miss the lectures and tutorials with my khakis peishi, ning. yuxia! *muacks!* now I can finally go back to school to stick to you all! Dun run away!!! Hahaz… speaking of this… that lucky gal peishi is off to visit the city of my dreams! Taipei! Horrible gal! u din wait for me!!!*sniff sniff* remember my tai yang bing ok? Hee hee… like that den I will consider forgiving you for abandoning me for the first wk of school! Hahaz.

Hmmx… final year in NTU… a lot of scary things ahead of me, including, the most renowned HRM module, the seemingly friendly FYP… I’m really dreading HRM and I’m having absolutely no clue abt the latter… I know that IS bad… haiz… watching some of the nellers graduating is pretty heartwarming.. next year it will be my turn! Prepare flowers everyone! I want flowers! Hahaz... but I really wonder what will I be doing after grad. I have no idea myself… perhaps I am afraid to ask myself the question.. but I know I’m running out of time… argh… I hate to think!!!

All I’m sure about right now is that I want to go touring!!! Taiwan Taiwan Taiwan! I guess everyone who grows up with the long string of tw dramas would love to go visit the place… I even dream abt going there to stay for some time… but knowing my circumstances and financial status, I dun really believe that this will work… haiz.. if only life is a dream… but somehow other things seem to keep pulling me back… How many dreams do come true?

hmmph... shall go enter the world of harry potter instead... ciaoz!

放不下

想著你的溫柔 想著你的模樣 我放不下
都說過了再見 我們各自飛翔 各自長大
抱緊愛會掙扎 放開愛會心慌 神也很忙
到底要實現哪個願望
離開你 那麼傻 可以後侮嗎

太空闲的时候，就会想起许多事。
许多的回忆，就算想忘记，也无法从记忆里赶走。
也许这就是所谓的长大吧。。。

期待永远不会发生的事情~~
我真的累了。
给自己的期限，就快到了。
我真的放得下吗？
放弃期待。。。
有点舍不得。

lalalalalalala

lalalalalalalalala.....
haven blogged for SOOOOOO long! hahaz...

I.A. is over and the semesterly "fastest finger first" game at NTU has ended. I managed to get all the lessons i planned! but of cos not everyone is that lucky... hee hee... oh yes! sth even MORE lucky!!! I got 4 NDP (actual show) tix!!!! thru the eballoting! and to think i only registered on the LAST day LAST hour~ hee hee... aint I lucky? HEE HEE!

ouch my arm is aching~ I just got back home from work, badminton, dinner~ woo so eventful day... but i m dead beat... hahaz... but had alot of fun, especially since I haven't played badminton for sooooo long! I miss the VJ days when me yiing and joyce were in the badminton club! hee hee... at least i could play every sat~ then i was really freee! now weekends are so precious! haha...

I m so jealous of everyone who has gone far far away!!! I can't wait for MY grad trip! Taiwan Taiwan here i come! (one yr more!) and joyce~~~~ i'll miss ya badly! study hard and think of us ok!? *muacks*

haiz... I am feeling old~~~
can i be forever 16?

自私！

对不起，我的朋友。

计划好的明天，竟然没了。
我以为可以跟大家一起过久违的时光，
但结果却好像并不是那样。
原来大家的生活步调都不一样了。
当我察觉到这点后，心里的不愉快让我忘了，
原来今天的计划也是我们为了彼此而特别安排的。

是我太自私了，让一时的冲动破坏了我们努力安排的今天。
对不起我的朋友们。

有人对我说过，友情是需要努力的经营的。
也许，是我不够努力吧。。。

lazie gal

woo hoo... drop a quick post b4 i leave to meet sylvia darling...
wad? u mean i haven bin blogging for so long?! i din realise it actually... hahaz. but bin reading ppl's blog... hee hee...

ok! i have a room of my own now! hahaha... guess tt's y bin so lazie oops.. i mean busy to blog... jus moved in last nite n woo hoo! it's so cold even without the aircon! i guess i'm pretty lucky it's been raining alot lately... else i think i can't get to sleep...

gonna be on leave again on monday! plans: play on sat, havoc the whole of sunday nite den monday go cycling or sth liddat! hee hee.... jus took leave the last monday... so i think work's not tt bad actually... but it's time to start looking for a vacation job! else liddat wont have $ for alot of things~~ haha...

i'm missing school... or perhaps i m jus sianz of work... but no work = no $... so, i've gotta come to terms with it... have been spending n spending n spending... especially with the room n furniture... *poor* *sobs*

i'm actually still in the office... cant believe it... better off the comp n go~~~

>>>> hungry <<<<

10 weird things abt myself...

