BINTAN paradise!!!

YO!!!!! I M BACK!!!!

yah yah... I noe u all miss me LOTS while i spend my last weekend in BINTAN!!! whaahahahahaz... I LOVE BINTAN! nice sea, nice beach, nice hotels + service, nice LOBSTER, nice mangroves(?), nice SUITE room and most importantly nice darlings xuan and elaine!!!

even though it's a rather short(very) trip, i really enjoyed myself there!!! spent abt S$300 (wow!!) so now i m in the "recuperation period" - no more shop shop eat eat... hahaz... let's c how i spent such a wonderful time in BINTAN!!!

sat 3rd dec

woke up at 630am (yawnz)... ferry left sgp at 915am, reached bintan abt 55min ltr... but cos of the time diff, it's STILL 9plus... hahaz... so this 3 young sgp gals arrived at NIRWANA RESORTS HOTEL and were really sad tt we can check in only fr 3pm... haiz... so we checked out the tours we had in mind... Tanjong Uban and Mangrove tour... n realised (to our horror!) that... 1. mangrove tour all fully booked for the day! so we booked the tour for the nex day... 2. Tanjong Uban tour fully booked for the day... n if we go for the tour the nex day we dunno wad to do for the rest of the day! hahaz... so we hired a taxi tour ($55 - Tanjong Uban, 4 hrs)... Taxi driver made us feel like real taitai'z!!! he chauffeured us ard,waited for us while we had lunch or went shopping and always opened the door for us to get in or out!!! and he brought us to a nice kelong seafood restaurant where we had BUTTERFRIED LOBSTER!!! yum yum.. i LOVE lobsters!

wow tt's alot of words... take ur time to digest... anw, we went back to the hotel at 3+ and then guess wad?! we got a free upgrade to SUITE room (cos the housekeeping staff were too slow... our rm was nt ready yet) and the 3 of us jus went GAGA... and started messing ard in the rm! hahaz... the rm was jus WONDERFUL! HUGE HUGE HUGE!!!! 4 poster BED! revolving TV! balcony with great seaview and huge cushion! nice huge sofa and armchair, dining table!!!! I LOVE MY ROOM!!!

then there's the jacuzzi pool (woooooooooo....) and believe it or not, there's a BAR in the swimming pool!!! so relaxing to sip some shirley temple or fruit cocktail while taking a break fr the swimming...

dinner was really romantic... but the funny thing is the 3 of us romancing tog... hahaz... but the food was really good anw.... cakes cakes cakes!

sun 4th dec

nice but HOT weather... after breakfast, we bathed (each taking turns in the wonderful bathtub) and checked out, den we headed for the mangrove tour!!! i really love the mangrove tour act... first time ever! the motor boat ride was exciting! the scenary was really beautiful and even though it was such a hot day, the sea breeze really cools u down and as we enter the mangrove swamps it gets more shady... elaine was jus so happy (and snappy... her camera nv had a chance to rest) to c all those mangrove trees and their roots... (oh wad can i say abt our ace geog undergrad...) while xuan likes the wind but finds the trees boring (she admits she's nt a nature person)... but I love the wind AND the wonderful scenery and the feeling of nature... (i tot i wld be freaked out.. u noe i'm darn scared of any creature tt can move..) well... i really loved the tour! first time ever i felt like i might like nature~ hahaz... but den again... most prob nope... hee...

the evening was spent relaxing (?!) with a wonderful body massage (ouch...) followed by a romantic (again?) steamboat dinner at the poolside restaurant... THAT was really yummy! =) i lurve steamboat!!

then we sorta took a nap at the hotel lobby while waiting for the bus to the ferry terminal... (yawnz... the massage was too wonderful.. and sleep inducing) we gt to the bintan ferry terminal at 730pm (bintan time) and then there was alot of delay before the ferry finally left... bad news was... the waves were really strong tt nite... *giddy* but elaine was worst hit... she was really sick by the violent "turbulence" (shld i call them tt?) but luckily we came back safe and sound (but pretty tired, sleepy and giddy...)

paiseh... i dun hav pictures to put up yet... and i can imagine i will be pretty Lazy to do so! hahaz... so there... i guessed i gave a pretty good breakdown of the wonderful BINTAN trip~~ for pictures, pls refer to darling elaine's blog.... =) when's the next bintan trip???

Bintan Bintan here i cum!!!

yay! tmr is THE DAY!!!

finally!!! bin waiting and waiting so long for this day... BUT... somehow i m feeling bit empty... nao dai kong kong de... how? i dunno wad to pack, i dunno wads the plan tmr... haiz... i dun feel like packing anything, i dun feel like doing anything tmr... i cant imagine myself catching the ferry early in the morning at 8plus!!!! have been waking up "early in the morning" at 12plus everyday.. and on LUCKY days, 11 plus... hahaz... wadeva... haiz... okok... i shld try to get my brain working and figure out wad's going to happen tmr... hahaz... =)

jiayou! 3 more to kill!

yes! left with 3 more papers to kill nex wk.. jiayou! cant wait for hols! =)

have been watching more than mugging (as usual...) there's so much to watch after hols!! er zuo ju zhi wen + hana yori dango (meteor garden - the new jap version!) + lv guang sen lin + yummy yummy + chiong shang yun xiao + xin niang 18 sui... plus plus plus... tt's y haven been blogging... haha... watch watch watch...

going bintan on 3th and 4th! (yay!) but will be missing out on yan yan's b-day party! =( haiz... nelles - enjoy urselves without mi den! (*pouts*)... i cant wait to go ktv after exams! hee hee... but seems like everyone finish earlier than mi! (sobz..) okok... go ahead without me.. but make sure u all "pu chang" and go again with mi! hee hee...

cant wait to watch harry potter too! hee hee... maybe after elaine end her exams. =) xuan's starting work! jiayou gal! bintan bintan bintan! =) okok.. i ought to get back to maths - prob and stats (sianz...) until fri i'll be FREE! jiayou jiayou jiayou!

miss ya, xiao laopo!! *muacks* miss the brainies too!! *muacks* *muacks* *muacks*

mugging season!

yo!!! bin so long since i blogged! hahaz... my lappie is back! SAY HI TO LAPPIE~~~~

hahaz... 8 flags suck lah, everyone! they only bothered to call ONCE... and if u happen to miss the call, GOOD LUCK! up to u to guess when ur lappie is fixed and go bother them! argh! *bish bish!*

haiz... the mugging season has begun, AGAIN... somehow this time round it seems more difficult to concentrate! and somehow i feel like i don't have the time at all! It's less than a week to my first papers (2 on the 9th) and out of the 7 papers i have, i have like 2 more files of psycho stuff to read (tt's my first paper) and not yet done any tutorials or looked at past yr papers for ALL the rest of the subjects, in fact i haven't even touched my data structure at all! *faintz* so much to do and so little time!

tried many venues to mug mug... went NUS to mug last tues! NTU muggers! try out the NUS central library! and their Munchie Monkey cafe is cool too! =) my gosh... NUS has SO MUCH SPACE lor! unfair! NTU shld have more tables in LWN library or library 2! wat we have is pathetic compared to theirs! and even their cafe is huge! *envies* oh, also went MP Library on sat... and i dun really like it~ spent my time staring at my notes blankly and yawning all the way... was really sleepy~ cos went for breakfast with Sylvia! hahaz... but breakfast was emmm.. at 1030~ hahaz... wadeva~ i cant exactly mug at home leh... haiz... somehow i cant concentrate with the lappie! hahaz... but den... m in hall rite now and m using lappie~~~ hahaz... anw... tt's y i decided to come back hall~ n attempt mugging... BUT~~~~

my idiot sis (shhh... she bz tokking on the fone rite now! can tok bad abt her! hahaz) decided to come to my hall... cos she wants to use internet! argh~ so someone come to fight with me for my lappie... and then keep distracting me~~~ haiz... i came back on tues nite, started the first set of notes and wed whole day STILL at that set of notez... and today... i haven finished it yet! argh! with my sis ard i cant mug! cham lah~ *bang head* i realise i cant concentrate with anyone talking ard me~ i will jus tend to listen to the conversation... tt's why i m taking so long to blog... cos i keep listening on my sis's fone tok~ haha.. i guess i better shoo her out asap! hee hee...

haiz... attempts at mugging are really almost fruitless! *bang head* argh~ HELP!!!

Also realised i really read very LITTLE... or shld i say minimal?! haha... cant wait for after exams... gonna read read read! Elaine made me so interested to read Memoirs of a Geisha! the movie is coming out soon! (Jan 19th i guess) somehow seems like everyone has read it before~ except me tt is... okok~ m jus a mountain tortoise~ only read comics... (read 3 books yesterday! cos my sis brought 3... u see! DISTRACTIONS!!)

okok~ bored u all with all my mugging talk~ i oso think it's sianz! hahaz... okok~ back to erm... games first, den books! hahaz... Jiayou to all the muggers!!! =)

Lappie! where r u????

YAY! finally gotta Blog!!! Lappie now at 8 flags!!! hospitalised for fan faulty.. since MONDAY! i wonder how long i need to wait!!! argh~~ met Sylvia darling on the way to hall... so changed plan n go JP instead! =) miss ya!!! must come out again after exams! =) had a fun nite wif roomie n angeliney~ yum yum... mos is gd~~ hee..

met brainies for dinner on tues! FINALLY! hahaz... i miss u gals!!!! *muacks mUACKS* i lurve being wif ya all!!! =) somehow i jus cant stop luffing with you gals! u all nv fail to make mi feel SOOO happie~ hee hee... vj days are the best days of my life actually... =) really!! because of u 3! *muacks!* i miss the days we will all catch the same bus early every morning (oops... maybe i was late too often..). i miss the days we all wait for each other after school jus to go home together. i miss the days we all go for harmoc together. i miss the days we hang out at ECP cycling and blading. i miss the days we eat and eat and eat at parkway. I MISS YOU GALS!!!

Somehow being with u all make me really happie! i am so grateful that i have u 3 in my life.. =) LOVE YA!!! pss clare... maybe the 4 of us shld really jus get married to each other!!! wahahahahahahaha.. but den.. my renfu~~ hmmmx.. haha... n joyce's bae yong joon *pss.. i cant rmb how to spell his name correctly*.. hahaz... i can imagine the 4 of us living together... SO COOL! =)

planning a BINTAN trip in dec wif xuan and elaine! =) darlings we shall enjoy ourselves! i better start saving $$ now... broke!!! sobz... lots and lots of money required!!! esp if i wanna go China wif CO nex june/jul... haiz.. jiayou bah! save save save! i hope i wont have to eat too much oreos this time! haha...

k lah.. so late le... feel bad using roomie's deskie (aka desktop) for so long... cos was talking to xuan and elaine abt the bintan thingy... this time we are REALLY gg! nt jus all tok n no action! =) hee hee... okok... time to zzzzz... nitez!!

