Me, EsThEr and SyLvIa!!!!

EstHer INSISTS i put this up and write: We Are The S.H.E. of S'pore! hahaz... sweet foto... taken in front of the mirror! (in the toilet...)

Hey! think we can cut an ALBUM?! cos estha can sing real low... n mi.. erhem.. i screech... good combi rite?! 

Ktv, nydc, PooL

yo! jus back in hall... terribly late for lecture (1030) and well.. tired... yesterday met esther n sylvia and we had Ktv, followed by dinner at nydc! and then another session of pool!!! hahaz.. tt means i m real broke... spent too much yesterday... but i really so long neva c them le! :) some super exposed pictures... (Esther loves them like tt... covers flaws.. haha) oops cant post them now.. my HeLLO is nt responding to my "hello!" hahaz.. ok.. post ltr ba... gotta rush~~

SoRrY DadDy!

Yo HO!

i have a new head today!!! hahaz... i mean i got a new hair... COLOUR... hahaaz (wad were u thinking of?!) hahaz.. daddy is nt v happie (i think.. he's nt back hm tonite...) well... daddy said no red... but well.. i have got a red streak. em.. plus a green streak! but my purple cannot c de! sobz...

well... okok... i luv my hair! i feels really nice! like so colourful! ahhhhhh... hahaz.. but really tired... we (ning yiing mi) waited for like 3plus hrs before its our turn... then all the cutting, colouring, highliting etc din end till 8pm.. SO HUNGRY! was there since almost 11am lor! never do hair for so SO SO long before... ouch... ache! guess wont do hair again in the near future... too terrible. hahaz

tmr out w sylvia & Esther! (Finally!) i miss them SO much!!! :) ahhh! so happie! n then there's hexis nex fri, outing w brainies on sat (where n when huh?!), STEAMBOAT @ NTU wif yy n gang... ahhhhh! can't wait! :) i love my hair! but dun think daddy will... :( my sis say i look like a pai kia! i think i look like an ah lian... but i think it's really cool leh! :) i luv yy's hairstyle! n sining's color! ahhhhhhhh!!!!! yay!!!!!!!

熱いです

wa... so HOT! m in hall now... earlier was at sch, in all black (awww...) cos of the CO lunchtime concert... oh.. was such a disaster... first was i got no chair... they only put one chair for ruan! then haoyi went over play the cymbals (qiang qiang qiang) den left mi alone for the last song... which was really rather lousy too... haiz... if only they put another chair at least kaiyu can play oso... then wont b so soft... but well... it was so terrible!!!! ahhhhhhhh... sob sob... lyk tt how to hav concert in feb?!

well.. ltr got yoga (ouch..) n tonite got subcom meeting!! oh no! wad's it this time!? more work!? ahhhhhhh!!! dun wan!!!!

i better catch some zzzz... tok another day ba!
ps: watashiwa チンん シヤ desu!

yawnz!

yo ho! in the library now, alone... wenyi n sining off to some benches outside ny audi.. ok.. nt being antisocial but was really sleepie n i wanted aircon! so off i cum to LWN library.. glued to the LCD.. wow i miss the traditional keyboard.. i like the music of the typing.. the feeling that the keys spring back up to u after u give them a press.. hahaz sounds crazy.. but i dun really love my lappie keyboard, and the screen is so teeny... hahaz... okok.. m reading other ppl's blog... hee so decided it's time to update mine oso. haha

okok... still lagging behind in tutorials (as usual.. who don't?) and STILL missing my darling brainies! yay! we r finally going out the weekend before cny! :) cant wait! i miss u all lots, darlings! the feeling is really different.. we r all now in different schools and pursuing different interests, no longer together, no longer in the same harmonica band, no longer waiting for each other in the gloomy n dark VJ canteen, no longer waiting at the bus stop early in the morning to get on 55 together.. no longer complaining abt how sucky life is, no longer gathering at the bimbos' bench after school... I MISS YOU LOTZ!
miss janey's dumb dumb jokes (even if she dun mean to crack them...) miss clare's "i love bak-kua" miss joyce's "on-dray-ya" and i miss the me i used to be ard u gals!!!! ahhhhhhhhh!!!! muackz! ~~~lots of kisses~~

