自私！

对不起，我的朋友。

计划好的明天，竟然没了。
我以为可以跟大家一起过久违的时光，
但结果却好像并不是那样。
原来大家的生活步调都不一样了。
当我察觉到这点后，心里的不愉快让我忘了，
原来今天的计划也是我们为了彼此而特别安排的。

是我太自私了，让一时的冲动破坏了我们努力安排的今天。
对不起我的朋友们。

有人对我说过，友情是需要努力的经营的。
也许，是我不够努力吧。。。

lazie gal

woo hoo... drop a quick post b4 i leave to meet sylvia darling...
wad? u mean i haven bin blogging for so long?! i din realise it actually... hahaz. but bin reading ppl's blog... hee hee...

ok! i have a room of my own now! hahaha... guess tt's y bin so lazie oops.. i mean busy to blog... jus moved in last nite n woo hoo! it's so cold even without the aircon! i guess i'm pretty lucky it's been raining alot lately... else i think i can't get to sleep...

gonna be on leave again on monday! plans: play on sat, havoc the whole of sunday nite den monday go cycling or sth liddat! hee hee.... jus took leave the last monday... so i think work's not tt bad actually... but it's time to start looking for a vacation job! else liddat wont have $ for alot of things~~ haha...

i'm missing school... or perhaps i m jus sianz of work... but no work = no $... so, i've gotta come to terms with it... have been spending n spending n spending... especially with the room n furniture... *poor* *sobs*

i'm actually still in the office... cant believe it... better off the comp n go~~~

>>>> hungry <<<<

10 weird things abt myself...

Saw Joycelyn's post and decided to continue the tagging game... i guess i'm pretty sianz at work doing some pretty brainless stuff... (oops...) so well... here's the game...

Rule of the game: each player of this game starts off with 10 weird things or habits or little known facts about yourself. People who get tagged must write in a blog of their own 10 weird things or habits or little known facts as well as state this rule clearly. At the end you must choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names. No tagbacks!

1. I enter a world of my own whenever I start to watch any drama... and somehow I love to chiong everything at one go... so I can skip meals, skip bathing, skip sleep and even... skip mugging!! Haha... i started watching wei xiao pasta 2days b4 my first paper last sem and tada! i finished it right b4 leaving for the paper!! *applause*

2. But sometimes... or almost always... i enter a down period right after enjoying a drama... I wonder to myself... how is it that such things only happen in dramas and not in real life... I would tell myself it's all fake and they won't happen... and even if they do happen, it wont be me... so I really don't know whether I love shows or I hate them...

3. I've always been living in the same room as my parents! since young! I guess that's why I never grow up... but well... good news! I'm growing up! (eh... sounds dumb...) haha... i mean i'm going to move into a room of my own! =) but the room is too small for my liking... but i dun have a choice so i shall say i love my room! haha... still in the process of creating my room... so far i have a bed, a table, a small bookself... n NO MORE SPACE! haiz...

4. I love singing! Hmmx... mainly KTV i guess... but i dun go for alot of ktv...(no money) i "sing" all the time! - on the bus, at work, bathroom, blah blah blah... but *silent*... so i think i can do great lip-syncing! haha...

5. sometimes I *disappear* at parties / when there's alot of ppl... sometimes I go *quiet* and *sianz* and *moody* all of a sudden.. and i oso dunno why... sometimes i jus don't feel like talking.. sometimes i jus tot it best to be alone... even if i don't want to be... weird enough? *scratches head*

6. I dunno what I want to do... I doubt I can be a good engineer... I don't know what I can be good at... I just want to earn $... hee... I want to be tai-tai! but somehow until now... I haven found my "golden tortise"... haiz... I don't even know what I am interested in...

7. I would love to learn to play the piano, guitar, drums.... (the list goes on...) but somehow I'm too lazy to really learn... I bought myself a keyboard a few years ago! but till now it's as good as new... still rotting ard somewhere behind the cupboards... *shakes head* I REALLY want to learn!!!

8. I almost totally only listen to chinese songs... the only korean and jap songs are from some drama's OSTs... and english songs... they are not a hit with me... I have no idea why... I know there are plenty of nice english songs... but... they don't make it into my favourites list... *scratches head again* I don't understand myself sometimes...