被需要的感觉。。。

wooo~ v long nv cum blog le!! (can c can c~~ hahaz)... bin watching so much ou xiang juz... wang zi bian qing wa, er mo zai shen bian, er zuo ju zhi wen, er nan zai ji dian... plus all those 56 shows... wa lau~ even my lappie is complaining! it gives out loud n wierd noises now!! ahhhhhh!!! how??! sobz...

somehow haven been feeling decent lately... jus not happy... birthday was cool... thanks to nellers for cuming over! =) thanks to esther and sylvia... i lurve ktv with u gals... but din have chance to meet up with elaine n xuan and the brainies... m really missing u all!!! muackz!!! lurve ya lotz, darlingz!!! haiz... to make matters worse, it seems like exams are approaching!!! n there's ntuco concert stuff to busy soon... dec hols seem so near yet so far... dec has in stall 2 trips to malaysia... maybe i'll jus pick one~~ nt tt rich... hee...

haiz... guess i know why i m feeling down... maybe i've watched too much shows... sorta feel detached from the real world le... sort of wish i m in the show... tt world seems more fun and less troubles... haiz... told ya i watched too much le... somehow in this real world i feel like i m... not exactly needed... haiz... i guess i dun make a difference...

darling joyce: HaPpIe BiRtHdAy!!! *muackz!!*

happie birthday to me~

hmmmx... suddenly feel like blogging... even though mi act no much time to blog! hahaz... this week is so busy... CO, CO, quiz quiz quiz, CO again... tmr mi got one quiz plus one performance... sianz... n i pon my lessons (oops) so tt i can cum back hall now to slp... last nite piah wang zi bian qing wa till 430am orh... yawnz... tmr quiz quiz so i better get some slp first... so blog fast fast!!!
hee hee...

m really missing the brainies.. when are we going to meet???? ~sigh~
haiz... how cum i have no feeling of happiness as i usually do on the 23rd of Sept every year? i was really looking forward to becoming 20... n it is jus going to happen tmr... but... y do i feel so... like it's no big deal??? jus another yr... haiz... wad is happening to mi???? i m wierd.... will have CO for b-day though... dunno happy gt ppl to pei or sad... i m missing home... even though in the past yrs i never really spend bdays at home.. hahaz.. i told ya i m becoming wierd... i dun even know myself now... sometimes i jus cannot really smile from my heart... haiz...

ok... everyone gonna think i m getting really depressed le... hahaz.. no lah.. m ok... i m now siaoz over wang zi bina qing wa! hee hee... i lurve mingdao and shaowei! =) esp mingdao's character is so sweet.. like a real prince.. so sweet and cute! if only someone liddat appears in my life... i'll jus GRAB! hee hee... everyone! must watch must watch! he's really cute esp when he was "done-oh"... *meltz*

joyce asked mi wad i want for bday today... hee hee... i noe everyone buy bday presents till siaoz le... hahaz... okok... act i dun really mind wad u all get for mi... =) i like the company more... hee.. but i dun mind new bag / wallet / earrings, accessories / jacket / GOLD BAR!!! (ooi stop offering me choc gold bars... i prefer dark choc thank u very much...) hahaz...

ok... i better go slp... but i really feel like watching some more wang zi... *meltz* mingdao so cute~~~ wan an~ tonite nid ta mug mug mug le!!!

when a prince turns into a frog...

I CANT C MY BLOG!!! sob sob... i dunno if it is ntu intranet prob (again) or my own ie prob~~ argh... anyhow i cant load my blog now... even though i can c other pages perfectly fine... haiz

hope it is ok soon... i cant really stand this.. hahaz... anw... mi m addicted to wang zi bian qing wa!!! omigawa~ ming dao is jus so cute!!!! =) n got shao wei too!!! so nice so nice!!! the show is super funny too! hee hee... k lah... back to watching my ming dao~~~

Blame me for all you want.. I dun think anyone will bother to listen to me anyway…

I dun think it is my fault… it is jus a small favor, and I dun think it is unreasonable. I guess you ppl wont understand… U dun understand how it is to feel disrespected and insignificant… I am nt meaning tt i am so super impt tt u all cant have fun without me, but I am really upset by the way u ppl take mi for granted… wad do u think i am???

it is nt abt the ride… it is abt how we were rejected and rejected and rejected until i m really sianz to go… n only AFTER we said nt gg THEN u all finally say ok… n now i say no nid, i m nt going, the whole world seems to think it is my fault, i m such a petty, lazy, inconsiderate sucker.. fine! Go ahead… turn ur backs on me… I am really upset too, nt jus u!

有些事是一定要说出来的。。。 撇在心里很难受。。。

我真的很寂寞。。。brainies I miss ya lotz n lotz… thnx to xuan n elaine… thnx for all ya company… thnx to sylvia n esther, thnx for being there all these years… lurve all ya lotz…

busy busy

just back from JP abt 1hour plus ago... tired! but had fun! this is a busy week... quiz quiz, CO, CO, performance... everyone's so busy! n the ironical thing is i think i will b MORE busy in the one week holiday den i am now~~ haha... one week got 4 days of seeing the CO ppl... after the break got double quiz, performance, n double b-day (believe it or not... there's someone born on the SAME DAY SAME MONTH AND SAME YEAR as mi in CO now! *faintz* liddat i nid to share my birthday! *sniff sniff*)

i miss ya all, brainies!!! n i miss sylvia and esther already, after jus meeting last sunday to celebrate esta's bday! hahaz... i miss ktv too (after jus singing on sunday! hahaz)!!! Nellers & Associates KTV??? =) hmm.. maybe nex monday b4 CO?

~~la la la la la~~

sighz

haiz... finally find time to blog~ hahaz... NTU 50th Anniversary concert over~ tired~~ was a great performance! thanx all who came! =)

hmmm... sorry brainies.. i think my last post got u all too worried~ hahaz... dun worry... was emm... jus feeling bit left out n lonely sometimes... miss ya all lots... when's our brainies outing gonna b? =) sorry gals... this week seems like lots of us are busy... haiz... must meet up another day! miss ya~ muacks

~sigh~ thought over quite a bit recently.. i have come to realise many things... sometimes i really wish i have to courage to accept the facts.. sometimes i really wish i can jus let go and stop torturing myself... i'm learning... and i think i can do it... no matter how painful it is... i wont continue to hope~

i wish and i want to be... who i want to be.

wad if...

what if u think they are the most important ppl in your world,
but they dun even think u r important?

i dun care if the world hartes me...
i hate the world.

sick sick ~ cough cough ~

ahhhhhh! Junyang is out! and xinhui is out! wad the****~~~ so sad!!!! tot Junyang v gdlooking orh! yue kan yue shuai xing... =) n xinhui's performance was really impressive (minus the dress sense)... cant believe tong qing piao is so li hai! argh!!!!

haiz... anw, m back at home, cos was darn sick... so went to c the sch doc... hmmm... BUT the sch doc gave mi some lousy flu tablets (tt i take alot of times b4, and often dun work), some dunno wad tablets for throat (i think), vitamin C(oh pls...) and cough syrup(but he say dun take unless got flam)... n to top it off, doc said if u happen to cough out thick green flam, pls cum back and c him again and he will gimme antibiotics then... oh gosh... dun tell mi i must go see him again before i get well!!! *faintz*

was really darn sick since monday... it progresses steadily worse daily... sore throat > sore throat + flu > flu + fever > flu + cough... so i was really dying during comm meeting on wed nite.. hahaz.anw... m pretty much ok now, after quite a bit of resting... (yesh! i noe i m supposed to be off the comp n sleeping n resting more) hee hee... still quite angry(?) abt the tong qing piao thingy... m REALLY thinking junyang looks gd! hahaz... too bad... the world is never fair...

wishing for a miracle

i wish i can tell someone...
i wish my miracle will happen...
i wish i had more confidence...
i wish i had more luck...
i wish... i wish for jus the slightest hint...

s e l f i s h. m e.

I cant seem to put that thought outta my mind... I am so guilt-stricken...

I wish I have more courage.. I wish for some special powers... I dunno why but I have this FEAR for any creatures esp those that can fly... moths, kakars, flying ants, beetles, dragonflies... wadeva u name.. I freak at the sight of them... I hate myself for acting like a baby... but I can't control myself.. I am disgustingly timid... yucks... i guess the ppl ard mi are jus utterly sick of mi and my stupid screams and cries... I hate it too... They dun kill, i noe. I am so much bigger, I noe. but... I dunno y i react tt way...

Being in the C.O. comm seems not as exciting as I had thought it would be... I feel so guilty for rejecting their offer for the post of FC and creating so much trouble for them, creating so much unhappiness for the ppl I am really grateful to know... jus because I am afraid of facing the SAO ppl... jus because I tot being the SL will be more slack... jus because I am so selfish... now I dont even have any confidence that I can be a decent SL... for those who dun already noe, I SUCK at playing my own instru.. how to even lead the others? I dont even deserve to be one of them...

miss mi????

yo!!!!! miss mi????? hahahahahahaz ~~~

bin busy since the last time i blogged... (wa! so long ago!) hahaz.. yy lah... bugged mi to blog (she's in my room now! she forced mi stay wif her tonite!!! fri nite leh! hmmph... haha)... else i think i'll probably blog nex hols or sth.. wahahahahahaha... sch start le leh... sianz.. EEE subjects are so eeeeeeeeee...... haiz... nw i think wenyi's bioE more interesting by thousand times leh... luckie gt darling ning and peishi to go lects n tuts wif mi.. else u can expect mi to pon pon pon! wahahahaha...

m addicted to SPADES!!! jus learnt the game last wk! hahaz... while playing tong xiao at my hall (hall 15!!! new new! but alot of kakars and moths!! =( scared scared...) cum celebrating yuhui's bday... hahaz... now i play spades, internet spades, and yahoo spades... everytime i on my comp will definitely play one! wahahahaha... this is bad... nt healthy... hahaz...

oh! mi n wenyi got a fridge!!! lotsa drinks, choc!!!! yay!!! first hostel goal accomplished... nex one... TV??? hahaz... but nid $ and scared reception nt gd.. sianz... oh, nellers & associates having a steamboat session this sunday!!! yay yay!!! this time we have more ppl (the last time was CNY, before nellers was formed)... will be more more fun!!!! =)

this is getting long... but i guess it wld be good to tell everyone this... KICKBOXING is fun fun!!! hee hee... tiring yes, but really fun! punch punch kick kick! hahaz... n i went nite jogging wif yy and wenyi last nite! i decided i m really getting old n lacking exercise... couldn't survive the whole route... kickboxing plus jogging = aches aches aches... hahaz...