Saw Joycelyn's post and decided to continue the tagging game... i guess i'm pretty sianz at work doing some pretty brainless stuff... (oops...) so well... here's the game...

Rule of the game: each player of this game starts off with 10 weird things or habits or little known facts about yourself. People who get tagged must write in a blog of their own 10 weird things or habits or little known facts as well as state this rule clearly. At the end you must choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names. No tagbacks!

1. I enter a world of my own whenever I start to watch any drama... and somehow I love to chiong everything at one go... so I can skip meals, skip bathing, skip sleep and even... skip mugging!! Haha... i started watching wei xiao pasta 2days b4 my first paper last sem and tada! i finished it right b4 leaving for the paper!! *applause*

2. But sometimes... or almost always... i enter a down period right after enjoying a drama... I wonder to myself... how is it that such things only happen in dramas and not in real life... I would tell myself it's all fake and they won't happen... and even if they do happen, it wont be me... so I really don't know whether I love shows or I hate them...

3. I've always been living in the same room as my parents! since young! I guess that's why I never grow up... but well... good news! I'm growing up! (eh... sounds dumb...) haha... i mean i'm going to move into a room of my own! =) but the room is too small for my liking... but i dun have a choice so i shall say i love my room! haha... still in the process of creating my room... so far i have a bed, a table, a small bookself... n NO MORE SPACE! haiz...

4. I love singing! Hmmx... mainly KTV i guess... but i dun go for alot of ktv...(no money) i "sing" all the time! - on the bus, at work, bathroom, blah blah blah... but *silent*... so i think i can do great lip-syncing! haha...

5. sometimes I *disappear* at parties / when there's alot of ppl... sometimes I go *quiet* and *sianz* and *moody* all of a sudden.. and i oso dunno why... sometimes i jus don't feel like talking.. sometimes i jus tot it best to be alone... even if i don't want to be... weird enough? *scratches head*

6. I dunno what I want to do... I doubt I can be a good engineer... I don't know what I can be good at... I just want to earn $... hee... I want to be tai-tai! but somehow until now... I haven found my "golden tortise"... haiz... I don't even know what I am interested in...

7. I would love to learn to play the piano, guitar, drums.... (the list goes on...) but somehow I'm too lazy to really learn... I bought myself a keyboard a few years ago! but till now it's as good as new... still rotting ard somewhere behind the cupboards... *shakes head* I REALLY want to learn!!!

8. I almost totally only listen to chinese songs... the only korean and jap songs are from some drama's OSTs... and english songs... they are not a hit with me... I have no idea why... I know there are plenty of nice english songs... but... they don't make it into my favourites list... *scratches head again* I don't understand myself sometimes...

9. I am totally freaked out by even the smallest creatures... yah i hate the sight of insects and animals... especially flying insects... I don't dare to get too close to them... far far away, no problem... i can still keep my cool... but u'll see that I start to walk CAUTIOUSLY and watch my steps CAREFULLY... while my eyes stare hard at the creature to make sure they dun come near... keep cool~~~~ (but i m not tt cool with xiao qiangs....)

10. I am constantly feeling poor!!! Even when I am working! somehow money's never enough! ok shall reveal my greatest wish ever!!! (only my dear sis knows abt this!!) My greatest wish is... to go shopping without worries... see sth i like, i can jus buy without freaking and calculating the price and "if i buy this, blah blah blah..." =)

yay! finally! wad a LONG post! so i AM weird afterall.. haha...
Next up: tag 6 lucky ppl... Hui, Peishi, Ning, Angeline, Elaine and Xuan!
(hope these ppl actually reads this!! hahaz...)

it's time to find excitement in my life

hmmx... haven't been blogging for so long... hahaz... lazie lah...