9. I am totally freaked out by even the smallest creatures... yah i hate the sight of insects and animals... especially flying insects... I don't dare to get too close to them... far far away, no problem... i can still keep my cool... but u'll see that I start to walk CAUTIOUSLY and watch my steps CAREFULLY... while my eyes stare hard at the creature to make sure they dun come near... keep cool~~~~ (but i m not tt cool with xiao qiangs....)

10. I am constantly feeling poor!!! Even when I am working! somehow money's never enough! ok shall reveal my greatest wish ever!!! (only my dear sis knows abt this!!) My greatest wish is... to go shopping without worries... see sth i like, i can jus buy without freaking and calculating the price and "if i buy this, blah blah blah..." =)

yay! finally! wad a LONG post! so i AM weird afterall.. haha...
Next up: tag 6 lucky ppl... Hui, Peishi, Ning, Angeline, Elaine and Xuan!
(hope these ppl actually reads this!! hahaz...)

it's time to find excitement in my life

hmmx... haven't been blogging for so long... hahaz... lazie lah...

Nth much to update.. mine's a boring life... serious budget deficits this month... i have no idea how come oso... haha... but no worries, pay is due today!!! =P though i think this month will be hard to tide through too.. too many things to buy... i've decided it's time to get my own territory in the house, so well.. it's a SMALL piece of land (oops i mean a small room)... so i'm trying hard to figure out how and what to put into the room. A territory of my own will hopefully give me more space, time and privacy... Gotta fork out some cash for some necessary furniture too... but worth it i guess...

met my ia tutor finally... he's hmm... okay lah... he seems to be super interested in the two guys though... nv as much as looked at me during the meeting. and ended up my godfather (my mentor actually) graded me!!! *freaky* i think he thinks that i am real stupid... (havent been able to answer any of his questions!) haiz... i rather my supervisor (who always ask me about KTV and perhaps knows nth of wat i have been doing) grade me, cos at least he dunno that i dunno so much things and he seems a nice man.. hahaz. godfather is nice too... very kind to me.. but i bet he thinks i m dumb...

I.A. has made me miss school... i miss the lectures n tutorials with peishi, yuxia, ning and chunchi... i miss staying in hall with my roomie.. i hope we get to stay roomies next year too... but... i wont blame ya if it din happen that way k, roomie? cos u dun have much choice too... *muacks*

it's time to find excitement in my life... i dun want my life to become a boring movie! (navy ad!)

meeting at 2pm! ciaoz!

恶作剧

一个可笑的恶作剧，让我发现自己心里真正的想法。
应该认真去面对？ 应该给自己多一次机会吗？
我害怕再次伤心难过， 我害怕重蹈覆辙。
我只是想找个答案。。。

yuan xiao jie!

Happy yuan xiao jie!!!

wahahahahaha... haven blogged for a long time... to say the truth there's no real feeling of "yuan xiao" at all... none of the loud celebrations and good food etc... but it's a nice day to be at home chiong-ing show! wahahaha... *winks*

C.O.'s concert was wonderful! was so sad all my frenx cant cum, but luckily there's darling peishi n yuxia! *muacks* love u all! it would be great to have all my friends and family come support me... I love performing, and I love it more when my loved ones are there to watch me... so I've decided! you are all to come for my last concert with ntuco next year! I'm gonna force my whole family to come too! hee hee...

It was really tiring but it's all worth it! With every concert, I have come to realise new things every year. maybe it's jus that i am getting too old.. *haiz* but this is all so true...

was watching the korean show "bad family"... it's amazing how the characters found sincere love for the other family members even when theirs was in actual fact a "fake family". Even true families do not have the capabilities to forget their individual differences and shortcomings. Even true families do not forgive mistakes. Even true families may not be "complete". I hope for a true family, a "complete" family...

CNY

Happy CNY!

dada! happie CNY! have bin telling myself i ought to blog since quite some time ago... but somehow... hee... so well... i'm going to tell story~ hahaz....