ok i m supposed to kick myself away fr the comp n stop playing spades! i really SHOULD be working hard this sem... nt easy to SUDDENLY take 23 AUz... (i prefer yr one 15 or 17 AUz slack slack) k lah... end here... =)

LaSt DaY oF wOrK!!

yum yum... jus back fr a super long lunchbreak... my superviors & colleagues took me to Bedok for lunch @ pizza hut cos it's my last day today... hee... (finally) ironically, this is the first and last time I have lunch with them.. haha.. for the past two months, I have been spending lunch either munching tidbits / biscuits, or eating sandwiches / ta-bao rice fr the canteen downstairs, while chitchatting on the phone with darling yiing yng... not exactly very pathetic, cos I have this feeling that going lunch with them eeveryday will be pretty sianz cos well... different frequency.. I don't exactly fancy hearing about "my-kid-your-kid" talks, or juicy gossips abt other colleagues / bosses... hee...

met elaine and xuan for dinner yesterday night... elaine FINALLY passed us our presents fr her KL trip... (excuse me, auntie elaine... how many times have we went out already since u came back?!) haha... okok... i admit tt tee is a nice pink, good taste k? hahaz.. and the earrings for xuan are nicey too... =)

hmmx... i realise that I have been spending like siaoz this past 2 weeks... i guess i restrained myself for too long before this... the GSS been on for so long and I only started spending 2wks ago... hahaz... cos of work lah.. so i started really shopping fr tt sat with xuan... where i spent 120 in OG and urban warehse, then last sat shopped at PS, then sun bought another skirt, and then was JB where i got 2 bags, and another pair of shoes, and then yest nite i bought a pair of sandals... oh gosh this totals a disgusting $300 NOT counting food and ktv sessions etc! my gosh... i hate myself sometimes.. i lurve shopping AND buying! hahaz... retail therapy lah.. works wonders.. hahaz...

last 3hr+ of work, i guess i am gonna miss the ppl here, and all the slacking... but i am really glad that school's starting... more CO, more hall fun, more late night supper and mahjong sessions (i hope! =P ) and of cos more mugging.. haha...

I tried, but I don't know how to say it...
I tried, but I can't forget it...
I tried, but I can't change the fact...
I tried, but I couldn't control myself...
I tried, but I don't feel better...

I tried, but no one sees it...

I tried, but I can't help feeling lonely...

a need to be needed

yay! finally my office lan is working again... haha... but as usual... m so bored... did i mention i finished deception point in 2 days jus reading in the office during my free time? yesh... so i finished it off yest n now i m back to doing nth.. n tt novel is jus so... kua zhang... too absurd but yesh, the thrill is there... or so i think... it's relatively fast moving... =) nex book i waiting to read... HARRY POTTER 6! hee hee... who got order pls put me on ur waiting list! haha

oh n i nid to talk abt the lan prob.. (lots of complaints here... brace up!) after the java prob i created cos i downloaded the java prog to play blokus online, here comes another disaster... being utterly bored in the office, i had no choice but to find myself some entertainment... n so i managed to dig out the messenger folder in the comp, and went online wif windows messenger... n guess wad? i could use it! so happie n started to chit chat wif ppl online (yah... elaine and xuan mainly) while working... at least not so lonely anymore.. who knows... 2 days after i used messenger... the lan connection went dead... at first thought was cable prob.. den after the technicians came to check (cos my boss's boss dun like mi gaming so my boss suggest i go the intranet n read materials... i think tt advice came fr one of my other supervisors as well.. ha), they found out tt it is BECAUSE of my chatting tt the connection went dead... apparently the system kills ur connection the moment it realises u r chatting... wad type of lousy system is tt?! or should i say it's jus damn TOO efficient?! wa lau! kaoz! ok.. so they wanted mi to uninstall my messenger... n i was like huh?! HOW do u uninstall windows messenger?! it is a windows component k! so well... no more chatting now... until the last day of work! hahaz... shhhhh....

caught the webby http://www.colorgenics.com/sps/ fr elaine's bloggie... (haven bin reading ppl's blogs cos of the lan prob) and it's pretty accurate! esp the beginning... (c the bold part) it completely describes who i have been feeling this few weeks... many times i feel really upset not being involved... many times i felt hurt when frenz plan their activities without me, when they call me last min and ask if i wanna go, when in their planning they did not consider me at all... maybe i'm jus too sensitive (everyone's telling me tt) but i really feel not respected and not needed... to the extend tt i reallly feel like isolating myself and shutting the door to them... too extreme? maybe.. but tt statement "If you do not get what you seek you are apt to become reclusive and you will close the doors on all those within your sphere of influence." -- i m REALLY feeling tt now... maybe i'm jus too lonely...

ok... LONG post i can c... too much to say.. since i m so bored maybe i can spend my time looking for a new blogskin... =) anticipate!!

darn true... at least for the first part..

http://www.colorgenics.com/sps/

You are in a state of constant expectation and want interesting and exciting things to happen to you. But in fact, you are a 'Walter Mitty' at times - a dreamer - over-imaginative and often given to fantasy or day-dreaming. There is nothing wrong in 'dreaming' - how boring life would be if one just followed the doctrines of everyday life - but one must not continue leading a life of continuous fantasy. You need to face reality in spite of all its possible shortcomings.
You 'need to be needed'. As an idealist you are intolerant of anything short of special consideration from those close to you. If you do not get what you seek you are apt to become reclusive and you will close the doors on all those within your sphere of influence.
You are confined and trapped in a distressing or uncomfortable situation and seeking some way out. Whatever you seem to do to resolve the problem hasn't worked out. Fortunately you are able to gain some aspect of relief from someone close to you.
Your ability to withstand the pressures of everyday life have been overtaxed and this is leading to stress and frustrations. It would seem that for the time being you have lost the resilience and strength of will necessary to contend with existing difficulties. You feel that it is all 'too much' and, try as you may, you are getting nowhere. But to give you credit, you continue to stand your ground and pursue your objectives with a fierce intensity. Naturally this situation is subjecting you to intolerable stress and pressure from which you would dearly like to escape, but you can not bring yourself to make the necessary decision. As a result you remain firmly involved in the problem and you can neither view it objectively nor get rid of it - you cannot leave it alone and you feel that you will only be at peace when you have reached your objective.
You are putting on a show - a facade. You are a master of demonstrating considerable charm in the hope that this can or will lead to better things. Deep down you are fearful that this may not work and that you may have to employ other strategies in order to realize all your ambitions.

retail therapy!

yo ho!

jus back fr shopping nt long ago! =) muackz! xuan! u r a great shopping khaki! lurve ya company! hahaz.. i spent quite a bit today n i m so satisfied! even though in the end i spent almost all my time in OG and urban warehse (which is basically, ex-OG)... we spent 2hrs in EACH store lor! had almost no time to go elsewhere.. hee hee.. but i really bought quite a bit! =) finally i getta go on my shopping spree... since i started work i seldom go shopping.. everyone asks to meet for dinner! see lah! i've put on so much weight! thnx to u all!!! haha... but i lurve food!!! haha... ate shilin today oso... the mee-suah is GOOD! yum yum...

CO chalet was fun too!!! LOTSA mahjong! first nite was mahjong... literally played fr 9pm - 9am (some TV in between, though), jumping fr table to table... haha... cos there was 2 sets of mahjong! hee hee... so shuang! 2nd nite was mahjong too! haha.. n also tried some heart attack will abt 9 ppl on the bed... (it was a real heart attack when the bed collapsed!) i guess in the end i only slept abt 5hours in the whole 2 days there... when i went to work on fri i was so tired i jus fell aslp in the office in the afternoon, when i had basically nth to work... at least gt sth to do i wont b so bored n doze... somemore the lan prob nt settled yet.. no internet entertainment oso.. haiz...

and the most memorable incident of the chalet was the hugest kaka i have ever seen in my whole life!! at least 3 times the size of the usual ka-chuaz u ever see!!! sob sob... still gives mi the creeps whenever i think of it.. i hate kakaz! n there was this huge moth there too... so freaky place... i m so scared of kakaz n family.. arghhhh... gross... but luckie there was kaiyu... he was the kaka killer tt nite... (the huge one n another normal one...) sob sob.. i still hate kakaz...

OopS!

oh no! wad did i do wrong again?! my comp in the office cant go online anymore! sob sob... they claim the network cable is unplugged... but... it IS there! haiz... hopefully tmr go back office it "recovered" already.. pray pray

anw... today is pretty suay... i realised tt i cant play blokus online in the office anymore cos u nid ta d/l this java web start thingy to play n tt makes my own java in my comp cannot work! so when the supervisor wana sign into the system for mi to work she cant do it! the prog wont start! haiz... so i had to resort to system restore... (secret tool to go back to the past only in win xp!) and managed to save the day! but tt oso means... tt my supervisor now knows i game so much tt i m threatening the working of the poor comp.. who knows if the lan cable prob had sth to do wif mi?! (oh no! pls dun!!!)

trying to pack my stuff for chalet.. i feel like i m packing too much for 2 nites stay... but it is already the minimal i can do... haiz... this is bad... i realise i hav little presentable clothes n i keep rewearing the same clothes! time for a revamp! yiing! pei wo shopping! n i nid new bags... mine sucks... ahhhhhh!!!! shopping shopping! if onli i can go KL... sob sob... well... in the meantime... tong xiao mahjong! here i cum! =)

got the PASSION?!

yo! actually i think i should be blogging tmr in the office, but den... might as well go it now since i m free now anyway... haha

i FINALLY treated my sis to jack's place... after so long... hahaz... now v broke... but jack's place is good! yum yum... i lurve steaks.. hahaz.. but not gd for the wallet if u keep going.. hahaz

oh, and yesterday i ended up at the urban infest thingy afterall with yiing yng, ning, haoyi, yuhui and roomy (though she was running ard the whole day...) n guess wad? there were no participants to play their games... so in the end we spent the whole morning and afternoon and evening playing among ourselves... blokus, monopoly... under the hot sun... *almost fainted* and i drank at least 4 bottles of water... *melts* thnx to angeline and weicong for coming down to pei us for quite some time and playing monopoly wif us all! =)

when it almost rained (drizzle only la) the minds cafe ppl actually gave us a whole stack of flyers and ask us to distribute! wa lau! wad the ****!!! we are NOT cheap labour k?! so me and haoyi happily took the entire stack and hid it nicely into their blokus box! *evil grinz* we r there to help man the games, and even if we indeed have nothing to do, it is not our business to help distribute THEIR flyers and provide free labour for THEM!!! hmmph!