Nth much to update.. mine's a boring life... serious budget deficits this month... i have no idea how come oso... haha... but no worries, pay is due today!!! =P though i think this month will be hard to tide through too.. too many things to buy... i've decided it's time to get my own territory in the house, so well.. it's a SMALL piece of land (oops i mean a small room)... so i'm trying hard to figure out how and what to put into the room. A territory of my own will hopefully give me more space, time and privacy... Gotta fork out some cash for some necessary furniture too... but worth it i guess...

met my ia tutor finally... he's hmm... okay lah... he seems to be super interested in the two guys though... nv as much as looked at me during the meeting. and ended up my godfather (my mentor actually) graded me!!! *freaky* i think he thinks that i am real stupid... (havent been able to answer any of his questions!) haiz... i rather my supervisor (who always ask me about KTV and perhaps knows nth of wat i have been doing) grade me, cos at least he dunno that i dunno so much things and he seems a nice man.. hahaz. godfather is nice too... very kind to me.. but i bet he thinks i m dumb...

I.A. has made me miss school... i miss the lectures n tutorials with peishi, yuxia, ning and chunchi... i miss staying in hall with my roomie.. i hope we get to stay roomies next year too... but... i wont blame ya if it din happen that way k, roomie? cos u dun have much choice too... *muacks*

it's time to find excitement in my life... i dun want my life to become a boring movie! (navy ad!)

meeting at 2pm! ciaoz!

恶作剧

一个可笑的恶作剧，让我发现自己心里真正的想法。
应该认真去面对？ 应该给自己多一次机会吗？
我害怕再次伤心难过， 我害怕重蹈覆辙。
我只是想找个答案。。。

yuan xiao jie!

Happy yuan xiao jie!!!

wahahahahaha... haven blogged for a long time... to say the truth there's no real feeling of "yuan xiao" at all... none of the loud celebrations and good food etc... but it's a nice day to be at home chiong-ing show! wahahaha... *winks*

C.O.'s concert was wonderful! was so sad all my frenx cant cum, but luckily there's darling peishi n yuxia! *muacks* love u all! it would be great to have all my friends and family come support me... I love performing, and I love it more when my loved ones are there to watch me... so I've decided! you are all to come for my last concert with ntuco next year! I'm gonna force my whole family to come too! hee hee...

It was really tiring but it's all worth it! With every concert, I have come to realise new things every year. maybe it's jus that i am getting too old.. *haiz* but this is all so true...

was watching the korean show "bad family"... it's amazing how the characters found sincere love for the other family members even when theirs was in actual fact a "fake family". Even true families do not have the capabilities to forget their individual differences and shortcomings. Even true families do not forgive mistakes. Even true families may not be "complete". I hope for a true family, a "complete" family...

CNY

Happy CNY!

dada! happie CNY! have bin telling myself i ought to blog since quite some time ago... but somehow... hee... so well... i'm going to tell story~ hahaz....

CNY was fun with nellers and assocs! =) went to wenyi's, haoyi's and ning's hse and ate the whole day! and surprisingly i was game enough to go watch midnight show (norbit) and den go to hall with yiing n angeline n haoyi! poor haoyi gotta go to lab in the morning while the three ladies (the three little piggies) slept till lunchtime and stayed in bed awhile longer playing blackjack and angeline was dancing cha cha with the green snake! lolz... C.O. ended pretty late and heng got mao to drive us back but in the end i still end up sleeping till 9am today... (oops i start work at 830am fyi)

oh yesh! happie Vday (abit belated le...) but i was too lazie to blog then so i m blogging now. haha.. i donated blood for the first time in my life on vday! *so noble* hahaz... donating blood is meaningful, but yah... bit pain (for maybe abt 5min) but worth it... though it felt funny having all the nurses telling me to lie down longer (they wont let me go) cos they say i was very pale... so i had another 15min zzz-ing! hee hee... =) wellz... hope everyone had a great Vday! (the rest of my vday was.... sianz...)

okok... happie CNY again for all! hope u have a great year ahead and lotsa hong baoz!

