那些年，我们一起追的女孩

大家都在谈的电影。有些人说，这部电影感动人心。也有些人说，这并没有想象的那么棒。

我觉得电影虽然不是迂回曲折或感人肺腑，但它却简单，真实地诉说了一群人的故事。也许因为这个故事是那么地平凡，所以才能打动那么多人的心吧。

这平凡的故事，勾起了埋在心里的好多回忆。那个时候的我们，心里想的事应该都不一样吧。那个时候的我们选择不说出，不面对，就让时间帮我们忘记。时间过了，但伤痕却留着。回不去了，只有遗憾留着。

有些事，错过了对的时机，就回不去了。就像有些人，不能成为情人，却可能成为最好的朋友。

女主角的一句话让我印象深刻 ： “人生本来就有很多事是徒劳无功的。”
也许，很多事最重要的不是结果而是过程。
也许，所有的“曾经”都是为了让你更珍惜你的“未来"。这么想，会不会比较快乐呢？

电影的结局不是 happy ending。但现实中，又有多少 happy ending 呢？
想想，我拥有什么， 渴望什么， 又失去过什么。

这，就是现实。

The story behind the piece of paper…

Here's the story behind that piece of paper that caused yaya so much $$ and headache... Yaya once thought she should just give up trying...

If you have not heard the disaster with Car 206 in yaya’s first attempt, click here. Basically, yaya was so gan jiong that she couldn’t pull the handbrake while on the slope, striked kerb (x3) during parallel parking and directional change, and mounted kerb at vertical parking. Halleluyah…

The night before the second attempt, yaya had the 闲情逸致 to drink 花茶. Ended up yaya stayed awake for the whole night, woke up late on the 2^nd morning, took bus 81 (saw it as 51), only realized her mistake after the bus went on the expressway, hurriedly alighted, hopped on a taxi and arrived late for warm-up. During the test, yaya started the car, stepped on BRAKE (instead of accelerator) and wondered why the car didn’t move (= delay in moving off, 2 points). Yaya mounted kerb again while turning in the narrow road to do parallel parking. Sianz… Whatever happened after that was due to the “die liao heck care” attitude.

Yaya didn’t manage to book an earlier test (this one is 5 months after no. 2) because she happily went to Niagara Falls & NYC! Anyway, the third attempt was at a 430pm slot (warning! BUS LANE hours) cos yaya was pek chek when everytime she went to the CDC counter there’s only 830am or 430pm slots left! Although Yaya had LOTS of sleep the previous night after what happened in no. 2 and an almost perfect warm-up, she cui-ed during vertical parking cos the car refused to get into the lot and yaya’s correction c.m.i. Yaya politely asked to re-try the vertical parking and this time round it went in straight in one attempt! (Yay!) And the tester said “Sorry, you’ve exceeded the time limit.” (dotzzz.. WHY is that an immediate failure!?!) And even though Yaya had failed already, the tester brought her out and went a HUGE round outside. And cos the traffic conditions were so horrible at 5pm, yaya could not change lane and somemore kana horn-ed at by some cruel idiot. *sigh*

Luckily Yaya took the lesson from no. 3 and booked a test slot at the optimum time of 155pm this time round. But the storm came before she left the house for warm-up. So yaya mournfully walked out and decided to take a taxi (in case she is late cos of the rain). In the end the taxi took her a huge round (went all way to potong pasir and up expressway before going to paya lebar) and made her so freaked out she’s going to be late even after taking taxi! Luckily, she arrived on time. Guess what? It’s our old friend 206 again! This time round, 206 gave yaya a roll backwards on the slope (cos yaya didn’t make very good relations with the handbrake again) and the engine stalled when yaya was going to turn back into the driving centre! yaya’s legs must have turned jelly after such a “safe” test!

Ta-da!!! Yaya Finally PASSED! (with 2 demerit points only – for that rollback!)

Phew… Come to think of it… Yaya feels like a good driver… Just that she gets gan jiong once the tester is around. Testers should be more friendly, right?! WHY make yaya so scared of them every test? The tester who passed yaya gave her the results slip and shooed her away without talking to her! While yaya was totally freaking out (what if the tester gave me many many small small points) cos the tester DIDN’T say a word! Heng... no need for any more driving tests le... Hurray!

迷失

人生，不可能永远一帆风顺。
我懂，但也往往会为了生命中的不如意感到气馁。

挫折、迷惘、失望、渴望，失去、后悔。。。
我累了。我已迷失了方向，不知该往哪走。

有时候，我好想变成一个自私的人。

有些事，是永远无法选择的。
有些洞，是永远无法填满的。
有些梦，是永远无法实现的，
有些错，是永远无法学乖的。
有些伤，是永远无法痊愈的。

The sweetest smile

yaya bought a new toy - the C peel from someone on hwz.

Just about 25 hours after the collection, the seller smsed:
"By the way, you have the sweetest smile last night, i hope you don't mind if i tell you so, can't take it off my mind, sorry..."

OMG?! It was a mere 5 minute encounter! Creeps...

Luckily he is not the persistent type =P

I'm having fun with my toy otherwise. *winks*

PS: Beer + Champagne is a potent combination. Best not to try again.

Feelings from the past...

或许是迟来的感慨，但心里还是放不下。

点点滴滴的回忆，不断地在我脑海里浮现。
快乐与悲伤仍记忆犹新。

时间，改变了一切。
但过去的感受与现在的心情交错着，让我傻傻分不清。

我心里的阴暗，也许才是最真实的。
就算一时忘了，那也不过是短暂的。

我到底在想什么？ 我想我快要疯了。

it's so complicated....

I didn't meant to make any decisions so complicated, but sometimes it just becomes so.
I wish all questions are just yes and no. Answer it, and move on.
But somehow I find myself playing the "roti-prata" game (a phrase learnt from Vince when he referred to yj as the "roti-prata girl") - changing my mind every other day.
Why am I making my life so difficult?

When I was young, my dream was to "be able to just walk into a shop and buy what I like, without worrying where the money come from". Now I have the ability to do that, but I start to think "Can I afford to pay the bill next month?" or "Is this the best way to spend my money?" or "Should I buy A or B or C or D? Or wait till E comes?"

We are confronted with choices every day. Do they put you in a dilemma?
Sianz. I don't even know what I want to do with my life.

说不出的软弱

沉浸在美丽的童话梦境
无法逃出最真实的曾经

不想期待却又抵挡不住
渴望坚强却仍软弱无助

现实里只存在无比空虚
梦境里就算虚无但丰富

未来没有虚幻也无曾经
现实与梦境经已分不清