the day ended wif a satisfying meal at the Thai Express in PS (green curry! yum yum), and of cos the all time fave pasttime of the nellers... arcade outing! wahahahahaha...

yay! decided to go for the CO chalet wed - fri... taking leave for thurs.. and i m sorry gals, my parents wont let mi go KL trip... i think they bu fang xin and they r angry cos i keep coming back home late esp these few wks... lotsa outings wif the nel gang and brainies (another dinner one day?) and of cos wif my darlings elaine n xuan... but the trip nex hols will still b onz! =) cya tmr for dinner!

potential "torture" coming soon

Boo... the last hours before freedom is really passing real SLOWLY... esp when i hav nothing to do.. everyone is so busy cos today's month end... everyone except mi lor.. haha... who gets paid for punching 2 holes in a few stacks of papers and filing them according to date? haha... and the MOST of the time... i spend it surfing.. haha... nt bad hor? i can play popcap (even though i m bit sianz of it), blog, read ppl's blog if i feel like it, check mail if i have any, n read the new paper online.. haha... slack... i noe =D

oh.. my supervisor gave mi a "briefing" this morning abt the task i m abt to do starting tmr n lasting till 7th July.. she warns of potential tireness and offers me "breaks" in the form of my usual work of punching and filing by dates... i dun even noe what i m gonna do, n it doesnt sound very interesting... haiz... guess must be comparing / matching numbers and the likes of it... but doing tt for 7 dayz? (ok, 5, minus wkends) maybe i/ll breakdown fr boredom... i joked tt i m gonna get an MC tmr... haha... n apparently she dun find it funny... she shot mi a "dun u dare" look and said she pretend she nv hear... *shrugs*
different frequency, tt's all i can say...

but i guess i dun mind having work to do... having internet access but nt knowing where to surf can b pretty sianz too... haha... esp when the web filtering system is so damn good at blocking my fav sites.. haiz... ok... i shall go back to playing popcap until time's up! ktv ltr wif elaine n xuan!! yay!

bored @ work

boring... another one hr... this job sucks i must say, but i lurve the pay... (duh) n it wld b great if i dun hav to work but still get tt pay (duh duh? STOP DREAMING LA) sounds like i like money to drop fr the sky... (duh duh duh??? hu dun?)

huge plans cuming up in nex 3-and-a-half wks b4 sch starts wif a bang! haha.. tmr gg K wif elaine n xuan (i hope this time the plan materialise... unlike previous failed attempts...) and the nellers and associates are on for a volunteer work for urban infest this sat.. sorry ppl, in the end i still cant go cos i cant make it for tmr nite's meeting. so dun worry! i will be visiting u all if i happen to pass by orchard! hee hee... ok next up, KL trip wif elaine n xuan, still in the process of planning... n another JB trip with the nellers.. if the KL trip fails.. hee hee... nex big thing: collecting hostel keys n moving in! i wonder how many trips i nid this time to move in everything...

congrats to elaine! cant believe u find a job in such a short time n willing to hire u for such a short time, and cant believe it's such a good deal (maybe nt now, but i guess it will look better in the near future...) =) jiayou le! rmb to intro mi nex time!! hahaz...

anw... was jus counting.. i m only left with 4 more weekends b4 sch starts! minus the moving in...
i wonder how many wkends i m left to play... how? =( haiz.. time is short... n money is little... poor mi... will someone rob the bank for mi? try DBS... wahahahaahaha... shhhhhh... dun let anione in office c this... else i can start packing n stop work a whole month earlier than intended... wahahahahaha...nt like i really mind though.. but i still nid the money for my tw trip (erm... which may be changed to HK or aussie trip) in dec! =P

i guess i will find another way to rot off my remaining hour... hmmm.. but nt popcap... too much of it makes mi even more sianz...

broke n tired

i guess it's really too much play... yawnz... tired..

thurs spent the nite having dinner with xuan and then met the nellers n associates at east coast... played arcade till way to late... den by the time i went home... haiz... (oh had ta remove the pics cos yiing insisted...) n fri nite was spent wif the darling brainies! =) missing u gals already! haha...

sat was JB wif the CO comm & the nellers... really fun but wld hav bin greater if i had more time for shopping! another trip, nellers? n guess wad? AFTER the JB trip, i reached hm at 1155pm, did bit of negoiating wif mum n dad (my mum was so angry she din wanna tok to mi... she jus snapped back her replies), n left my hse at 1225am to go haoyi's place for mahjong!!! haha... so the nellers had tong-xiao mahjong... fr 1plus to 5plus, den we were so tired we all go slp n wake up 10plus (original intention was to wake up 7am for breakfast...) so TT is called tong-xiao mahjong!!! wahahahahaha....

den i jus went to replace my ezlink card (yesh... after losing it since last yr 23 sept) n tt costs me $6 for phototaking, $21 for replacement, $10 for top up, $52 for bus concession... i m BROKE!!! n still lacking slp... seriously... i nid slp! yawnz...

DiNnEr @ SuNtEc!

the lovely brainies!!!!

clare looks dead!!!!! n janey is cui-ed... haha 

act cute!!!! 

look how violent janey has become! 

satanic?!

sob sob! i m satanic?! omigawa! sob sob... y? i m so nice n sweet leh! *sniff* *sniff* haoyi's lousy quiz label mi satanic!!!! sob!!!

satanic?!

You scored as Satanism. Your beliefs most closely resemble those of Satanism! Before you scream, do a bit of research on it. To be a Satanist, you don't actually have to believe in Satan. Satanism generally focuses upon the spiritual advancement of the self, rather than upon submission to a deity or a set of moral codes. Do some research if you immediately think of the satanic cult stereotype. Your beliefs may also resemble those of earth-based religions such as paganism. Satanism 92% agnosticism 88% Islam 88% atheism 79% Buddhism 71% Judaism 54% Christianity 46% Hinduism 46% Paganism 42% Which religion is the right one for you? (new version) created with QuizFarm.com

*yawnz*

2 consecutive late nites and a morning full of yawns... *yawnz*...

sat the nel gang was formed! chairman: roomie! members: mi haoyi ning (shld i add chuan jie & xinhui?) haha.. n we went for the first lunch outing tog... after one whole yr in co finally we decided it is time to actually meet out for lunch together! wahahahaha... yiing! when r u joining us? haha.. oh.. went for CO perforamance! (n i m glad i did...) guess it was better than the creative one (jus cos i din go for tt.. y u all so jing zhang! haha...) and tt place is posh! really posh! (no wonder i nv heard of it yeah?!) and guess wad were we in? CO polo tee n jeans, plus a wide selection of various shoes.. *sweatdrop*... but the dinner they provide us sucks!! fried rice, veggie, chicken, orange juice, plain water... gosh... but cos we earn a bit for tt perf, we went for supper @ 179! yum yum... lots n lots of food! satay, bbq chicken wings (muacks! lurve it!), fried chicken wings, seafood hor fun, fried beehoon, etc... yummy! (it wld b better nex time if u all sponsor cab fare for the nel gang too, boss! wahahahaha) so, 1 late nite...

sun went out wif sylvia n we walked PS whole day! i really think there nt bad.. luckie yiing! one place tt has almost everything... n the best is: Long John Silver's! wahahahaha.. fav fastfood... we walked the whole afternoon there lor! then believe it or not.. i met my stupid sister there, jus as i was telling sylvia, "maybe we'll meet my sis here lor, cos she go out with arcade pal always like to come PS arcade de..." and then bingo! i c a familiar figure beside me in comics connection.. n zoom! sylvia and my sis start talking comic talk... *sweatdrop* and then the gang of 4 (me, sylvia, hui, n her arcade pal... paiseh i dunno ur name.. haha) went to the PS foodcourt for dinner! tsk... yiing! go try the yao cai ji (herbal chicken soup) there.. good!! after dinner went to the arcade to play... bishibashi and daytona and photohunt! psss... sylvia is queen racer! still say wad v long nv play le.. blah blah.. so humble! wahahahahaha... mi and sylvia din stay to play on.. we decided to go back to kovan n hav gelato!! wahaha.. yummie! and then we went to the hougang comic shop n c c look look.. then we go TS to c c look look... den we go cold storage to c c look look.. haha.. then finally go home.. n i got back into msn world.. wahaha... till pretty late.. yawnz.. if i continue to slp at 1 plus everynite n wake up at 730, i m gonna become a huge panda soon! sob sob... 2 late nites...

so tt explains it.. tt's y i m yawning the whole of the morning.. *yawnz*... brainies dinner on fri! =) and ktv wif elaine, xuan, sam on thurs! yay! (bit broke... when's the nex payday!?!!!)

yo! working n slacking n bored again.. not tt i m complaining.. i rather b bored den do anymore stupid filing (but i do filing everyday...) haha... a colleague jus said i look like a contestant in the chn U's superstar contest! omigawa! but i haven bin watching tt.. nt v interested... hee...

yay! ktv nex wk! yesh, xuan! u go organise! hee hee.. think elaine back this sat (or izit sun?) so yay! the ktv khakis all here! haha.. (oh did i conplain ning n gang go k-lunch w/o mi n darling yiing? how could they!) and yay! meeting the brainies for dinner on monday! but clare like nt back fr korea yet (oh yesh yesh, dun b jealous joyce, she wont get to meet uncle bae yong joon...) haha.. get together again after clare return! yuppie! i lurve gg out! even though i hav no much money left... hahaz..

hav bin entertaining yiing yng every lunch.. while i munch biscuits n she go LJS! unfair! i wan long john's too... sob sob.. n she's trying to convince mi go watch initial d.. but but.. only got one decent shuai ge.. edison! shawn yue looks so ugly wif mostache! ewwwwww... n u consider jay chou shuai?! forget it... haha.. ok.. will consider... actualli, i think i oso miss mahjong! esp after playing last sat wif roomie n gang... hee.. the shi san yao craze! hee hee.. we shld play again another day! this wkend???? i wonder if i m going for the sat performance.. like no news fr the CO ppl... else we go shopping, yiing?! hee hee...

counting down!