CNY was fun with nellers and assocs! =) went to wenyi's, haoyi's and ning's hse and ate the whole day! and surprisingly i was game enough to go watch midnight show (norbit) and den go to hall with yiing n angeline n haoyi! poor haoyi gotta go to lab in the morning while the three ladies (the three little piggies) slept till lunchtime and stayed in bed awhile longer playing blackjack and angeline was dancing cha cha with the green snake! lolz... C.O. ended pretty late and heng got mao to drive us back but in the end i still end up sleeping till 9am today... (oops i start work at 830am fyi)

oh yesh! happie Vday (abit belated le...) but i was too lazie to blog then so i m blogging now. haha.. i donated blood for the first time in my life on vday! *so noble* hahaz... donating blood is meaningful, but yah... bit pain (for maybe abt 5min) but worth it... though it felt funny having all the nurses telling me to lie down longer (they wont let me go) cos they say i was very pale... so i had another 15min zzz-ing! hee hee... =) wellz... hope everyone had a great Vday! (the rest of my vday was.... sianz...)

okok... happie CNY again for all! hope u have a great year ahead and lotsa hong baoz!

sianz

SUNDAY~

it's SUNDAY afternoon! and guess what i am doing? mapling... hahaz... bit sianz hor? but ok lahz... maple is cute n ok to play to spend time...

hmmz yest went qi's bday party! he's finally 21!! hahaz.. act like an adult ok!? i owis feel he's very "xiao di di"... haha... hmmx stupid yuhui greeted me with "stupid sheya" the first thing i see him! *idiots* and the most stupid thing is i proved myself to be so dumb... was trying to scare angeline from behind when i bu xiao xin slipped and fell... (cos the slope was sandy and my shoes can slip very well.. haiz) and now my ankle hurts... hahaz... can walk.. but dun think can run n jump yet... hahaz... *ouch* dumb sheya... 恶人有恶报！haha...

we spent the nite having supper at chomp chomp! nan de my roomie was onz! hahaz.... long time since we had a neller's supper! chomps best! =) den got home pretty late n tired... i miss the days we can go out for supper or go out chiong or ktv until late hours den jus go back to hall... hee... staying at home makes me wan to act guai in front of my parents... they dun like the idea of mi drinking or staying out late at nite... guess all parents are like that... hahaz...

Friday went out for team lunch with my colleagues and fellow IA students... n guess what? we ended up at the same table as the big bosses and my sup... (cos no one wants to sit with us.... haha... haiz... poor us... we dun really fit in anywhere...) and well... i think i was going crazy repeating my answers to the same few questions... so how's work? where do you stay? do you stay in hostel? y did u choose enginneering? blah blah blah... was very tempted to sing there... (got ktv!) but i aint very keen to sing for entertainment while everyone i dunno eats... and very paiseh oso cos noone except my sup sang... hahaz... well... all i can say is... that lunch was so *stressful* haha... but the food is REALLY good... i heard each person abt 50+... freaky~ we had about 40 ppl there... so well.. do your maths! =P

shall go for CO tomorrow... die i think i nid alot of practice! it's less than a month to the concert! *faintz* and i haven start selling tix! work work work~ busy busy busy~

<<花样少年少女>>:
"Travel helps people relax and open up 這就是最好表白的時候... "
...................................骗人的.................................................

knock off!

as i predicted, i m REALLY very zuo bo today~ i m now... em... preparing (?) to go home... jus too paiseh to leave when everyone around me is still so busy~ hahaz...

i guess i shall fill my day up tml by reading up other ppl's blogs! (hmm... discretely of cos...) wahahahahahaha....

The meaning of life is to give life meaning.

work!

wohoo! hie! the lazie pig is finally blogging again... haha...

pretty zuo bo at work (even more zuo bo den usual), cos most of the engineers are really busy these few days... i expect to be more zuo bo tomorrow and maybe beginning of next week.. *haiz*

went for C.O. (finally!) but that was last week... this week? hmm... rao le wo ba! the travelling is really tiring... will go again next week for sectionals instead... hee... my roomie has a new roomie! so that means i have no where to stay when i go C.O. *haiz* more travelling...

anw, gotta do "paper work"... *sigh* ciaoz!

I.A.-ing

woo hoo! it's been A YEAR since i blogged! (wahahaha)

ok... merely 2 weeks into I.A. and I am slacking really big time.. it explains why i am here blogging... stupid yiing kip niaoing mi to go CO and to update my blog... lalalalalala... ok i decided to go C.O. finally (zzzzz) perhaps nex wk... awww... i hate the travelling.. still debating to stay in hall or go home late at nite after C.O.