aiyo.. so long post.. yah.. u noe wad i wanna say la.. jus miss u ppl lots!
ok... oh! n i m gg for the SNCO alumni this sat.. ( i think) heard tt it's in a pathetic state... haiz... maybe will go get a haircut too... em... c how ba... but well.. that means another sat gone.. sobz.. i luv weekends.. but i spend most of my weekends rotting at home now... lazing in bed n sleeping late, taking afternoon naps / unplanned bored-to-slp naps... anyway... i better go do tut... argh... i dun like to b a chao mugger!!! ahhhhhhhhhh

MuaCkZ~

Hey GaLz!

thanks for being there for mi! thanks for all the encouragement n words of enlightenment... (iz it this word) well.. u noe wad i mean... i m ok now... happie as owis! =) muack!~ luv all u lotz~

guess it was the interhall cheerleading contest tt made my mood better! HaLL 6 WON! both cheerleading champion and mascot champion! yay! but became rather em.. "soft spoken" fro 2 -3 days after tt... hahaz.. i cheered for the cheerleaders... aint i WONDERFUL? okok... it was nice watching the cheerleading but rather tiring.. y r there 15 halls in NTU?! omigawa... but there were some displays of the ST. NICKS cheerleading style.... i still prefer the st nicks way.. less stunts n more dance... how i miss the St. Nick days... i luv watching the red blue GREEN yellow hse cheerleaders... wooowwww... n i miss the VJ days too! rmb darling Clare in that nice black n silver cheerleading costume?! SOOOO sEXy..... hahaz.. any more cheerleading on, babe?!

hahaz... okok... so well.. i m REALLY ok now.. figured out tt as long as i dun think abt it.. there's nothing to worry... so well.. thanks for all the LOVE of my darlings... i m ok liao! hapie n loving u as owis...

MUACKZ!!!!!!

Emptiness

it's rather wierd for mi to post twice a day... but well.. i m jus feeling like it... cos i m feeling so terrible... i jus hate myself sometimes... n this is one of the times....

sometimes i feel so empty... i feel like i m so imperfect... but i dunno why i keep wanting to make myself more perfect... what's the point?! I KNOW THAT! BUT WHY?! why i keep thinking of ways to make my life better when it is already good enuff?!

there r jus so many things i want in my life but i dun hav. there's no need to fan abt y i dun have wad others have... there's no nid to want to do better than others there's no nid to compare, then y m i still doing it?!... i know i m doing it... deep down my heart... i wish to b the best, i wish to have the most, i wish to b the most important person, i wish to b the centre of everyone's life... Y?! y m i like tt?!

i hate myself... it feels so empty, so empty... m i leading a life at all?!
what m i?! forever unhappy, unsatisfied, greedy n selfish?!

Moi FirSt TuToRiALz

yo ho! today had first tut in the sem... omigawa! computing lab was well.. decent but on the boring side... m now in hall... after a devastating PHYSICS 2 tutorial in Tr26...

FIRST the tutor is super boring... n his transparancy only got diagram, no working... he copys out fr his solutions onto the whiteboard... but he only giv u 1st step, den the answer.. (like got use?)

THEN someone asked him how to draw the ray diagram for the magnifying lens... n GUESS WAD? he say he FORGOT how to draw le... O NO!

so the tutorial went on w the class copying his transparency diagrams n the few lines on the whiteboard... my goodiness! he cannot make it la.. even his transparency the diagram the angle oso marked wrongly (oh... he was trying to test if anyone can spot the mistake! --yah rite! )

anw, i pray for a better Maths 2 tutor.. (this fri)...
n i hardly noe anyone fr my class... SiGh~~~
got sectionals for C.O. at 7pm tonite... cui... my week-nites go like this:

Mon - C.O. (till 11pm) + give out milk bread aft tt...
Tues - water duty @ NIE for vball ihg (till 9+PM)
Wed - C.O. sectionals 7pm - ???
Thurs - Badminton! n watching ih cheerleading competition at 630pm - ???
Fri - NUS trip! (led by ElAine n accompanied by XuAn)

argh.. i cant wait for Sat n sUn!

