feeling lost...

yaya can't help it but feel really empty at times...
I've lost motivation, and never had any direction.

I know life's unfair, and I'd accept it, cos I can't change how others' lives work out. I want to change mine, but I never got down to it and it didn't go the way I wanted it to.

Life goes on, whether someone enters your life or leaves from yours. I knew it all along, but I'm afraid to see it happening again, though it has happened again and again.

Knowing what I don't want to do but not knowing what I want to do is getting me nowhere. I don't know how to continue and I'm waiting for some heavenly intervention which may or may not happen.

I've lost patience and I'm starting to believe somethings will never happen. I'm getting scared... of things I cannot see or feel.

Life's never fair.

24 days more~~~

yaya is counting down to the day I leave for Taiwan!
'cos there's nothing else to look forward to. (minus the goodies from online shopping I'm waiting for...)
I'm yearning for a day or two off work... and I'm so tempted to take leave! *argh*

YJ says my mood for the day ranges from "tired" to "very tired" to "super tired". I think it can summarized in just one word : "exhausted".

rumblings...

This place is becoming largely dead... As with its owner... haha~

Not the latest I've discovered about myself... But I now know how lazy I can be.
Many weekends have passed (I gave up counting) since I told myself I should start to exercise.
My clothes are lying everywhere but in the wardrobe, and it's a challenge to find something to wear every day before I leave the house.
My Jap is growing rusty, though I did try to revise sometime 3 weeks ago (forgot most by now).
I'm really interested to learn (a) driving, (b) keyboard, (c) guitar. Maybe after I'm back from Taiwan.
The Taiwan trip is one month away, and the itinerary is still "in progress" of becoming complete. Argh...

Work's piling as if I've been on leave forever. Everyday I learn to do "magic" - I'm supposed to produce something that should have been done some 12 months ago. I really wish I'm on leave forever and ever. Mondays are the dreadest ever... The last Monday I survived... I was in office till 11pm with no dinner, no aircon in office, lack of sleep and lots of leftover work for Tues and probably the rest of the week. *sigh* Fridays have lost their charm, and Paydays are now no longer marked in my biological calendars. Sunday Nights come with servere disappointment and withdrawal symptons - I tend to refuse to sleep until well past midnight. Oops... Just realised that's what I'm doing right now.

Still recovering from the lack of sleep last night. Luckily tonight YJ pei wo go watch movie ("Date Night" is pretty funny... good for a relaxing Tuesday night out!). At least I had something to look forward to on a tired Tuesday~ haha.

What I learnt today? The world is small...