C.O. - been mia for so long i almost forgot i ever existed in it... oops.. jus kidding lahz... i miss CO alrite.. miss yiing too, n miss peishi oso... miss haoyi SL, miss nellers and associates... okok.. tt's y i m cuming... zzzzz (i hate to travel!)

I.A. - hmm... i m learning alot, but i m really tired also... everyday oso wanna zzzz when i reach home... weirds.. i m becoming like a pig... jus longing for more sleep everyday... hahaz... i jus wan my school fees back... (i pay the school, the school pays the company, the company pays me...)(still my money in the end...)

ok... I.A. time dun slack so obvious... (oh i finished reading harry potter and the half-blood prince ebk while at work! hee...)

ciaoz!

happy new year!

happie new year!

SUDDENLY, it's the last day of 2006! in less than 24 hrs we will say goodbye to 2006 and start the new year!

so many things have happened in 2006...

NTUCO concert
it was a FULL HOUSE! (i lurve reminding everyone!) What a PROUD ticketing officer i am, togather with yiing yng! The preparation was TEDIOUS and i remembered how i freaked and really wanted to give up cos of all the performaances (yes there was SO much esp that year and that period of time!) plus the at-first-really-pathetic ticket sales (less than 50% when it was less than 2 wks to the concert...) and the euphoria that took over me when i realised we dont have enough tickets to sell on the day before the concert!!!! lol... a great accomplishment! =)
(too bad haoyi SL wasnt with us then, but it's good to know he enjoyed himself in shanghai! =) i remember how sad we all were when we went to send him off~~~)


NTUCO Beijing Trip
beijing was WONDERFUL! the company was great (of cos! u'll always be crazy with the nellers!) it's the FIRST time in my life i took an airplane! (the pressure in my ears really made me felt horrible~ it is HARD to yawn sometimes... haha) the trip really made me feel a greater sense of belonging and "togetherness" (is it the word?) with the orchestra... =) I also did the most courageous thing i ever did... It took so much of my courage and drained so much of my energy and happiness... but well! i did not and will never regret it... this is all part of life...

Hall + school
hall 11 and hall 15... surprisingly, i prefer hall 11... minus the distance, and the canteen, hall 11 actually makes me feel more comfortable than hall 15!! i like the wind, the serenity and the tv reception! school? jus as boring... luckily i have ning n peishi n yuxia with me everyday. i've learnt to go for lectures and tutorials alone (i STILL prefer someone to pei wo really...) i've learnt to gossip and spectaculate relationships between people jus by observing where and how they seat themselves in the LT... (lol... tt has become me n peishi's fav pasttime in 12/17 lectures) Results?! of cos i'm happie =) the latest sem's results made me MORE happie! well... since i've bin so hardworking this sem, i deserve my great results! =) i will miss my roomie when i go for IA starting jan~ roomie~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

Celebrating 21 years!
21.. the magical number... the year you become an adult, you become responsible for your own life. the year you spend all your money on everyone else's presents! haha.... but it's the SPECIAL year! i lurve all the parties~ janey's, pammie's, jane ong's, Elaine's, yingyan's, Sam's, and MY party! hee hee... of cos plus yiing's! =) we're all adults now!!! and there are so many more 21 years ahead of us! all the best for all of us!! ^^

Darlings
wooo~~~ i miss my darlings! i haven seen brainies for SOoooo long~~~~ miss ya all badly!!! janey must be sneezing in Australia now.... haha... let's meet up when janey is back!!! *muacks* *muacks* *muacks* i really miss ya all!!! it seems like yesterday we were giving ourselves furnie names... [wonkey, donkey, monkey, zonkey] [lost brainie, no screw brainie, empty brainie, no brainie] i miss our vj days... not the sch, but the days i get to see you gals everyday...
darlings of the year::: xuan and elaine!!!!! thanks to you gals i manage to cum out of my own misery~ thanks to you gals i always have someone to call or jus to bother when i feel like it and thanks to you gals i now have GREAT expectations for the year ahead... =) in a good way lah... *muackx* *muackx*
and also another darling all time (i noe she dun read my blog... she never reads anyone's.. but well...) thanks to sylvia... a fren of 12 years... you know me inside out! and i know we'll be frenz forever...


wooo wad a Long~~~~ post... it took me very long to write it ok... dun complaint lah.. hee... anyway... 2006 has been good~ now let's all look forward and move on! time waits for no one...