Yo Ho!! School AgAin!

Hi all!!!! yay!! finally reached the end of the week!

first wk of sch aint tt nice.. hao bu rong yi finally survived the first wk.. all lectures now, tutorials nex wk start... (OH NO!!!!) haiz... i hate morning lectures esp the 830 ones... jus cant wake up... today oso... hahaz my roomy oso getting notti she oso cannot wake up... lucky got ning to sms us to wake us up... hoho n yuppie!! i sold my effective comm bk! finally (i hate tt subj!) but failed to buy a second hand computing bk... so i bought a new bk instead... actually the bk not say v ex.. $9.50 fr PoPuLar... but then... if 2nd hand most prob only hav to pay like $5... but well... new bk means can highlight n draw wadever i wan!!! hahaz okok.... i m going siaoz... but well... my timetable sucks esp fri... i have like 5hr break b4 my lect at 330... (nex wk onwards is 4hr break, but STILL...) so now m in hall w roomy slacking n online hahaz... leaving in half hr or so i guess... then can go home!! finally!!!

THANKS for all ya compliments on my blog! *blush*
a lot of work has bin put into this bloggie, FYI, jus go to www.blogskins.com n choose a blog skin then u go paste everything into your template window, den u go n edit the stuff, like add links, add music etc... blah blah.. sounds easy but took mi damn long really.. hahaz sorry some ppl think the music bit irritating but it's so long n i oso cant really shorten it... but i changed it such tt it wont loop!!! *smilez*

oh! n mi n my roomy has a NEW 2005 resolution... slp early n wake early... out target is 1230am everynite... but so far.... well it's a +/- 2hr.. we'll work on it... jia you!!!

School StArts!

yo ho! chui... first day of sch only... now so damn late le... 2:42am le... still printing... cos the comp so slow... my adobe takes forever to prepare the 125 slides for printing... haiz... hang so many times!!! faint...

anyway... today was tiring... supposed to wake up at 8am to go breakfast w roomy... but in the end... din wake up... as usual... n then roomy oso neva wake mi up.. so i open my eyes at 9am.. den cant find my roomy ard... hoho she left le.. haiz

today had chemistry, maths 2 (w bei bei), understanding chin cinemas, n psychology... we watched ruan ling yu's black n white film THE GODDESS (mute too...) n this course seems not bad.. interesting... hahaz

psychology was... well... bit sianz no lect notes as usual.. faint... n the tut 1 seems intimidating.. anw, better slp now.. wan an!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!

hey all!

Happy 2005!!! thanks for all that my frenz hav done for mi in 2004... now tt i look back at it so much hav happened the past yr! ;) thanks to all my frenz for being there with mi...

thanks to my NTU frenz ning, yiing, angeline n most of all my roomy wenyi! muack! luv ya lots~
thanks to my darling brainies.... claris jane joycelyn! muack! miss ya lotz!
thanks to my hall mates... esp close neighbours, danqi aka yellow, junlin aka mysterious, xinen!, lynnie aka MIA.
thanks to cycling mates... elaine n xuan!
thanks to my bestest frenz... sylvia esther
thanks to my LAOPO! --- joanne (muack!)
thanks to all who hav helped mi during my working days, esp Jamie fr TS, Jane, constance, za, Jeffrey, Aaron, Anthea, Hwee Ping, Pei Pei, Polly, Roslan fr PSPL Ops team! although we hav lost contact but you ppl hav bin great! -muackz- (paiseh.. lost my hp le i oso dunno how to contact u all anymore)

Thanks to my mummy daddy for owis being there for mi, n thanks to my dearest sis for always tolerating mi when i m on the irritating-my-sister-cos-i-m-sianz moods... hahaz

MUACKZ!