30 more minutes! time for blogging! wahahahaha... bin slacking quite alot today! oops.. act spent alot of time playing game (popcap.com is gd! n the only place i can go play thnx to the ultra powerful web filtering system here)... played bejeweled2, insaniquarium, n heavy weapon a stupid shoot n shoot non stop game (i kip dying! argh).. spider solitaire is fun too.. but boring once u realise u cant win the 2 suits game.. hahaz kip trying, ya?!

jus done shredding a whole pile of papers... guess i look too kong xian.. cos they owis let me shred whenever i m wasting time here. wahahahahaha.. ppl busy lah.. no time to shred.. so they dun realise shredding is actualli oso a huge waste of time (i could hav played 2 more games! wahahahahaha)

managed to evade fr all the calls today! jus pretend i m busy n then walk off to some far off corner n pretend to flip thru files.. wahahahaha.. i m the queen slacker! haha..
ok shall continue to slack until time's up! hee hee... stupid yiing yng tempted mi wif choc raisins! i think i shld go buy some choc for tonite... yummy yummy...

brainies! we ought to meet for dinner one day! i noe u all miss mi! hahahahahaha...

. . .

file file file.. file until no more files left, but alot of papers flying ard.. resorted to using rubber bands for the time being.. no choice.. filing sucks.. they shld pay mi more than the meagre 6bucks per hr.. haiz... i hate feeling broke.. sobz

elaine! u haven bin blogging! miss ya.. cum back quick! i wana go ktv! hee hee.. sam they all like trying to organise but i hav yet to hear ani confirmation.. hmm... but i m still broke.. sianz.. down to my last 60 bucks of my salary... else i wont hav money to pay the hostel deposit! cant wait for nex pay day...

supervisor tot mi to ans calls! faint! i dun wan! cant i jus continue to slack like i do now? but luckily, the fone hasn't bin ringing.. (i rang once act.. i refused to pick it up n pretended to b busy.. erm.. filing..) working life sucks! sining they all some more go ktv w/o mi n yiing! (wad can b worse, the moment u r craving for ktv u noe ur frenz r there at the same time... haiz)
today no lunchtime chit chat! =( yiing lucki pig got frenz to pei her for lunch! noone cum chai chee pei wo! sob sob.. unfair.. y she got PS i only have bedok (n it is 2 bus stops away... sigh)

i like blogging in office! i got alot of slack time to think wad shld i write.. n i can give LONG posts! wahahahaha... blogging is good.. pour out all ur worries n frustrations! who cares if anyone reads it! who cares if my taggie is siaoz.. (act i care..) who cares abt mi! since noone cares.. i might as well as blog it... haha.. (i dunno wad i typing oreadie.. blame it on all the filing...) sometimes (or all the time) i wish i were a rich gal fr a rich family, with a huge house, a nice bedroom, a car wif a chauffeur to take mi anywhere i wana go, enuff money n time to go travelling all around the world, buy nice IT gadgets jus for the fun of it, instead of jus sitting in a boring office counting n counting how much more i can spend this month... instead of feeling suspicious whenever mommy treats mi nice, instead of window shopping (i realise i dun like windows, by the way, thanx to countless window shopping expeditions)... instead of staring at travel brochures... how i wish...

nobody is perfect. i m nobody. thus, i m perfect...

kan xin qing...

hee... haven bin blogging.. lazi mi... looks like sth is wrong wif my taggie.. ppl say cant tag! haiz n the wonderful thing is i dunno wad's wrong! so if u r reading this n free enuff, pls tag a tag... 10u vm...

another 10 min n i can officially go off! nt gg for CO today.. (probably nt in the nex few wks...) so can go hm n slp! so sleepie.. haha.. all msn's fault.. n i m longing for cheesecake! all sining's fault for baking but nt letting mi eat and yiing yng for keep reminding me sining baked cheesecake!

i realise i hav a bad temper... hmmx.. nt good.. esp when i m in a bad mood... i guess i m too much of a "kan xin qing" person.. jus so happens yesterday was xin qing bu hao.. maybe i de zui le heng duo ren... haiz i dun care le... that's jus me i guess... if u understand u wont b angry darling... (even though i noe u wont read this..) ok! time to wrap up wadever work n prepare to go!

yawnz

it's great to have internet at work! u can blog, read blogs, send internet sms, check ur mail, etc.. but to make it greater, PLEASE abolish those stupid web filtering services tt only makes ur life with internet miserably b o r i n g... no d/l, no msn, no games, no tagboards even.. yawnz.. no wonder freecelling is driving mi to sleep.. yawnz..
as usual, i sit in front of a comp n slack, after accomplishing quite a lot of small tasks... sometimes i wonder if it's an insult to my intelligence (nt a lot though could do wif more! hee any donors?) to be filing the whole day off.. oh! today i learnt sth new~ someone asked to change some entries in the stupid mx prog n so i spent the time doing...
1. enter the transaction #
2. click the browse button or press cntrl-enter
3. right-click, select edit settlement details
4. select this box, then press spacebar, den select this box then click submit
5. click save or press cntrl-enter
yawnz... if computers r tt wonderful cant they make the prog change it automatically, instead of making a poor temp gal do all this manually? i feel like a machine.. haha.. click click press press... so fun.. electricity bill: $6/hr... haha
ok.. gonna go shopping (a v short shopping trip, i guess) wif yiing n ning ltr.. i wonder how late i'll b.. haiz wad u expect when i finish work at 645? mm... good.. the time is approaching! yay!
tmr supervisor on leave! (more slacking? or more freecell?) *grinz*

d r e a m s

i m so envious of yiing! she finally can go fulfil her dream and go diving! jiayou gal! i wonder if i ever will find myself something i really wanna do in life. haiz.. the only thing i really wish now is for mi to get lots n lots of money.. den i can buy wadever i wan, go whereever i like... i really wish to sit in an aeroplane one day! sob.. wad a shame.. so lao le still so sua ku.. haha

hmm... now i suddenly find my life so boring.. n empty... no goal in life, no ambition.. haiz n it doesnt help when i m lunching alone everyday.. feel so antisocial... but everyone has own khakis.. n nt like there is anyother temp staff here. haiz. yy! i miss ya.. y dun u transfer to chaichee? but here no PS to shop.. haiz... reminds mi of tt lonely song.. lonely~ i m so lonely~ i m nobody~~

so now every lunch i jus entertain myself wif internet (i can play popcap!) n send internet sms... sit in front of comp with a cup of milo fr the vending machine n 2 cookies n cream snack bars... maybe i shld bring in cup mee too...

okok.. after all the depressing stuff lets return to sth more interesting! filing! filing! n more filing!

F.I.L.E.

haha hoho.. guess wad? i finalli manage to actualli USE the comp in front of mi.. after many ordeals.. haha.. so now i can go online in the office, play freecell while noone sees, surf the settv sites for more 56 stuff, send sms thru internet, read blogs n update blog! Bad news is: this darn intranet sys has so mani restricted sites! i cant go on web messenger, i cant go play yahoo games, i cant even c the tagboard in ppl's blogs! argh... well.. better than nth.. at least i can still play freecell.. hee hee.

well, as usual i m filing filing filing away in the office... now tt i can log onto the comp i can rot some time away b4 i continue the super sianz filing routine.. i m REALLY doing things slowly.. i have come to realise... the faster i finish means the more funnie stuff they'll think up for mi to do.. like more filing or some new stuff tt they decide to take statistics fr.. nvm, i heck care, as long as i get my 6bucks an hr. hee.. well, now i no nid to worry abt lunchtime entertainment! hee hee.

watched ge dou 18 19!! ahhhhhh... renfu is just so cute! n his acting is getting really better. i LURVE the story btw wei ying qi n xiao kui.. v touching n exciting, nt like the boring relationship btw duan yu qiao n ye you li. oh... i think the show is finishing at ep 20.. sob sob.. at least now the show has ended renfu can rest well! i really miss him...

hate hate hate filing!

filing filing n more filing... bin doing this n nth much else... cos they decided it's too risky to log into the comp for mi... can access this la dat la.. blah blah blah... so now.. i do filing filing n more filing... all the stupid papers all ard the table! argh.. all the files in all the drawers! all the papers in stacks n fastened tog... argh...

did i tell my story abt how those ppl bin filing the IRS (interest rate swaps... i onli noe the name, paiseh.. hardly noe wads it abt..) naccording to trade dates... n now they finally realised their mistake n tt they shld b filing by maturity date instead! so one day they c this temp gal so free... (cf the previous entries) they decided tt it's time to correct their mistake! so poor temp gal (tt's me, yesh!) started to drag out these doc n resort by maturity date (can go all the way to 2019!) ... starting with the darn old 2003 stuff... my goodness! i HATE filing!!!!

n i still haven found a lunch mate! sobz! hu stay near chai chee?! wanna cum pei wo for lunch? or feel free to gimme a call! (haha... time to use the free incoming call advantage!) hee hee...

no pass = no entry

yo! third day of work le! m still without a pass! haiz... imagine me loitering outside the toilet, waiting for someone with a pass to go in so i can follow... imagine me loitering outside the door waiting for someone to come out or go in so tt i can get into the office... yeah.. have bin doing that... thank you v much... my supervisor had asked for a pass for mi (after i requested) n it's coming on thurs! (finally!)

i have bin doing nth much these days.. bin either arranging papers in ascending #, or in ascending dates, n the likes of it... when there's really nth for mi to do, my supervisors ask mi to do stupid stuff like transfering the papers in the files (overflowing) cos they have no more ring files... (ps: severe shortage of hard cover ring files n if u have any empty ones pls kip well... beware of disappearance of files.. haha) (o.. n i cleared 8 files yest n another 12 files today! *proud*) or tying papers in stacks n squeezing as much as possible into the limited space... that place is jus FULL of papers!or shredding! I LUV shredding! reminds mi of my dream to shred all my old notes into pieces tt can never be pieced back together (unless u r crazy n li hai enuff... haha) yesh! =)

bin so relaxed esp these 2 days... my 1st half day like pretty miserable compared to this.. haha... my supervisor even joked tt she's gonna gimme a never-before-temp-job-task... bring a teapot n sit in the pantry to pao cha! (yeah.. i m so relaxed there! haha) the only sad thing is lunch alone.. tsk.. guess i m getting independent! haha...

work work work = tired tired tired

i m so tired!!!!!!

here goes my story:
Friday the 13th (may)
-1030 yay! i got a job! but... start work TODAY at 130!
- 200 - 630 ----- work! n blur... wad the heck is NDF?! (chiminology involved)
- 730 --- met junlin for dinner, walk walk
- 1030 - 1250 --- nbs bash @ chinablack (only go to pei junlin... n guess wad? she got frenz everywhere! ... ... ... in the end i go there b be hua ping while she entertain her frenz... really alot.. her whole nite spent talkking... haha)
- reached hm at 1plus, bathe, online... n still awake now... (2++am!)

gotta go down to the job agency at paradiz centre at ard 11am, n i m still awake! (argh wont wake up in time de! ) den meeting junlin to go SHOPPING! hahaz! yay! (spending or rather already spent more than i earn... tsk tsk)

money money money... taiwan, hk, bintan... mp3 player, tv for hall... wow! so much money...