sianz

SUNDAY~

it's SUNDAY afternoon! and guess what i am doing? mapling... hahaz... bit sianz hor? but ok lahz... maple is cute n ok to play to spend time...

hmmz yest went qi's bday party! he's finally 21!! hahaz.. act like an adult ok!? i owis feel he's very "xiao di di"... haha... hmmx stupid yuhui greeted me with "stupid sheya" the first thing i see him! *idiots* and the most stupid thing is i proved myself to be so dumb... was trying to scare angeline from behind when i bu xiao xin slipped and fell... (cos the slope was sandy and my shoes can slip very well.. haiz) and now my ankle hurts... hahaz... can walk.. but dun think can run n jump yet... hahaz... *ouch* dumb sheya... 恶人有恶报！haha...

we spent the nite having supper at chomp chomp! nan de my roomie was onz! hahaz.... long time since we had a neller's supper! chomps best! =) den got home pretty late n tired... i miss the days we can go out for supper or go out chiong or ktv until late hours den jus go back to hall... hee... staying at home makes me wan to act guai in front of my parents... they dun like the idea of mi drinking or staying out late at nite... guess all parents are like that... hahaz...

Friday went out for team lunch with my colleagues and fellow IA students... n guess what? we ended up at the same table as the big bosses and my sup... (cos no one wants to sit with us.... haha... haiz... poor us... we dun really fit in anywhere...) and well... i think i was going crazy repeating my answers to the same few questions... so how's work? where do you stay? do you stay in hostel? y did u choose enginneering? blah blah blah... was very tempted to sing there... (got ktv!) but i aint very keen to sing for entertainment while everyone i dunno eats... and very paiseh oso cos noone except my sup sang... hahaz... well... all i can say is... that lunch was so *stressful* haha... but the food is REALLY good... i heard each person abt 50+... freaky~ we had about 40 ppl there... so well.. do your maths! =P

shall go for CO tomorrow... die i think i nid alot of practice! it's less than a month to the concert! *faintz* and i haven start selling tix! work work work~ busy busy busy~

<<花样少年少女>>:
"Travel helps people relax and open up 這就是最好表白的時候... "
...................................骗人的.................................................

knock off!

as i predicted, i m REALLY very zuo bo today~ i m now... em... preparing (?) to go home... jus too paiseh to leave when everyone around me is still so busy~ hahaz...

i guess i shall fill my day up tml by reading up other ppl's blogs! (hmm... discretely of cos...) wahahahahahaha....

The meaning of life is to give life meaning.

work!

wohoo! hie! the lazie pig is finally blogging again... haha...

pretty zuo bo at work (even more zuo bo den usual), cos most of the engineers are really busy these few days... i expect to be more zuo bo tomorrow and maybe beginning of next week.. *haiz*

went for C.O. (finally!) but that was last week... this week? hmm... rao le wo ba! the travelling is really tiring... will go again next week for sectionals instead... hee... my roomie has a new roomie! so that means i have no where to stay when i go C.O. *haiz* more travelling...

anw, gotta do "paper work"... *sigh* ciaoz!

I.A.-ing

woo hoo! it's been A YEAR since i blogged! (wahahaha)

ok... merely 2 weeks into I.A. and I am slacking really big time.. it explains why i am here blogging... stupid yiing kip niaoing mi to go CO and to update my blog... lalalalalala... ok i decided to go C.O. finally (zzzzz) perhaps nex wk... awww... i hate the travelling.. still debating to stay in hall or go home late at nite after C.O.

C.O. - been mia for so long i almost forgot i ever existed in it... oops.. jus kidding lahz... i miss CO alrite.. miss yiing too, n miss peishi oso... miss haoyi SL, miss nellers and associates... okok.. tt's y i m cuming... zzzzz (i hate to travel!)

I.A. - hmm... i m learning alot, but i m really tired also... everyday oso wanna zzzz when i reach home... weirds.. i m becoming like a pig... jus longing for more sleep everyday... hahaz... i jus wan my school fees back... (i pay the school, the school pays the company, the company pays me...)(still my money in the end...)

ok... I.A. time dun slack so obvious... (oh i finished reading harry potter and the half-blood prince ebk while at work! hee...)

ciaoz!