best wishes for 2007! ^^

merry xmas!

merry xmas!

may all ur christmas wishes come true and may u have a wonderful year ahead!

i finally let myself go beyond where i usually allow myself. but even so, i did not push all the way to 100%... i guess i stopped when i still have 5% soberness ~ in order to save all the trouble and uncomfort... hahaz... ok... yy went further, tt's y i guess she must be having a worse hangover den me~ hee hee... she's probably zzz-ing le...

it was interesting for me... i was totally conscious of wad i was doing, totally "high", talking even louder than usual (oops..haha), not walking very straight (but at least i could still walk... still get wad i wan, still make it back safely...) and i remember it! hahaz... and i had a very comfortable pillow! thanks to syh~ hahaz... (but not without uncountable disturbances...)

no more malaysia trip for me liaoz, but at least now i am looking for another night out this new year! =) go plan it, SL! ^^ (i better start to train up! hee hee...)

山谷中

有人告诉我，
我就像在一个山谷中，
虽然很深，但我很幸运我的山谷有个梯级。
只要我愿意爬， 总有一天我会爬出这个山谷。
这个人是我的曙光，让我看到了梯级。

也许，
其实我不想爬出山谷。。。
我害怕山谷外的世界，
我害怕别人讨厌我，
我害怕得不到别人的爱，
我害怕得不敢去碰那梯级。

有时我真得很想就这样，
永远呆在深深的山谷中。。。

hols

Holidays!

yoho!!! it's 10days after examz, and life's good with hols! =)

bin spending quality time with frenz and family.. bin going out every other day and bin slacking at home every non-other day... haha... jus spent the weekend partying at my roomie's place! it's so fun! steamboat, mahjong, xbox, audition, ron.. and the most surprising thing is we actually played monopoly until 5am and we were still super high! haha... i conclude haoyi's luck is super good.. he won every game! argh.. even if we ALL gang up against him... hahaz... everyone was super tired yesterday but well.. it was fun! roomie's house is so nice... feels like a high class chalet.. cos of the aircon =P and i guess we really created alot of noise esp during monopoly! haha...

jus signed maxonline on sat! (yay!) -- no more dialup, finally! now i can play audition at home! cool!!!! (but somehow today it either hangs or kicks mi out... hmm... i'll try again another time...) it costs quite a bit.. i better start saving up to pay bills... and guess wad!? i STILL haven got a handphone! (oh.. wads new?!) so well... i nid $$!!!!

k lahz.. shall continue to enjoy my maxonline! =) enjoy hols everyone! psss.... brainies! when r we going out?! miss ya... xiao lao po! miss ya too!!!! enjoy yourself there ok?! =)

examz

5 down, 2 more to go

yay! 5 papers down, 2 more to go... after exams i'm gonna do so many things i cant count anymore... hahaz... i'm looking forward to next fri le!!! but the problem is how to survive Monday's paper... so far my 5 papers are, as usual, unsatisfactory... i really pray my results are ok... it doesnt help when u start to watch a drama (wei xiao pasta) and finish it within two days... when u start on the day b4 ur first paper... haha... i knew this was going to happen... but i still let it happen... now i have rewatched and m still rewatching... cos i dun have anything better to watch liaoz... hahaz.. i m so dead...

i miss my roomie... whenever i m alone in hall... i hate to go makan alone esp in the hall canteen... and all the nellers are so far away... so i owis camp in the room and become my hermit.. i munch on bread n biscuits n vitasoy for all my meals, with chocs as snacks... lol.. bad lifestyle.. lonely and unhealthy...

jus back fr suntec after a long awaited nellers outing... in the midst of examz though... hahaz.. but i figured i wont want to mug anymore after my paper today... according to past experience i end up doing everything but mugging... haha... nex paper is super er xin so i really better be serious abt it fr tmr onwards..


不知不觉， 就已经过了四个月了。。。
生日前两个月， 我经历了一生中最难过最痛苦的回忆。
生日后的两个月，我似乎已经痊愈了。
也许这只是自我安慰， 但我真的很想把它从心里去除。
谢谢这几个月开那么支持我的朋友们。。。
或许是因为大家都在同一个时间感受到相同的痛处，
所以我们才能从彼此找到力量。
能有你们我想上天已经对我太好了。
真心的希望我们都会找到属于自己的幸福，
真心的希望我们会一辈子做最好的朋友。

wishing...