the PiG

oink oink
the pig says hi....
i become part of the pirates gang yest... haha (ask yy n ning)... hahahahahahahahahahhahahaz
n spent my whole nite yest watching ge dou tian wang 13 14 15 16... by the time i finish 16 my parents were yelling at mi to go slp... haiz... so i slept... fr 3plus am till guess? -- 230PM
oh no! wad a pig! n i wake up first thing is to watch 17... hahaz yay! renfu is SO cute! i LurVe wei ying qi n xiao kui! now i m in the "i lurve renfu" mood again.... *melts* renfu is so cute!
Elaine... dun b jealous! hahaz... u'll get to watch soon! maybe b4 ur KL trip... hee hee...

haiz... i miss renfu again! renfu~~~~~~~~~

yay! sweet blog skin!

iznt this nice n sweet?! yay!

okok... looked long time b4 i found the ideal one... hahaz... will add song to it soon, i guess... n plus maybe my clock cursor (again?!) yup... waiting for ur suggestions n preference, ppl!

haiz... bin slacking n rotting at hm everyday... unable to find a ncie temp admin job... well, nt my fault tt the recruit section has only robinson's temp cashiers / gv service crew / parttime telemarketers required rite? y dun have some decent "temp admin asst needed urgently. students welcome" yah... looks like mani advertisers put "students on vacation need not apply" instead.. haiz... i m nt welcomed (sob)... it doesnt help when the job agencies seem to have no replies... ok... student only lah... temp job... wont earn much fr the pitance i get paid (if i even get a job!) argh!

yah... so either bin going out or rotting at hm... plus the super hot weather wa lau i think i cant even survive rotting at hm... so darn hot! i can melt at hm i think... esp when i stay in the room whole day with the fan on full blast aimed straight at mi... *breeze*

ok... any job lobangs everyone PLEASE rmb mi!
hope u all like the new blog skin! =)
janey: nt so dark liao hor?! this one looks lighter?! hee

the Quest For the New BloG skIn

okok... bin searching hi n low for blogskins this few days... finalli found this one... bit plain, but well... i love this layout! so neat! hee hee... but PLAIN! i better do sth abt it... or scout for another one (hmmph.... can i? it's so TiRing!)

sorry bin lazi nt updating.. but at the rate i m gg out... i m gonna become REAL broke!!!! argh sob sob... ok, so no nid to update bloggie oso lah since those few ppl who reads have met mi or will b meetin mi soon.. hahaz

i wish i can post some pic but bin tired... looking for blog skin... haiz... n ntu dialup cannot survive more than an hr... NOT EVEN A MIN MORE! argh!

:) ok.. i nid job... everione... ani lobang?!

ReNfU! FiGHt!

ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!!!! RenFu!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
bin watching ge dou tian wang... 5 6 7 8 9 10 11 12... 8 episodes all at one go! my goodness!~ i cant believe i did tt! 8 x 1hr10min+++ in front of my lappie... oh goodness.... but renfu is REALLI cute!!!!!! his fighting really shuai! *melts* n i dun understand y the most bad egg must fall in love wif the most kind gal... erm... maybe tt's how it goes...

yest finished examz, packed mi n roomie's stuff... wa lau... alot of stuff to bring hm... esp roomi... she best.. oneday finish all the moving.. THEN went nydc dinner (yummie!) wif the roomies (ning, angeline, yy, roomi, mi)... okok... will upload the fotoz soon k?! b patient! (plus i use dialup at hm, rmb?... patience...)

exams over, means holidays! even though feeling happie nt having to mug anymore for 3 mths... i wonder wad i m gonna do.. slack at hm? so hot weather.. n so sianz to stay at home all day... i cant go out everyday too.. no $.. job nt easy find oso... ARGH! okok... nvm... will worry abt tt ltr...

yay! brainies outing finally! n gg out wif xiaolaopo! finalli! n gonna celeb sylvia's b-day! smile sweeties! i MISS ya LOTZ!!!!

Sorry SylViA!

shoo! i shouldnt be online... hahaz.. roomi jus left for her morning pp... Jiayou roomie! n jiayou too, to yiing n angelini! ning shld be coming soon, wif yy n angelini... =) at least got someone to pei wo! hahaz... she oso nid to mug for chem... i hope i can help.. i returned most of everything to robert yeo liao.. hahaz... (xuan n elaine! ur fav chem tutor! haha)

hmmx... it's oreadie 21st apr le.. gotta move out by 30apr... haiz. i have LOADS n LOADS of stuff to bring hm! argh... how?! last pp (finally) on 29th apr.. hee... quick! start ur booking!! (hint hint)

was jus thinking abt the past yr... hall life has bin great n fun, esp last sem.. muacks! luv my darling neighbours! esp JunLin, DanQi, XinEn! junlin n xinen... u gals have bin missing in action for WAY too long... missed ya! Even thou being blk rep is no nice job... but it made mi feel more like part of the hall... =) maybe m jus a small fry lah.. hahaz.. i guess i m gonna miss h6... the nice room... huge n airy, nice strong fan(jus bit noisy), nice view... but i believe h15 will b nice too.. minus the too many "yy's frenz" (aka grasshoppers, bees, unidentified flying insects blah blah) haha...

oh... SORRY sylvia darling!!! muacks muacks muacks.. thnx for being such a nice gal n forgiving long time frenz... hee hee... esther oso was like oh no! sorry we forgot... *sob* all computing's fault... (excuses, i noe) n attachment's fault.. okok... u shld have reminded mi!!! darling... happie b-day! will pu chang!!! muacks! hope u had a wonderful b-day! HAPPIE B-LATED B-DAY!!

Yo YOo YooooOooOoooooo

Piggified @ home...
-1145 reach hm
-msn for a while, played freecell till 2plus
-2plus eat lunch (erm... hungry...)
-3 : go buy ice cream
- sleep till 7pm!!!!!!
-dinner, bit of computing..
-supper (hee) at 9plus
-bit more computing, alot of freecell
- now blogging n msn-ing
haiz... wad a pig... i SAID! i cant mug at hm....

Clare: no prob... i go haunt elaine... she vcdnapped my xijie and dolphine bay! wahhahahahahaz...
darling... tot examz no one so free to read so neva blog wahahahahahahaz.... muackz!

argh!

my goodness! 4plus am n i m awake!
online, blogging, din mug, feeling hungry....
haiz
i suck at mugging
tmr gotta wake up early n go imm to c 56! haiz bit sianz really... feel bit wasting time... esp exams coming leh!
argh... but i missed kanghui bella elaine n gina! (if onli ning comes...)
okok... time to go n try to pull myself off comp n slp!
hahaz

muacks! yawnzz...zzzzzZZZZZZZZZz

blog blogging blogged

how i wish i can go back to the past n hide there... hide in a world without worries n sadness... without the mugging n quizes... haiz... i wish i could fly...

physics quiz sux! 7 qn n i ga-sum 6 of them!!!!!!!! argh! shld hav started studying earlier... should hav read tutorials like ning said~ sob sob...say bye bye to my 15%~ sobz...

ok... bin missing in action lately...(missed u, xuan!) haven bin blogging, haven bin chatting on msn (nt like there is anyone willing to tok to mi... and cos the mugging season is here!) i jus realised that NEXT WEEK is the examz! n i haven even started mugging for my first paper... i m a miracle!!! hahaz... haiz... the sem jus started in jan n now it's coming to an end... fast... so fast tt exams r here again! sad... this time seem to b more stressed, esp when i realise i cant do maths n physics anymore... haiz.. brain grows dusty real fast... why?

most prob wont b blogging anymore until after examz! sobz... i want hols! xuan elaine! cum out cum out! brainies!!! holiday holiday!! where's my holiday?

i missed the sweet old days~

CheErs! ~the five mei nus of NtUCo! 

SmiLe!! 

haiz

ConVince mi.... Examz r cuming! n i STILL haven got the mood to start the mugging! argh... haiz... the stupid feeling of loneliness kips bugging mi... BraInies!! i REALLY missed u all.. muacks n thanks to darling yiing... the only one who can really keep mi happy n not feeling lonely in the nites in NTU... there r some things that i dun think my roomie will understand... n the others may not be ard for mi when i nid them... thanks darling!

NTUCO's qing gong yan was happi n fun! not bad food, n lotsa fun~ aloha loyang bungalows r real nice... nt a lot of ppl stay for the nite... jus mi, roomi, nua, siyun, haoyi, kelvin, kunhwee... nice rooms! attached bathroom, aircon, fan... nt bad bed... but nt nice pillows... but its a nice place realli... i like the projector too! hahaz... watched seoul raiders in nice aircon room on projector.. but din slp much... woke up @ 630am lor! haiz... reached sch at almost 8am... bathed, slept like a pig till 12pm... skipped all lectures until the chin cinemas at 130.. yawnz... wad a pig~ haiz

Feeling bit lonely... more like very~~

haiz

i feel so sianz... so sick with myself... i jus have no mood to get things done... i m FAR FAR AWAY lagging in all my tutorials... n guess wad? i jus poned physics tut today.. haiz. sobz... y m i like tt? i kip staring at maths notez n jus cant make any sense outta it.. n i returned to my teachers almost everything i had bin studying for the past 12 yrs of my life!! i jus cant get back the momentum anymore... wad's this? UNI-DEPRESSION? Argh.... i think rite now i have nth i really feel like doing except to slp... this is BAD... but i m still doing it.. haiz... ok.. nitez... erm... soon, i hope

utterly B.R.O.K.E.

yo ho!! bought myself a digicam!!! n i m utterly broke now... haiz...
$449, Cannon A510, 3.2MP, 4.0x optical zoom, 13.0x digital + optical zoom
okok... nt the best, i know.. nt my dream too.. my dream iz the SONY 5.1MP ($599)... but well... it's way too ex... so i decided to buy the Cannon ones... act wanted the A520 ($549, 4.0MP) but Elaine darling convinced mi that another 0.8MP isnt worth $100 more... well... haha...
okok... so i m B.R.O.K.E. now... haiz... i calculated... if i have 2 meals a day, that'll b 8 meals this wk... (minus mon lunch n fri dinner) and i FORCE myself to use only $3 per meal.. that'll be $24... convert some meals to waffles / sandwiches... maybe can kip it less than $20. that's abt HALF or more of wad i spend each wk!!! shall NOT buy drinks at all... no more coke, green tea, teh-bin... YeSh! save save save!!!
will only have money to "pay back" myself after i get a job for the hols... JiaYou, yaya!!!

being happy doesnt mean everything is perfect; it means you have decided to look beyond the imperfections

a senior gave mi this quote... :)
maybe i m really jus thinking too much... too obsessed over what i dont have... guess i ought to look at it another way.. how to get wat i wan but dun hav now... life is abt imperfections rite?! abt striving to fulfil wat u wan... abt satisfying your needs and desires... i really hope i can do it... but y do i still feel a deep sense of emptiness? wad do i want in life? y does this sense of loneliness always creep into my thoughts when my frenz r nt ard mi? maybe it is normal... but is it realli normal if it jus keeps coming?
if only money drop fr the sky.. if only there r free lunches in this world... if only my frenz are always by my side... if only tt smile stays on even when i m alone by myself...

Cat InVasIon!

ewwwwwwww! a cat invaded my room while i was busi on msn n makaning!!! argh!! it jus came in WITHOUT EVEN KNOCKING... den it start meow-ing... at first i tot it was fr downstairs, den i realised it KEPT meowing! den i realised it is in MY ROOM! omigawa!lucki i dint scream... i managed to stop a stranger outside my door n she helped mi chase it out wif a mop.... ahhhh so freaki! Sobz... it's the same cat that harrassed mi yiing n wenyi in the tv room last wk! meano angelini let it into the room lor! hmmph... haiz lucki it's gone.. i better LOCK my door.... freaky~~~

ThE TaNpO-ers~~~

CoNcErT - A hUge sUCceSs!

Yesh! concert is finally over! yay! it was wonderful n smooth... maybe not considered great, but a huge success! yay! feel like throwing a BIG HUG at all the wonderful comm ppl! i really v xin teng they all... esp kaiyu he was so busy the whole day... taking care of the stage arrangements n stuff... towards the end of the rehearsal he's like so cui-ed he was worrying mi... n i guessed haoyi had little or maybe no slp... he was doing the ticketing stuff whole nite.. n peishi was utterly staring into space while makaning.. i think all their brains r really empty... poor thing... without them this concert wont have made it... GREAT JOB, GUYS!

so high! so happie that it's over... but i m rather sad to realise that nex yr nt all of the ZR ppl will be in NTUCO le.. hmmx... i think i will really miss them.. cos the ZR ppl r the BEST! yay! maybe there's no pt to stay on without them... haiz

LoNeLy!

Ah! m so lonely! sobz! roomy is back at home... haiz.. angeliney got sectionals and yy ning all back. junlin oso nt ard.. haiz i m SO LONELY! argh... no one on msn even. sobz! why like tt?! haiz... hopefully i will mug... psycho test on mon, and i have 10 chapters out of 10 chapters to go! argh! it's already FRI! sob!

mon - CO spent the nite at yy's hall, waiting for angelini to finish her meeting... until we knock out. (diaoz)
tues - bit of lab report
wed - CO morning, CO nite (pon) n went clubbing w yy xuan elaine. back in hall at em 245am
thurs - wake up at 1pm... CO at 3pm.. until nite 11pm, went out for supper wif yy, angelini + yuhui, roomy... back in hall abt 1am, bathed then walked wif roomy to hall 15 n be megawati with wenyi... until yy came (quite late) with cards...
fri - almost 6am: last GAME! then left angelini's room n walked back with roomy. 615 reach hall, 625 sleeping like a pig... until almost 12pm... had lunch wif roomy n played w lappie.. now is 645pm... roomy is not in hall tonite.. haiz i m LONELY!

tmr - happy concert at SCH! jiayou!

haiz... my holiday!!!!!! like tt gone liao... sobz! hate school... reallie...

where's my holiday?

sunday! gotta b back in sch tmr.. CO @ 6..
yesterday: went back to st nicks! (to sell tix w the comm ppl) omigawa! change principal (i knew), change CO conductor (i knew), change CO tcha-in-charge (i knew), change sch colours... which i dinno... n the moment i saw the colours fr outside i was like oh no! wad did they do?! y such a gross colour?! :( i missed the old days of light blue, light pink, n white.. i missed the sound of the windchimes... i missed my classmates... hey brainies! wanna go back for food one day?! u all r gonna scream at all the disgusting colours! hahaz... me n wenyi were utterly grossed out n exasperated... hahaz... but the soya bean outside the sch is still SUPERB! yum yum.. i missed the food too..
went shopping w roomy n yiing after tat.. :) da feng shou! hahaz... (nt really la... bout a top!)
haiz... i got NTUCO practs mon, wed, thurs, n sat is the concert. gotta catchup w sch work, gotta mug for psychology test, gotta do psycho proj, gotta do lab report... argh! u call this a HOLIDAY?!

Your Dominant Intelligence is Musical Intelligence

Every part of your life has a beat, and you're often tapping your fingers or toes. You enjoy sounds of all types, but you also find sound can distract you at the wrong time. You are probably a gifted musician of some sort - even if you haven't realized it. Also a music lover, you tend to appreciate artists of all kinds. You would make a great musician, disc jockey, singer, or composer.

What Kind of Intelligence Do You Have?

going siaoz

haiz... i really think i need to occupy myself... desperately... everytime noone is with mi i go gaga... i think too much liao... so suffocating sometimes... there r jus so many things i wanna change in my life but i jus CANT change it... i wonder if there's really a god... maybe he can make my life the way i wan it to be... BUT who m i to ask for such a favour?! i m going crazy... i hate it more when the ppl ard me seem so... busy... occupied with everything... but i m so free! too free... such that when i m alone i start thinking... too deeply. n who's free to keep talking to mi?! i nid to talk... all the time... else i go siao... argh m i suffering fr some furnie disease!?

xiang tai dou le...

MahJoNG!!

Yay! it's CNY! same boring days every yr... cos my family dun go visiting... since sec1 when daddy n mommy quit the nasi lemak business...
(CNY eve) WHOLE family at home at nite! which is reallie nan de... cos dad n er qiu BOTH on morning shifts this yr! yay! n Then, dinner was rather lite compared to previous yrs, n mahjong!
(Chu yI) more MahJoNg! Daddy off day!! dinner: soup + grill... MahJonG agAin! till late at nite... yawnz.. n i WON! abt 10bucks...
(Chu Er) er qiu off day! so nan de!! hahaz... my cousins cum visiting w their daughters n son... whole morning playing wif the kids... hee... PeiLing zhang da le! she's getting prettier n cuter... n her little sis Peishi... oh no! spoilt kid.. hahaz... then afternoon Mahjong! n some i-dunno-hu-relatives cum again... then we went to Hougang Mall.. the adults (erm...) went for some Jackpot games... n lost... while mi n sis went arcade! (n spent off the $10 i won yest... plus plus plus) then now m at hm but NO1 wanna play mahjong anymore... everyone got work tmr... haiz...

I wan MaHjOnG!!!

HaPpIe CNY eVe

hey! HaPpIe CNY eVe!!!! yay!!! hols hols hols hols hols!!! yay!!! hahahahahahahaz.. my day jus started.. yawnz... hahaz.. was pretty happie sleeping.. heh heh.. gg hm again!
HaPpIe ReUniOn DinNeR! HaPPiE HoLs!

erm... none of the grp fotoz could be taken properly... too much fooling ard.. hahaz.. this is the best le... hahaz

the 3 brown heads! =P finally taking our fotoz!

du shen!

StEaMbOaT!

Yo! jus back fr sTeAmBoAt @ Hall 13 TV room! yay! bloated!!! contented n happie... hahaz.. c PiCz!
anyway... went out w braInIes on sat! muacks! luv them lotz... but they wont go to concert!!! argh... like tt how to sell 5 tix?! even moi stupid sis dun wanna go! argh... i wanna slap her.. =p haiz n someone can sell 8 tix!! wa lau! haiz.... guess i m not worth tt 10bucks n 2 hrs of boredom for all my frenz n family... sobz...

tired!

YawNz...
wa so late liao! ahhhhhhh.... m gonna pon lect again.. i pon last week's oso.. hahaz... fri morning 830 leh... too cruel... n i hav break fr 1030 to 230 lo... go so early jus for 2 lect?! not worth it.. hahaz... i prefer my bed... yay! i m gonna c my darling brAiNiEs on Sat FinAlLy!!! hahaz... so happie! last wkend met up w pri sch frenz sylvia n esther and then this wkend the BraInIes... i missed u all so much! Next up, XiAoLaoPo!! i missed u so much! n Xuan N ElAinE!! muackz! i luv ya all!! when can we meet!?

i hate sch... argh... no good close new frenz... everyone of my classmates like so... stranger... so cold towards everyone, afterall the ppl in diff tut classes r diff n u only c them for one hr per wk... like tt how to make frenz?! then last sem classmates.. even though was pretty close.. now diff class again oso cold all over again.. hahaz... ok la i sound so LONELY... (i M!) hahaz... ok... i m sleepy... yawnz... HaPpIe ChInEsE NeW YeAr in advance! yay! hols hols hols!!!

(26th Feb 8pm S'pore Conference HaLL... NTUCO concert ... $10) anyone PLEASE CUM!!! buy tix fr mi!

BlOggInG roX!

yo! i hav fallen in luv w blogging... can c fr how frequent i m doing this... hahaz.. hey all... like my new skin?! i prefer this layout to the previous one! changed the cursor too... some ppl dun like the clock, i rmb... hahaz.. i like this one too.. v colorful n not so obstructive... then u can read better! yay! changed the song, changed the tagboard theme... n tt cost me the whole of yesterday n nite... slept at 230 lo~ dunno how i can wake up so early today to blog somemore.. hahaz i better go do my tutorials.. m so SO lagging!!! argh

Me, EsThEr and SyLvIa!!!!

EstHer INSISTS i put this up and write: We Are The S.H.E. of S'pore! hahaz... sweet foto... taken in front of the mirror! (in the toilet...)

Hey! think we can cut an ALBUM?! cos estha can sing real low... n mi.. erhem.. i screech... good combi rite?! 

Ktv, nydc, PooL

yo! jus back in hall... terribly late for lecture (1030) and well.. tired... yesterday met esther n sylvia and we had Ktv, followed by dinner at nydc! and then another session of pool!!! hahaz.. tt means i m real broke... spent too much yesterday... but i really so long neva c them le! :) some super exposed pictures... (Esther loves them like tt... covers flaws.. haha) oops cant post them now.. my HeLLO is nt responding to my "hello!" hahaz.. ok.. post ltr ba... gotta rush~~

SoRrY DadDy!