~wishes~

sometimes i hate wishing...

wishes that won't come true...

i wish i wish i wish...

~~

我不想哭。。。我要更坚强。。。

examz time!

Examz Time!!!

... and i still feel like slacking everyday! haha... i still want audition, i still dun feel like getting out of bed every morning... i still hate lessons.. wahahha... my mugger mission is still in the fridge... i better try to drag it out soon.. wahahaha...

ureca is pretty chim... but still managable right now... even though i still dunno how to do alot of things... but hopefully will learn abit more... haha... i still have yet to buy a phone... the more i wait, the more pretty phones appear in the market! haha... and i still want an mp3 player... so i shld do "diverse investment"... (i nid more $$!)

miss all my darlings! missing darling brainies, missing elaine n xuan darlings, missing joanne laopo, missing all the neller outings... after exams we must all go out n play! =)

...3 months, and i think i am recovering... or so i hope...

21st bday!

Thank you! *muacks*

Thank you for all who came!!! Thanks for coming, Thanks for the gifts, Thanks for bringing all the smiles to me! =) Thanks to those who couldnt come but i received your well wishes n hugs n kisses! =) I was really super busy that day, but I felt really happy that everyone spared the time to come!

I enjoyed all the "happy birthdays"! Thanks once again for making me feel like I'm a star! =) *muacks* I wished I had more time to sing with everyone and say goodbye and thank you to everyone... *thanks again!*

yummie! this is GOOD... (thanks mummy!)

mei nus! pammie joyce jane sylvia!

my fav niece n nephew!! =) aint they cute?!

peiling is so sweet!

brainies!!! *muacks* *muacks* *muacks*

pris n peiling r gd frenz after jus one song! =)

i lurve my cake! looks gd, and tastes better! yummie! i lurve hazelnuts!

i have cake AND flowers! =) great combi!

mum n dad n sis n mi! =)

pri sch frenz! oops... there's onlie sylvia darling! hee hee *muacks*

st nix galz!

vjc ppl! =)

ntuco! plus our two future members! =)

ntu engine ppl... vs

... ntu non-engine ppl

ntu eee gang!

ntuco tanpo!

hey tt's my new nametag!

jing n yuqin! late!

elaine says this can be my matchmaking photo! *haha*

osim!

my roomie! *muacks*

aint it romantic? city space is cool! =)

pretty ladies (and pretty toilet rite?!)

guess who were the photographers? =)

Thank you List:
Mummy + Daddy >> thanks for preparing the food! *muacks* and thanks for supporting me all this while...
Sis Hui>> thanks for the company n help in the process of planning =)
Elaine >> thanks for being my beauty consultant! you are the one who made me a princess! =)
Xuan >> gosh! the equinox was the best part of the night! thanks xuan mummy!
Roomie Wenyi >> thanks for the wonderful idea of the photo album n thanks for printing all those pix to brighten up the album!

thanks for all the presents! i really lurve them! special thanks to brainies for the super chio swatch watch! n thanks to nellers n gang for the hp voucher! thanks to osim ppl for the precious moments figurine! it's so pretty! =) i feel like i'm a greedy pig... these pressies are so exp! thanks thanks thanks!
*muacks* lurve ya all!

freezing

freezing...

awwwww... actually I think i m more like frozen, nt freezing... bin staying in hall the whole day (oops... wad abt lessons?) and guess how productive my day is?

bin mapling whole day, read abt 3 pages of notes, listening to songs, read the same 3 pages of notes, more mapling, and read the 3 pages of notes again... (dotz...)

abit sad some ppl cant make it for my bday... but really touched by darlings for putting in so much effort into my bday... thanks to elaine! she's my honoured beauty consultant! thanks to xuan mummy... i cant wait for sat nite outing to equinox (iz tt how u spell it?) thanks to darling brainies n gang... but pls dun get me a hp... it's too expensive... as i said, my bday list is purely write "shuang"!!!! it's more like my wishlist for this yr... hahaz... jus get mi sth within ur budgets and sth u like n i'll like too! =) *muackz* lurve ya lots!!!

i want to mug! but somehow i cant.... argh... i'll start tmr (oops did i hear tt b4? haha)