Yo HO!

i have a new head today!!! hahaz... i mean i got a new hair... COLOUR... hahaaz (wad were u thinking of?!) hahaz.. daddy is nt v happie (i think.. he's nt back hm tonite...) well... daddy said no red... but well.. i have got a red streak. em.. plus a green streak! but my purple cannot c de! sobz...

well... okok... i luv my hair! i feels really nice! like so colourful! ahhhhhh... hahaz.. but really tired... we (ning yiing mi) waited for like 3plus hrs before its our turn... then all the cutting, colouring, highliting etc din end till 8pm.. SO HUNGRY! was there since almost 11am lor! never do hair for so SO SO long before... ouch... ache! guess wont do hair again in the near future... too terrible. hahaz

tmr out w sylvia & Esther! (Finally!) i miss them SO much!!! :) ahhh! so happie! n then there's hexis nex fri, outing w brainies on sat (where n when huh?!), STEAMBOAT @ NTU wif yy n gang... ahhhhh! can't wait! :) i love my hair! but dun think daddy will... :( my sis say i look like a pai kia! i think i look like an ah lian... but i think it's really cool leh! :) i luv yy's hairstyle! n sining's color! ahhhhhhhh!!!!! yay!!!!!!!

熱いです

wa... so HOT! m in hall now... earlier was at sch, in all black (awww...) cos of the CO lunchtime concert... oh.. was such a disaster... first was i got no chair... they only put one chair for ruan! then haoyi went over play the cymbals (qiang qiang qiang) den left mi alone for the last song... which was really rather lousy too... haiz... if only they put another chair at least kaiyu can play oso... then wont b so soft... but well... it was so terrible!!!! ahhhhhhhh... sob sob... lyk tt how to hav concert in feb?!

well.. ltr got yoga (ouch..) n tonite got subcom meeting!! oh no! wad's it this time!? more work!? ahhhhhhh!!! dun wan!!!!

i better catch some zzzz... tok another day ba!
ps: watashiwa チンん シヤ desu!

yawnz!

yo ho! in the library now, alone... wenyi n sining off to some benches outside ny audi.. ok.. nt being antisocial but was really sleepie n i wanted aircon! so off i cum to LWN library.. glued to the LCD.. wow i miss the traditional keyboard.. i like the music of the typing.. the feeling that the keys spring back up to u after u give them a press.. hahaz sounds crazy.. but i dun really love my lappie keyboard, and the screen is so teeny... hahaz... okok.. m reading other ppl's blog... hee so decided it's time to update mine oso. haha

okok... still lagging behind in tutorials (as usual.. who don't?) and STILL missing my darling brainies! yay! we r finally going out the weekend before cny! :) cant wait! i miss u all lots, darlings! the feeling is really different.. we r all now in different schools and pursuing different interests, no longer together, no longer in the same harmonica band, no longer waiting for each other in the gloomy n dark VJ canteen, no longer waiting at the bus stop early in the morning to get on 55 together.. no longer complaining abt how sucky life is, no longer gathering at the bimbos' bench after school... I MISS YOU LOTZ!
miss janey's dumb dumb jokes (even if she dun mean to crack them...) miss clare's "i love bak-kua" miss joyce's "on-dray-ya" and i miss the me i used to be ard u gals!!!! ahhhhhhhhh!!!! muackz! ~~~lots of kisses~~

aiyo.. so long post.. yah.. u noe wad i wanna say la.. jus miss u ppl lots!
ok... oh! n i m gg for the SNCO alumni this sat.. ( i think) heard tt it's in a pathetic state... haiz... maybe will go get a haircut too... em... c how ba... but well.. that means another sat gone.. sobz.. i luv weekends.. but i spend most of my weekends rotting at home now... lazing in bed n sleeping late, taking afternoon naps / unplanned bored-to-slp naps... anyway... i better go do tut... argh... i dun like to b a chao mugger!!! ahhhhhhhhhh

MuaCkZ~

Hey GaLz!

thanks for being there for mi! thanks for all the encouragement n words of enlightenment... (iz it this word) well.. u noe wad i mean... i m ok now... happie as owis! =) muack!~ luv all u lotz~

guess it was the interhall cheerleading contest tt made my mood better! HaLL 6 WON! both cheerleading champion and mascot champion! yay! but became rather em.. "soft spoken" fro 2 -3 days after tt... hahaz.. i cheered for the cheerleaders... aint i WONDERFUL? okok... it was nice watching the cheerleading but rather tiring.. y r there 15 halls in NTU?! omigawa... but there were some displays of the ST. NICKS cheerleading style.... i still prefer the st nicks way.. less stunts n more dance... how i miss the St. Nick days... i luv watching the red blue GREEN yellow hse cheerleaders... wooowwww... n i miss the VJ days too! rmb darling Clare in that nice black n silver cheerleading costume?! SOOOO sEXy..... hahaz.. any more cheerleading on, babe?!

hahaz... okok... so well.. i m REALLY ok now.. figured out tt as long as i dun think abt it.. there's nothing to worry... so well.. thanks for all the LOVE of my darlings... i m ok liao! hapie n loving u as owis...

MUACKZ!!!!!!

Emptiness

it's rather wierd for mi to post twice a day... but well.. i m jus feeling like it... cos i m feeling so terrible... i jus hate myself sometimes... n this is one of the times....

sometimes i feel so empty... i feel like i m so imperfect... but i dunno why i keep wanting to make myself more perfect... what's the point?! I KNOW THAT! BUT WHY?! why i keep thinking of ways to make my life better when it is already good enuff?!

there r jus so many things i want in my life but i dun hav. there's no need to fan abt y i dun have wad others have... there's no nid to want to do better than others there's no nid to compare, then y m i still doing it?!... i know i m doing it... deep down my heart... i wish to b the best, i wish to have the most, i wish to b the most important person, i wish to b the centre of everyone's life... Y?! y m i like tt?!

i hate myself... it feels so empty, so empty... m i leading a life at all?!
what m i?! forever unhappy, unsatisfied, greedy n selfish?!

Moi FirSt TuToRiALz

yo ho! today had first tut in the sem... omigawa! computing lab was well.. decent but on the boring side... m now in hall... after a devastating PHYSICS 2 tutorial in Tr26...

FIRST the tutor is super boring... n his transparancy only got diagram, no working... he copys out fr his solutions onto the whiteboard... but he only giv u 1st step, den the answer.. (like got use?)

THEN someone asked him how to draw the ray diagram for the magnifying lens... n GUESS WAD? he say he FORGOT how to draw le... O NO!

so the tutorial went on w the class copying his transparency diagrams n the few lines on the whiteboard... my goodiness! he cannot make it la.. even his transparency the diagram the angle oso marked wrongly (oh... he was trying to test if anyone can spot the mistake! --yah rite! )

anw, i pray for a better Maths 2 tutor.. (this fri)...
n i hardly noe anyone fr my class... SiGh~~~
got sectionals for C.O. at 7pm tonite... cui... my week-nites go like this:

Mon - C.O. (till 11pm) + give out milk bread aft tt...
Tues - water duty @ NIE for vball ihg (till 9+PM)
Wed - C.O. sectionals 7pm - ???
Thurs - Badminton! n watching ih cheerleading competition at 630pm - ???
Fri - NUS trip! (led by ElAine n accompanied by XuAn)

argh.. i cant wait for Sat n sUn!

Yo Ho!! School AgAin!

Hi all!!!! yay!! finally reached the end of the week!

first wk of sch aint tt nice.. hao bu rong yi finally survived the first wk.. all lectures now, tutorials nex wk start... (OH NO!!!!) haiz... i hate morning lectures esp the 830 ones... jus cant wake up... today oso... hahaz my roomy oso getting notti she oso cannot wake up... lucky got ning to sms us to wake us up... hoho n yuppie!! i sold my effective comm bk! finally (i hate tt subj!) but failed to buy a second hand computing bk... so i bought a new bk instead... actually the bk not say v ex.. $9.50 fr PoPuLar... but then... if 2nd hand most prob only hav to pay like $5... but well... new bk means can highlight n draw wadever i wan!!! hahaz okok.... i m going siaoz... but well... my timetable sucks esp fri... i have like 5hr break b4 my lect at 330... (nex wk onwards is 4hr break, but STILL...) so now m in hall w roomy slacking n online hahaz... leaving in half hr or so i guess... then can go home!! finally!!!

THANKS for all ya compliments on my blog! *blush*
a lot of work has bin put into this bloggie, FYI, jus go to www.blogskins.com n choose a blog skin then u go paste everything into your template window, den u go n edit the stuff, like add links, add music etc... blah blah.. sounds easy but took mi damn long really.. hahaz sorry some ppl think the music bit irritating but it's so long n i oso cant really shorten it... but i changed it such tt it wont loop!!! *smilez*

oh! n mi n my roomy has a NEW 2005 resolution... slp early n wake early... out target is 1230am everynite... but so far.... well it's a +/- 2hr.. we'll work on it... jia you!!!

School StArts!

yo ho! chui... first day of sch only... now so damn late le... 2:42am le... still printing... cos the comp so slow... my adobe takes forever to prepare the 125 slides for printing... haiz... hang so many times!!! faint...

anyway... today was tiring... supposed to wake up at 8am to go breakfast w roomy... but in the end... din wake up... as usual... n then roomy oso neva wake mi up.. so i open my eyes at 9am.. den cant find my roomy ard... hoho she left le.. haiz

today had chemistry, maths 2 (w bei bei), understanding chin cinemas, n psychology... we watched ruan ling yu's black n white film THE GODDESS (mute too...) n this course seems not bad.. interesting... hahaz

psychology was... well... bit sianz no lect notes as usual.. faint... n the tut 1 seems intimidating.. anw, better slp now.. wan an!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!!!!!

hey all!

Happy 2005!!! thanks for all that my frenz hav done for mi in 2004... now tt i look back at it so much hav happened the past yr! ;) thanks to all my frenz for being there with mi...

thanks to my NTU frenz ning, yiing, angeline n most of all my roomy wenyi! muack! luv ya lots~
thanks to my darling brainies.... claris jane joycelyn! muack! miss ya lotz!
thanks to my hall mates... esp close neighbours, danqi aka yellow, junlin aka mysterious, xinen!, lynnie aka MIA.
thanks to cycling mates... elaine n xuan!
thanks to my bestest frenz... sylvia esther
thanks to my LAOPO! --- joanne (muack!)
thanks to all who hav helped mi during my working days, esp Jamie fr TS, Jane, constance, za, Jeffrey, Aaron, Anthea, Hwee Ping, Pei Pei, Polly, Roslan fr PSPL Ops team! although we hav lost contact but you ppl hav bin great! -muackz- (paiseh.. lost my hp le i oso dunno how to contact u all anymore)

Thanks to my mummy daddy for owis being there for mi, n thanks to my dearest sis for always tolerating mi when i m on the irritating-my-sister-cos-i-m-sianz moods... hahaz

MUACKZ!